🧷📎🧷📎 📎dilfs🧷 📎🧷

He/they 🪦 26

[awfulwizard]

Honestly only writing this here because none of my RL friends will see this.

CW: venting, chronic pain, imposter syndrome

I am so tired and so exhausted from my chronic pain, it’s been so long, several months with little sleep and no real rest, because if I sit still for too long, I will not be able to move without excruciating pain. And if I move I will be exhausted to the point of my joints to go stiff.

I try to take painkillers but I’m so tired that even getting the bottle in the other room feels impossible.

I keep considering getting my hands on weed to make me actually sleep, but I don’t have a way to get my hands on it safely (it is also illegal) , and I would have to stop taking my medication which is not an option.

I just want to sleep, I just want to feel comfortable and no terrified of leaving my apartment for more than a few hours.

I have so little trust in doctors, that even though I’m going to a specialist in February, I expect to be told that nothing is wrong. Like I’m always told, by every single doctor for the past 6+ years, no matter how bad I feel

At this point I even doubt it my self, I feel like it’s no even imposter syndrome, I am rly just making it up.

[awfulwizard]

I never use this account anymore- but im happy to Update that I am now diagnosed with fibromyalgia and possibly more in the future- I’m getting medication, I have appointments for long term pain treatment and for once, a doctor believed me and validated that what I was going through wasn’t normal at all.

It’s hard to adjust to disability but for now, slow and steady has been working

[professionalchaoticdumbass]

EVIL POWERS ACTIVATE!!!!

:3

:3

[thoodleoo]

touching grass is not enough i need to see the night sky as it looked to an ancient greek

[popsunner]

Was just informed by my mom that I do in fact have ADHD and the reason I thought I didn’t was because ever since I was seven whenever I got super energetic my mom would have me go chop wood so now when I’m feeling The ADHD I go chop wood and I thought it was just some sort of routine I started when I was little and wanted to blow off steam

[popsunner]

I’d also like to point out that my sister has a really hard time staying present (I can’t remember the term because we’ve always called it Tethered at my house) and whenever she’s feeling Untethered my mom has her knead bread and make syrup because they’re repetitive and easy things to do that ground her

[popsunner]

Now that I’m thinking about it- my brother has days where he doesn’t talk and doesn’t eat unless he’s prompted, and on those days my mom sits him down in the fish pond in the backyard and plays Mozart and because he’s so used to that being his wake up he always comes back in after like an hour rambling about random things

[popsunner]

Oh yeah and when it rains my mom has a required hour where we all have to go outside and run around and whoever finds the most worms for the garden wins and then we go inside and my mom makes us tea and we watch Studio Ghibli movies

[popsunner]

Wait!!! When one of us has a bad day at school we make a fire in the backyard and roast homemade sausages and my mom tells us stories until we laugh and then she tucks is in bed like we’re five again and sings us songs

[popsunner]

Uh.... wait guys is my mom a witch raising a bunch of fae kids hold on-

[eldritch-eternity]

“I didn’t know I had adhd because my mom gave me such an effective coping mechanism” is such a high bar to clear and she soared over it like a space-plane.

[selfhealingmoments]

[ursawood]

[reallyreallyreallytrying]

sure. blame the guy who’s a huge idiot who causes a lot of problems, again

[chezcaceline]

[captainofthetidesbreath]

why am I not a small, well-loved domestic cat

[moldavite-moved]

there's nothing in this world a chunky boot and a big coat wont fix. its like glue that holds my soul together

[grecoromanyaoi]

some of you are like. really weird about bald people tbh

[grecoromanyaoi]

'balding' isnt "bad genetics" its literally just a trait. something natural that happens to a lot of people. not necessarily good or bad. jfc

[grecoromanyaoi]

it aint inherently ugly either like ???? it fits some people it doesnt fit others. a lot of people look good bald and a lot dont. whatever. like its not a gotcha! as a sign of """bad""" aging its not an insult its just. people's bodies.

[no-rx]

@ all my vampire friends who worry they aren’t “real vampires”: you are vlad

[stimcourseisanevilbastard]

This sounds suspiciously aphobic or possibly terfy

[bipeoplearentyourpawns]

are you aware that you are responsible for the funniest post on this site

[admircot]

having thoughts about a media that my friends aren’t into and thus would need the context of to understand my mad man ramblings about themes and symbols and im left with a head fit to bursting

[admircot]

[awfulwizard]

Honestly only writing this here because none of my RL friends will see this.

CW: venting, chronic pain, imposter syndrome

I am so tired and so exhausted from my chronic pain, it’s been so long, several months with little sleep and no real rest, because if I sit still for too long, I will not be able to move without excruciating pain. And if I move I will be exhausted to the point of my joints to go stiff.

I try to take painkillers but I’m so tired that even getting the bottle in the other room feels impossible.

I keep considering getting my hands on weed to make me actually sleep, but I don’t have a way to get my hands on it safely (it is also illegal) , and I would have to stop taking my medication which is not an option.

I just want to sleep, I just want to feel comfortable and no terrified of leaving my apartment for more than a few hours.

I have so little trust in doctors, that even though I’m going to a specialist in February, I expect to be told that nothing is wrong. Like I’m always told, by every single doctor for the past 6+ years, no matter how bad I feel

At this point I even doubt it my self, I feel like it’s no even imposter syndrome, I am rly just making it up.

[cringepdf-deactivated20240504]

the personification of death being portrayed as deeply kind in fiction is something that reduces me to tears every single time

[weirdwerewolf-deactivated-deact]

you are not nearly funny or attractive enough for this

are we about to kiss?

[niceferatu]

obsessed with the idea of someone saying this under their breath as they lean in for a kiss

[cock]

tumblr is basically a gay bar in a mental institute

[luftwaffel-deactivated20131125]

who did you have to kill to get that URL