Walking, Decompsing Corpse

this is a place for me to throw all my worst thoughts so I don't bottle them up, not an accurate representation of me as a whole person tw: sh, eating issues, depression, anxiety, sewerslide

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I always say that I wish I was dead but I already feel dead, like a rotting corpse trying to convince everyone it’s still human

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I wish I existed in a universe where my house was 15 centimeters to the right (left)

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thhe last time I felt true joy was playing Yoshi's Woolly World on the Wii U at 10 years old with my dad after school

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I get sad when I see dead cockroaches because I'm also out here just trying my best

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I want to die I wsnt to die I want ti die I want to die I want todie I want to die I want to die I want to die

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can you sl!t my wr!sts for me? 🥺

I'm too much of a pussy to do it myself

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oh Imm going to end it thjs ks so embarrassing I hate it so much why why whchwh hwhxy why wh ywhy why hwy why

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The pounding headache you wake up with after crying yourself to sleep is BRUTAL

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obsessively checking my DMs for a message from him even though I'm on the phone with him and can hear him snoring

fuck I miss him so bad I'm going crazy I need to talk to him I love him so much I love him I love him I love him I miss him I love him so much please come back pleasee

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how to bring up to my therapist I might have bpd

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bad idea :(

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I won't let myself get worse because I love you and you deserve someone who is trying to get better you deserve someone who is good and I'll be good for you so that some day I can be good for myself

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there's nothing to worry about baby I want you and only you <33

my ex is disgustting and I never want them I hate them I hate htem I hate them I wish I never had to see or think about them ever again only you only you only you only you only you

you can have all of me you can have whatever you want from me my baby I'm all yours and only yours

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he's jealous over me he's jealous over me HE'S jealous over me he's jealous over ME HE"S jealous over ME he's JEALOUS over me <33

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anything for you anything for you anything for you I'd do anything for you my love I would do anything I lvoe you I love you I want to make you happy I want to make you comfortable I'll do anything to make you happy to help you I love you so much

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told him about some of my intense sh intrusive thoughts and he didn't leave me <33

he loves me and he accepts me and I love him so much <33

I only hope he stays when I tell him the worst of it

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do you think I'm weird?

I can't let you find this

please don't leave me

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I'm all ♡his♡ I only want ♡him♡ only ♡him♡ always ♡him♡ <33

I'll stay if he hurts me I'll stay with him I'll do whatever he needs I just want him but he's sweet he's good he's kind and I'm so lucky but if he wanted to hurt me he could I wouldn't mind <33