"idle vapourings of a mind diseased"

Ask me your food questions! I don't believe in putting personal information in my bio but I'm an adult

[johannestevans]

i'm so exhausted and tired by constant Mature Language Mature Thoughts Mature Content flags and having to censor perfectly normal words and having to think twice about everything i say and what platform it can go on in case somebody could see it and feel things and waaaah

like. fucking hell

i'm not a mormon. i'm not an evangelical christian. i'm not a self-loathing mid-western american person who belongs to any cults. i don't despise and loathe the concept of female sexuality or women existing. i don't feel ashamed or disgusted by sexuality or sex, and i refuse to

meanwhile every goddamn website i use is trying desperately to train me into exactly that sort of shame and self-loathing and fear of sex and sexuality, and bodily autonomy, and personal physical empowerment

skewing the meaning of "consent" to mean. if someone sees a picture they don't like

being horny is good. sexual and sexy art and literature are good. i like to feel sexual desire and to be sexually desired. i like sex. i like sexuality. i like "mature themes". i don't need to click a consent box to see every single potentially mature post one-by-one. i feel like i'm going insane

[escuerzoresucitado]

[asskylosaurus]

You know I turned on the sound just to help me understand what was going on and I guess it was exactly what it looked like.

[geeoharee]

Ooh! Spot the industrial safety device! The worker has to press a 'stab the cheese' button with both hands. This is because if they're doing that, neither of their hands can be within the cheese stabbing zone.

[evilwizard]

okay im gonna hypnotize you with my ruby amulet now DONT BE WEIRD ABOUT IT. im doing this to make you betray the king. IT IS NOT A SEX THING

[violet-hady]

I think the fact that you immediately thought about clarifying it’s not a sex thing kinda makes it sound like it is a sex thing.

[evilwizard]

FOOL. i would be using my sex amulet for that

[quark-art]

had to draw this

[lorn-art]

Saw an old lady today that looked like an old lady and was dressed like an old lady except she was wearing big goth stomping boots like this

[actual-howlinglikeaseaturtle]

[sourdough-seal]

hyperfixation please stay with me long enough to complete the project. hyperfixation do not fade. hyperfixation finish what you started for the love of god

[medievalreligiousfanatic]

[ursus-arctos-horribilis-chadder]

Foul beast ate that adventurer whole, RIP

[clevercorvidae]

People on twitter have been saying this website is extremely white and tbh its making me very curious what the demographics of this site are (of my own reach anyway) so

What is your race (predominantly)

White

Latino

Middle Eastern

Asian

Black

Indigenous American

Aboriginal Australian

Pacific Islander

Mixed

Other

Voting ended onJul 31, 2025

DISCLAIMER: Race is a non scientific concept with no exact definitions. It is a social construct primarily characterized by how society treats you and thus this is an imperfect poll. If you feel none of the options here reflect you and your experience I implore you to reblog this with your experience as I am curious about that and want to hear about it.

[keepcalmandcarriefischer]

Uh.... Please reblog this and cast as wide a net as possible

[armandgender]

donald trump will die on july 20th 2025 at 1pm pacific standard time

[myladyofmercy]

like to charge reblog to cast

[videntefernandez]

[helenvaughans]

i think the reason a lot of men are screaming, puking, and crying about this is bc it forces them to acknowledge that the reason they can’t get women to like them is not actually bc of their physique but bc of their shitty personality

[sioltach]

[raptorific]

This post came up in conversation once and I tried to google and find it but every variation on the caption I typed in made google hit me with their "hey man, maybe stop searching for racist memes" followed by 10,000 explicitly racist memes and, crucially, not this post. While I am glad this is a feature google has, it definitely did not help me find this post (which is not racist) but it did show me a lot memes (that were on purpose racist)

[intangibleseafoam]

Ok, bedtime now, but I am now fully possessed and will be working on my MCR tech theatre fic tomorrow bc holy shit the everything tonight was so goddamn cool.

