most tired autistic

my name is Stairs or Nin, I go by he/hymn, I have autism, ADHD, DID, OCD, and narcolepsy.|my special interests are horror, cats, and old internet!|

[autistic-af]

Types of Internalised Ableism For Autistics:

Note: I'm late diagnosed, so I cannot speak for early diagnosed.

Feel free to add on.

Others have it worse, so I can't complain

I've done this my whole life. Can't stop now, even though it hurts

I can mask just fine. Why can't that autistic person just push through, too?

I haven't earned a day off

At least I'm not like "low functioning" people

If I was diagnosed before 2013, I'd be considered Asperger's. So, I'm not that autistic.

I know I have it tough, but I'm not disabled.

Being autistic means no one will want to date me. Autism is ugly, so I'm ugly.

That person saw me stimming, and even though it was helping me, they must now think I'm a freak

I don't act like that autistic person. What if I'm faking this?

I can't do this thing that would help me because my parents told me only r*tards need those things.

I can't ask for help. I just have to suck it up and do this myself, even though I feel like I'll die if I continue. I don't deserve/need help.

[sophieinwonderland]

You are not called cringe because you're fake! You're called cringe because you're real!

I have a confession to make. We're fakers.

When we're in public, we fake like we're a singlet. I fake when I front and remain silent when I'm called someone else's name. When I pretend it doesn't hurt me every time I'm misgendered. We fake when we omit details about our inner lives when talking to the few singlets we do trust enough to share with because we're afraid they will mock or judge us.

We fake and pretend all the time.

If you're reading this, there's a good chance that you're fakers like us.

You lie and pretend and omit and mask. And that's okay. You know that being out to the wrong people can destroy relationships. It can get you fired from your job. It can make you a pariah. You lie and pretend out of love for your system, to protect yourselves and those you care about. And that is nothing to be ashamed of.

But remember that these are the moments when you're lying.

You are not called cringe when you pretend so you can conform and fit in. You are not called cringe when you mask as a singlet. You are not called cringe when you lie and invalidate yourselves to keep your secret.

You are called cringe when you are real.

You are called cringe because you are honest and true to yourselves.

You are called cringe because you are brave enough to take off the mask. Even if only in certain spaces.

You called cringe when you are proud of who you are.

You face hate because you love yourselves.

Do not fear being called cringe. Wear it as a badge of honor. They attack you because you represent something new, something they don't understand. Because you took a chance in being your real self instead of hiding who you are.

Remember that the actions that others call "cringe" today will pave the way to make the systems of tomorrow feel safe and secure in being who they are. By being brave and strong and real, by putting yourself out there and trusting, you are helping to secure a future where no system needs to fake or pretend ever again.

Thank you for being you!

[the-archenlandian-court]

[ms-t-marie]

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[inkstationzero]

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[autistic-af]

Clues to help you figure out if an autistic friend or loved one is in overload

Overload is basically the point where our Autistic brains can no longer handle input. It's not a meltdown or shutdown, but more of a mental checkout. Frequent overloads, however, can lead to meltdowns or shutdowns.

It's important not to assume that we will have overload only in loud or busy environments. Autistic brains often process information at a much slower pace than a NT brain, so even quiet environments can cause overload if something triggers it.

Note: not every autistic experience is the same and these are general guidelines only.

Common signs of overload:

Loss of facial expression or difficulties in making facial expressions. May start to exaggerate facial expressions, too, as they are struggling to mask.

Staring off into space, easily distracted, struggling to pay attention etc.

Increased stimming.

Difficulties in speaking such as stuttering, forgetting words, mixing up sounds, or difficulty speaking at all.

May try to cover their ears, eyes etc to sensory input.

Increased sensitivities and may include new or unique sensitivities.

Headaches or feeling physically sick such as sweating, stomach ache etc.

Fellow Autistics: what signs would you like for others to know?

