I'm not a mess, I'm a butterfly in progress

I have a side blog dedicated to fanfiction writing and other assorted fandom things @alls-fair-in-pride-and-prejudice. This is my main blog where I follow from, where I pretty much just post whatever. I started this years ago to talk about my mental health journey, but now in addition I talk about all sorts of things. Bonafide Adult™ with a salaried job and everything

[openblogtomyabusivemother]

Recovery is messy when you’re doing it right. 💙

[anniespositivity]

You are a butterfly in the making.

[torstherapy]

[powerbottombrucespringsteen]

The thing is nobody at pride is evaluating you to determine if you’re queer enough to be there because they’re too busy thinking “it’s so hot out” and “why is this lemonade 12 dollars?”

[just-another-cat-blog]

pride month!!!

[lemonsharks]

Is that a miette?

[jeanjauthor]

Pride for you!  Pride for a thousand years!!

[lost-and-cursed]

you COME OUT to miette? you come out to her as queer? oh! oh! pride for mother! pride for mother for One Thousand Years!!!!

[depsidase]

[bebsi-cola]

honestly the impact of frustration is seriously underestimated. like as an emotion i think it's not seen as intense as anger or despair or even joy or excitement. and yet being frustrated is the quickest route to meltdown. for me at least. there's something about how it's just got nowhere to go that makes it so overwhelming and unpleasant. and it gives you just contradictory responses to the situation can do you keep trying, do you get angry, do you cry and get upset do you throw up like what

[the-sacred-now]

My teachers called frustration "a mild term for anger and helplessness combined." Those are not minor feelings on their own, I'm not sure why people speak as though they soften each other when it's more of a coke and mentos situation.

[butterfly-in-progress]

And I'm not saying you'll be cured. You'll still have those awful nights, the ones where you cry and cry until the tears carry away the screams that echo between your ears.

But you'll cry into their chest instead of your pillows. And the next day you'll go back to work. You'll make fruit salad with fresh mint from your balcony garden, and the love of your life will serenade you in the kitchen.

The life you were so scared you were too broken to ever have or maintain will be yours, and you'll sit in this contentedness and know:

This is what you stayed alive for.

[achillesinhighheels]

[i-like-reblog-maps]

What month were you born in?

January

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Voting ended onMay 28

Doing a final project in my stats class, we have to pick a subject and collect data on it. We need at least 100 data points, and I figured this blog is big enough that a poll on here could get to that pretty easily!

Doing my project on if it’s more likely to be born in certain months :]

I have gotten the OK from my teacher to collect data using a Tumblr poll, btw. I’m also going to have to send her this post as proof of where I got the data from / proof I didn’t just make up the numbers. So. Behave

[edgar-allan-possum]

[bajuuuu]

[what-even-is-thiss]

So at a party it is socially acceptable to just silently join a circle of people talking and contribute to the conversation when you feel like it as if you already know everyone in the circle, btw.

[what-even-is-thiss]

If you want to know people’s names at some point saying “Sorry, did I catch your name?” or “Sorry, what was your name again?” like you’ve briefly been introduced before is a good move.

[what-even-is-thiss]

Conversation openers for starting a conversation with a random person next to you:

What’s the punch taste like?

What are you drinking?

How do you know the host?

Hey, nice shoes!

Did you bring this drink/food/decoration/etc.?

Hey, what’s your costume?

Are you from (place where a lot of people at the party work or are from)?

Hi! Did you come with (mutual friend)?

[krillbeans]

Fr? On god? Just like that?

[what-even-is-thiss]

Yeah, just act like you’ve been there the whole time.

[what-even-is-thiss]

I have social anxiety and discovered this by trial and error despite my fears. I took on this burden for all of you so you don’t have to. Trust me. Just stand in the gap in the circle. It’s waiting for you. It’s an event where people are expecting to meet other people. It’s not creepy or weird. They’re there to talk to strangers and friends alike. Just step into the circle.

[vio1315]

Okay, I gotta say this nuance aloud, though maybe everyone already understood it.

When people discuss the importance of using things, such as special plates, candles, special clothes- they will say that it's best to use them all the time, and that this makes each day special or something like that.

Which is only part of the picture if you ask me.

It's good not to hoard things forever, but if you use everything all the time, it also leaves certain special times as kind of indistinct from anything else. Like having a Christmas tree up all year kind of takes something away from it.

So here's my rephrasing: special things should have a concrete time of use, not an abstract one.

If you have an outfit you love but have it dedicated to only wear once a year on a specific day? Totally fine! You are using it, and it is contributing something to your life.

If you have plates that you'll only use 'for a special occasion' but haven't touched them in years? Evidently you don't know how to recognize a special occasion and should try and think of more specific qualifiers.

Some nice things make every day special, and others make certain times unique. It doesn't have to be one or the other, there's also joy in restraint. You just have to make sure perfectionism isn't slipping into how you use the ones that are only for some of the time.

[cheerfullycatholic]

[night-windows]

[drumlincountry]

Why do they even make apps for ADHD. You want me to use my 24/7 handheld immediate distraction device? To manage my 'gets distracted too easily' disorder? Ooooh we developed the perfect tool for managing your anemia. Its hosted in Dracula's castle. 👍

[shortshortking]

Picked up my phone to consult my task list for today and now I'm reblogging this instead, case in point

[ozempicofficial]

[memeuplift]

[theoutcastrogue]

Congress Is Considering Abolishing Your Right to Be Anonymous Online

The bipartisan push to remove anonymity from the internet is ushering in an era of unprecedented mass surveillance and censorship.

"The problem is that there’s no way to reliably verify someone’s age without verifying who they are. A platform cannot magically discern that a user is 16 without collecting identifying information, whether through government documents such as a passport, payment information like a credit card, or other identity-disclosing data. Whether that data is stored by the platform itself or outsourced to a vendor, the result is always the same: A user’s offline identity is forever linked with their online behavior.

Stripping anonymity from the internet would constitute one of the most sweeping rollbacks of civil rights in recent history. It would allow for unprecedented levels of mass surveillance and censorship, endangering the most marginalized members of society. Whistleblowers exposing corporate wrongdoing could be tracked and fired, government employees speaking out about illegal behavior or bad policies could face prosecution, and activists organizing protests could be identified and surveilled before ever setting foot on the street."

[softness-and-shattering]

And this is exactly the kind of thing US lawmakers will decide for US citizens, and it will effect everyone who uses the internet globally. Already any kind of age verification amounts to "hand over your government identification to a private US corporation".

I dont know what solutions might be on a broader scale, but its absurd for one country to have this much power and for their private corporations to be handed this amount of authority from literally world governments demanding "safety for children". This power structure is absurd.

Yall USians have got to shut down all this bullshit, youre the ones who vote these people in and out. Theyre not gonna give a shit what foreigners have to say.

[thatdiabolicalfeminist]

This kind of legislation is in the interests both of massive corporations, who think they can squeeze a little more money out of you by monitoring every moment of your life, and the political interests who think vulnerable groups need to be taught their place in a white supremacist, eugenic vision of the world, by being made even more vulnerable to deportation, mass incarceration (and I'm including in this list the concentration camps already being built to incarcerate people living unhoused and people deemed "mentally ill"), as well as outright lynching.

As facism grows more ascendant globally, fighting for privacy is increasingly urgent and crucial in every single other important cause.

If you want to protect any vulnerable people at all, clawing back privacy however and whenever we can is going to have to be part of that protection.