The MedHead Diaries

So, My name is Celina Jay and I'm an Alcoholic... Oh, and I also have Borderline Personality Disorder, Bi-polar Disorder, OCD, ADHD, and PTSD. Basically, I'm batshit crazy. But, it's ok. Because I'm a MedHead, and proud :)

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News Alert!!!

Ok so I have a new blog! Basically I'm combining my medhead world with my transition into adulthood! Check out Adult Sh*t at: cj-orr 

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What if Cady in Mean Girls went to an all black school? WELL FANTASY JUST BECAME REALITY.

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OMFG

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I just can’t.

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XD

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Oh my gosh! I have never wanted a video on YouTube to become a real movie so bad in my life!

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5/23/13 - So, my niece scares me a little.

This morning I was talking to my niece about Harry Potter, and I asked her who her favorite character is. She replied, "I'm quite a big fan of the Dark Lord." I looked at her slightly puzzled and said, "Really? Voldemort is your-" before I could finish she yelled, "You dare speak his name! YOU FILTHY HALF-BLOOD!" Which is when I realized my niece doesn't want to be just any Death Eater, she wants to be Bellatrix Lestrange...

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Expectation: Get to be happy because you don’t realize you are crazy.

Reality: Have to deal with knowing you are crazy and be forever unsure if the information your brain is giving you is sound.

Expectation: Get to live in a mental ward and be coddled forever, don’t have to have...

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So TRUE! And, speaking as someone who lived in a residential treatment center for a year, it is not at all what movies portray. When I finally got out I felt like running around and yelling "Fuck yeah, Mother Fuckers! I'm out!"

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ive reblogged this too many fuckin times but NO FUCKS ARE GIVEN

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You can’t reblog this too many times.

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I know it's kind of wrong but I completely in love with Tate. Even if he is a psychopath.

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This is my new theme song. Just listening to it makes me happy :)

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The Baby Tipper

My friend: I think Sweetie Peetie is the best nick name ever!

Me: Psh! Please, as a two year old I was known as "The Baby Tipper" to the daycare staff because if another toddler annoyed me I would rip out their pacifier and push them over. Now THAT is the best nick name ever!

My friend: You take way to much pleasure in that...

Me: You have no idea.

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4/25/13 - Get in my fuckin boat!! Or not...Yeah, that's cool.

Why is it that any time someone you care about is in pain or needs help they're just like, "Nope, not this time sucker!"?

It's like, they're on a sinking ship and I'm sitting there going, "Dude come on, get in my life boat there's plenty of room!" and they respond, "Nah it's chill. I'm just gonna take my chances like Jack and Rose." To which I yell, "Bitch, one of them DIED! Get in my fucking boat!" But, they just stand there with a fake smile and say, "Really, I'm fine" even though I can tell they're terrified.

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So true.

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My alcoholism in a nutshell...

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I love telling people this. They get that horrified, "Oh shit!" look on their face that just gets even better as I giggle and walk away :D

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See? My love of serial killers just makes me more interesting, not concerning.

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Tread lightly

*A really good friend of mine had just posted the second song he's written for me on my facebook wall*

Momma: Oh good lord, he wrote you another song?!

Me: Relax, it's not a big deal.

Momma: Mhm...Tread lightly Jordyn...you know across his heart.

Me: Haha, oh for f*cks sake!

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3/20/13 - Down The Hatch

So, I just got out of another behavioral health hospital....About two weeks ago I spiraled down out of control and overdosed. So naturally they shipped me off to get stable again. Now that I'm back at square one, let's see if I can manage to not screw this shit up for a millionth time. 

~Jordyn

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After a 3 day binge drinking bender my parents and Psych. made me sign a contract saying I would start going to group therapy twice a week instead of once and start going to AA again in order to avoid going to rehab for a second time. So, of course as soon as my group friends found out they decided to play Rehab by Amy Winehouse as I walked into the room this afternoon :) haha gotta love 'em.