[reimeichan]

Memory problems suck but it is kinda fun to get to experience the joy of finding something you end up really enjoying over and over again, and letting the other alters in your system experience that for themselves.

[autism-adhd-information-blog-de]

The five neurodivergent moods:

Infodumping

Parallel Play (Parallel play is a form of play in which people play adjacent to each other, but do not try to influence one another's behavior)

Support Swapping (supportive of both you and others I would assume)

Finding random interesting things and showing them to your friends. Lol

“Crush my souls back into my body.”

This to me sounds like a form of dissociation, but I’m not sure, I’m going by context and me hypothesizing.

I hope you find this interesting. :)

[notabled-noodle]

this is definitely not a new take, but the part of “chronic illness” that abled people can’t conceive of is the “chronic” part.

everyone’s been tired before. everyone’s been in pain before. everyone’s been nauseous before.

so when someone says that they have chronic pain or chronic fatigue or any other chronic illness symptom, an abled person is using the completely wrong frame of reference. they’re going “oh. it’s like that sports injury I had, but it lasts longer” without being able to wrap their heads around the fact that… it’s both nothing like that and also possibly lasts forever

[adhbabey]

If anyone wants studies discussing on how dopamine fuels OCD, here you go!

One

Two

Three

Four

Basically adhd medication can aggravate or worsen OCD, so be aware and please treat both if you have both.

[eratasys]

A reminder that persecutors are not “evil” alters/headmates.

[reimeichan]

What's your amnesia like?

Amnesia is like sitting in your room, just vibing, doing your thing, then looking at the clock and suddenly 5 hours have passed and you're not even sure what you did for those 5 hours.

Amnesia is like having to reread the same paragraph in a book 10 times because you just don't remember what the previous sentence was.

Amnesia is like having a conversation with your friend and forgetting what you said 5 seconds ago and wondering why your friend is now so angry at you.

Amnesia is like looking around as you feel your body loosen up and taste the salty tears rolling down your cheeks and not knowing why you were crying.

Amnesia is like driving to the store and partway there asking yourself why you wanted to go to the store in the first place.

Amnesia is like arguing with your partner and then, as you're walking away, unsure what you were even arguing about.

Amnesia is like being excited for a huge event coming up, and then when the event's finally here you feel nothing for it.

Amnesia is like waking up in an unfamiliar room that feels like it should be familiar.

Amnesia is like waking up in a familiar room that suddenly feels unfamiliar.

Amnesia is like the sudden realization you don't actually know what kinds of people your family was like when you were growing up.

Amnesia is like the sudden realization you don't actually remember your childhood, just what people have told you about it, or even what you've told yourself. Just stated facts, no actual memories.

Amnesia is like knowing something is your favorite song or favorite plushie or favorite color, but not knowing why that is.

Amnesia is like knowing you're good at something but suddenly not knowing how to do the thing no matter how hard you try to remember.

Amnesia is like looking at yourself in the mirror and wondering when you got that haircut.

Amnesia is like staring at your hands, wondering when you grew up and where the years have gone by.

[atiredautistic]

Hi everyone.. been a while since I’ve been on tumblr. Makes me happy to be back though, such a breath of fresh air. I’ll try to be active more often, though building habits is pretty hard for me. Life has been better, in the perspective of years past- but, i am still struggling a lot. Im excited to be posting more.

[writethatdown]

♡ hi hi hi if u r in the slightest bit of discomfort today this is your sign to take things slow and mould your routines so that you are not extra hard on yourself k? try to include something soothing when you wind down like a warm cup of tea, your favorite book, scrolling down pinterest or listening to the little songs in your phone. ily ♡

[mclennonyaoi]

i think it’s very very interesting that adhd and autism comparisons and solidarity are very prominent in the neurodiverse community, but schizophrenia, another disorder that has a lot of ties and similarity to autism almost NEVER gets brought up in relation to it. i wonder why that is.

[positivebears]

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