blogging about.. whatever shit I want.

New account because I couldn't use my previous one anymore. he/him. Israeli antizionist, I stand with Palestine 🇵🇸✡️.

[ben-the-fag]

"you could be wrong about your self diagnosis!" I'm sorry what does it fucking matter.

I mean. I did the research. People I'm friends with that has the same condition told me that it fits me.

I feel like this term describes me, it helps me describe experiences I've always felt that I could never name before. Calling me by this name helps me.

Yeah ideally I would have a psychiatrist or a psychologist that could diagnose me but at the moment I don't have that. And I don't know when I'll be able to have any.

So what do you fucking care if I use a name to describe mental symptoms I've been feeling for forever?

Literally how am I hurting anyone.

[ben-the-fag]

Starting to hang out with a lot of medically transitioned trans people irl kinda sucks, like, on one hand hanging out with trans people is great on the other hand I feel like I'm failing some standard.

I don't even have any good explanation to tell them. "Why haven't you transitioned already" genuinely I don't know. A million and one things has happened to me this year, my life were kinda comically on fire around me, but I can't give a real answer to explain it. None of these things feels good enough.

I feel like I'm stuck in a limbo where I'm forever lost and I'm watching my life passing right in front of me. Every day I dream about getting free and every day I keep getting more and more swallowed by the waves trying to take me down, and people keep telling me "why aren't you freeing yourself? Just learn to swim. I was able to do it easily" or "you should really find some help to get you out of it" and every day I keep getting more and more lost to the depths.

A part of me dies every time I try to explain why I'm unable to free myself. I really don't have any good reason for it, things just are. I can't explain the why.

Even tho I'm surrounded by more community than I ever had before I feel alone.

I think about transitioning every day and every day this goal feels further and further away from me and like one day this option is going to escape from me completely.

It makes me feel suffocated. I feel like I'm drowning, and no one is ever going to find me.

I'm stuck inside a limbo I have no idea how to get out of.

[phantomrose96]

I think Elon Musk has done irreparable damage to the tech industry.

[ben-the-fag]

Greetings, Tumblr!

My queer activism group is very pro Palestine and we wanted a pro Palestine pride flag for support so I made a design!

I had a bunch of different ideas for how to combine but I like this version the most so far. My thought process was to make something that would be easy to draw on signs for protests also.

More versions (more flags) under the cut

I also made genderfluid, omni polysexual and aroace versions but not everyone entered in one post :(

If you want them or if you want any other flag let me know in the comments!

[ben-the-fag]

OP goes by he/him, do not misgender

I hate it when people tell me "what can you even know about trans misogyny? It's not targeted against you." "Shut up and let transfems do the talking".

Yeah you're right, I'm transmasc I have no idea what it's like to live as a trans woman and deal with the misogyny they get. But also I know a thing or two about experiencing misogyny for being the wrong type of a "girl".

I didn't always know I'm trans in the past. I used to live as a girl. And because of who I actually was- transmasc, autistic, I was perceived as inherently threatening to cis girls, I was rejected, punished, dehumanised for not being society's idea of a "girl".

I look white but I have a middle eastern decent, as a result I have a naturally pretty "masculine" fascial features.

I was always perceived as inherently masculine and I was treated like the enemy for it. It's actually one of the things that held me off in discovering that I'm trans.

My gender, my autism, my ethnicity- no matter what I did by my nature I was more masculine and evil than all the other girls.

I may not be a girl but I used to be perceived as a girl, and I know what it's like to exist as "the wrong type of a woman".

No I'm not a trans woman I can't say I go through the things they go through. But I still know my shit around misogyny and I can understand my way around trans misogyny.

Transfems & transmascs are not "reverse of each other". We fight against the same things, the same forces are used against both of our groups. We're not radically different from each other.

We may not be the same and we go through different things but my experiences with misogyny are still tied to how this whole system works, I have stuff to contribute to the discussion as well.

So yeah I'm a trans guy and I'm a trans feminist also. I will always speak against transmisogyny and I'll fight against it. I'm still full of rage about all the misogynistic shit I went through and I will always speak against the discrimination my trans sisters face. Part of their group or not I can relate to their pain and I can join them in the fight to change society.

