August

they/them - discourse free mostly vents/rants

[august-adhd]

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[august-adhd]

hey!! i saw ur expensive stim toy post and i feel u man! i ended up making some of my own!! i filled a balloon with clay, i made this bead bracelet and i folded a sheet of paper into this paper spring!! i hope this helps

I just made some kandi last night with my friend and accidentally discovered how nice of a fidget it is! I’ve also been playing with fountain soda lids haha. Luckily I do have some actually fidget toys. Need to find my fidget cube tho..

[august-adhd]

hi!! saw ur expensive stim toy post n just wanted to say that aliexpress sells a bunch of different stim toys for super cheap!! :D

That’s actually where I was looking haha the price just adds up quick with shipping:(

[august-adhd]

Switching back to Prozac (20mg) from Zoloft (50mg) until we get ahold of a psychologist. My doctor no longer feels comfortable experimenting with meds because it’s clear SSRI’s are not doing enough. Hopefully will receive a proper diagnosis and treatment. I’m gonna cross my fingers and say that this is progress for now.

[august-adhd]

Switching from Prozac to Zoloft. This is my third medication. When will they realize there’s a reason they’re not working. This isn’t what I need.

[august-adhd]

Update: this is my least favorite of the three meds I’ve tried. It makes me deep horrible. The doctors won’t answer our calls.

[august-adhd]

AAAAAAA WHY ARE STIM TOYS EXPENSIVE I JUST WANT MANY FIDGETS PLEASEEEEEE

[august-adhd]

Thinking about talking to my friend about my suspicions of being autistic. I know he’ll be nice but it’s just hard to talk about. I’ve never actually talked to anyone I know about it.

This is genuinely harder than coming out (in my personal experience, not a general statement)

I wish I could just go to the doctor and be diagnosed without asking so I could be like “haha guess I’ve got autism” but it’s gonna have to be something I bring up I know it. I’ve learned to mask too well without realizing I was doing it.

[august-adhd]

Disclaimer: this is not meant to be discourse it is simply a neurodivergent rant

It enrages me so much to see teens on tiktok bully fidget accounts where it’s just kids playing with fidget toys and having fun. Even if they don’t have anxiety/adhd/etc theyre just having fun and it really isn’t hurting anyone. Until they are getting the toys banned by using them as a distraction in school (looking at you, fidget spinner trend) there is no need to bully these young children making fun videos about their stress ball or pop it. Even if those toys are marketed towards people who need them, they’re still toys and it’s okay for them to have fun with them.

[killer-beans]

wait so you’re telling me it’s not normal to *obvious symptom of mental illness/neurodivergency*

[abcsofadhd]

(Source: me)

[adhdcognizant-deactivated202110]

[august-adhd]

Yea... how I feel every time I bring it up

[august-adhd]

I really want more money to pour into my special interests and hyperfixations but alas it is nearly impossible to get a job between being neurodivergent, having no experience, a shitty schedule because of school and extracurriculars, and covid-19 making times extra hard.

It’s so stressful I just want a job to feel useful but nooo of course I can’t work retail or fast food like a normal person can because I’m so awkward and anxious and can’t properly communicate with customers and would get fired

[doomdaysdecays-deactivated20251]

@myself, stim healthily, jfc.

[august-adhd]

Me reading this as I’m peeling skin off my lip: hey listen here—

[homosandhomies]

When you realize that "weird" thing you've been doing is actually a stim

[serosfan]

So I’ve just started taking ADHD meds to help and even on a low dose right now things are a lot better. So I have something to say.

ALL THIS TIME TASKS WERE EASY FOR NEUROTYPICALS?! I’m sorry?! I spend all the time feeling INFERIOR and like absolute garbage because people could do tasks better than me and it turns out its because for them it’s EASY?!

WHAT THE FUCK?!

[august-adhd]

God I wish I was you :( can’t wait for the day doctors listen to me and properly treat me... I wanna do things easily

[august-adhd]

I hate that adhd and neurodivergency is all trendy and cute on tiktok. Not as in it’s being normalized and accepted, no, as in neurodivergent people are being infantalized and our traits are being boiled down to only the “cute” and “quirky” things to the point where neurotypicals are self diagnosing and using our terms. #hyperfixated was trending because NTs were describing their interests with neurodivergent terms. While this is all happening, ND people are still bullied and degraded for their “weird” and “ugly” symptoms and traits. Things that can’t be seen as quirky and adorable and taken by NTs who want the aesthetic. We aren’t being accepted. We’re just being used.

Disclaimer: I am not opening up to discourse related discussions as my blog is strictly discourse free because this is a place to rant/vent about troubles of being ND.

Another disclaimer: I am in no way judging people who question if they’re ND as I am one of those people questioning what I may have so when I say “NT ppl are using our terms and self diagnosing” I 100% mean people who are actually neurotypical claiming not to be because they want to be cool

[august-adhd]

Thinking about deleting this blog.... hmmm not sure.