[ananarchie]

nothing will ever make you want to tear your shitty country to pieces like reading about literally any part of its history

[leviathan-supersystem]

Hegseth warns Cuba against acquiring weapons in visit to Guantánamo Bay

US defense secretary continues ramp-up of pressure against country including sanctions and devastating oil blockade

guy who's been threatening to break into your house and kill you in your sleep for months unprovoked says "also don't buy a gun btw"

[kropotkindersurprise]

but also, that guy has cut your power, AND he is squatting in one of your rooms already with a huge stockpile of guns!

[ben-the-fag]

Transmascs(&enbys) really do face a worse oppression- wait did I write oppression? I meant compression, the fucking compression on my chest every day from my binder. Ow. I go to protests and I sometimes wear my binder there to look good in front of people I know but it's fucking rough! And the heat makes me get even more easily exhausted. This fucking compression, man.

The oppressions different trans groups face are literally incomparable and if you think otherwise get tf off my page.

[ben-the-fag]

Question, the trans community.

How do we feel about finding a better terminology for "pre medical transition" trans folks?

There are many trans folks that are not interested- or unable- to get a medical transition, and they're valid too.

However the term "pre transition" kinda implies that transition is inherent to being trans, or at least that all trans people must want this, which is not true.

The term "non passing" exist but I also don't think it totally describes that experience- if you're good enough at gender performance you can definitely pass as a different gender than the ones that was assigned to you at birth. Look at codplayers, for example- I've seen many women cosplayers that cosplay male characters and they do it phenomenally with makeup and chest compression items that make them appear like men.

Just because you have a particular biological sex doesn't mean you can't defy the boundaries of gender and choose a different presentation.

Also, a term like this would be more friendly to intersex trans people- there's no one experience of being trans and intersex, however for many trans intersex people embracing their transness could be about embracing the body they were born in, the traits they weren't allowed to present, they had to "make up" for them. Those particular individuals also might not desire a medical transition, because to them being trans is about embracing what they have.

I personally do want to medically transition some day, but I think it's an interesting subject to think about. What better terminology could describe these folks, the trans people with no desire or no ability to transition? Because it's extremely valid to be trans and not to transition, and labeling them all as "pre transition" kinda implies they have to go through it. Or that they're weird if they don't have a desire to transition.

I just think a better language is needed for the trans group that falls outside of the trans norm of medical transitioning.

[deadboydetectivesource]

Happy Pride Month!

[technically-human]

Hi! I don't know if you're still interested in dbda, and feel free to ignore this, but:

Between Charles and Charlotte, who would be the most likely (or... maybe the first, since they're the same person) to replace "Ruby" with their respective Payne's name if/when singing Ruby by Kaiser Chiefs?

Let it never be said

that romance is dead

ko-fi

[this-is-transandrophobia]

my gender studies/trans studies uni course is entirely focused on writing by and about trans women, and has completely disregarded trans men.

We have 1-2 readings a week, and every single one has either been by transfem authors focused solely on transfem experiences, or talks about transness as a broader topic and never specifically references trans men. I went from thinking it was just a coincidence or interest of the professors to genuinely not understanding how you can create a course this biased.

this week my prof had the audacity to label the unit "trans histories" and assigned a reading solely about the history of TRANSMISOGYNY. in the entire reading trans men and transandrophobia were not mentioned once...

transmascs deserve better than to be ignored in trans education

This is transandrophobia

[redstonedust]

its probably a normal sign for the economy that all of my adulthood fantasies are like "imagine having your own kitchen living room and bathroom to decorate" "what if i could get on a train" "maybe one day i could purchase a sturdy pair of shoes" "i should save and invest in a single bicycle"

[userfish]

this pride month we’re all going to be radically pro transgender. or else.

[whatevergreen]

15th of May - No to Zionism - PFLP, 1980

[mint-clackelroy-deactivated2026]

Can we just fucking have Dead Boy Detectives back? Please?

Fuck.

[tboy-cock]

Hey so if you mean jew say jew. Stop disguising your antisemitism by calling random ppl "zionist" 👍

assuming that a. all zionists are jewish and b. all jewish people are zionists is EXTREMELY antisemetic but go off colonizer