Thank you to all the Seattle IATSE locals who probably worked load in and then probably tear down tonight. Thank you to the touring crew and congratulations on opening night of the tour! Thank you stage management, sound, lighting, carpenters, props, wardrobe, vehicle drivers and anyone else I may have forgotten. Thank you to all the designers for the projections, set, lighting and costumes that have been working for so long (maybe like years if I remember what Gee said about how long the tour has been in planning???) and finally having your work seen by the public. Thank you to the additional performers! Can't wait to see more of y'all too! And absolutely last but not least, thank you MCR!

Live performance is magical, even if you're not there in person.

I cannot wait to see what happens next!

[cookieantifa]

I was an IATSE 15 hand there tonight! I've been there every day since Monday and I'm loading them out tomorrow. Absolutely been my favorite call of my whole career

[intangibleseafoam]

Omg that's so cool!!!! Thank you thank you thank you, stagehands make shows work and y'all never get enough credit! Have a safe load out tomorrow!

[cookieantifa]

Thanks for being a fan! Seeing how happy our work makes people is one of my favourite parts of this job. Y'all are the reason my whole industry exists.

On the technical side, I was on what's called the steel crew. We built the stage and the speaker towers in the field. The other crew is called the production crew, they brought in all the set and equipment -- the lighting, the speakers, the pyro, the big sign, etc. I've worked both steel and production on similar shows, so I can answer questions about both.

Most of what I did for MCR was assemble trusses. Specifically, I helped build the stage roof and the speaker towers. It's all made from prefabricated and if possible interchangeable parts, it's always amazing how much it's like a giant Lego set. At first it doesn't feel that much like tech theater, but a lot of these technologies and techniques were developed for theater and then adapted to live music. There's so much to talk about with the technical side of things, and I'm happy to answer questions! I love talking about this stuff.

[intangibleseafoam]

Ok, bedtime now, but I am now fully possessed and will be working on my MCR tech theatre fic tomorrow bc holy shit the everything tonight was so goddamn cool.

Thank you to all the Seattle IATSE locals who probably worked load in and then probably tear down tonight. Thank you to the touring crew and congratulations on opening night of the tour! Thank you stage management, sound, lighting, carpenters, props, wardrobe, vehicle drivers and anyone else I may have forgotten. Thank you to all the designers for the projections, set, lighting and costumes that have been working for so long (maybe like years if I remember what Gee said about how long the tour has been in planning???) and finally having your work seen by the public. Thank you to the additional performers! Can't wait to see more of y'all too! And absolutely last but not least, thank you MCR!

Live performance is magical, even if you're not there in person.

I cannot wait to see what happens next!

[cookieantifa]

I was an IATSE 15 hand there tonight! I've been there every day since Monday and I'm loading them out tomorrow. Absolutely been my favorite call of my whole career

[cookieantifa]

I just saw one of my favorite songs ever performed live after helping build the stage it was performed on. I love my job so much, I'm going to remember this for the rest of my life.

[blurds]

This blog has been telling you not to trust pelicans for over a decade and this is why

[thetygre]

[1wintersierra]

[beaft]

my cat hates taking his pills. the only way we can get him to eat them is to turn it into an elaborate pantomime - we take the packet out of the cupboard slowly and hold it up, saying “oh!! what’s this? what’s this? a TREAT? a TREAT for louis????” while making surprised faces. we offer him a pill… then, before he has a chance to sniff it, we wag our fingers at him and replace it in the packet so it becomes a Tantalising Forbidden Mystery. we continue doing this until he’s so confused and excited that he will eat the pill as fast as possible, just so he can find out what it is before we can take it away from him again. as soon as he’s eaten it he looks utterly disappointed and betrayed, like a child who just ate a delicious sweet only to find it was a chocolate-coated brussels sprout. it never gets old

[autumngracy]

Op this is the funniest thing I’ve ever read

[fucktheflagandfuckyou]

op how could you just hide this from me in the tag this makes this objectively 10000000% funnier

[stalling]

50 First Doses

[skyline-sunset-in-my-veins]

You trick Louis? You trick Louis like a common fool? Oh jail, jail for owners ONE MILLION YE-oh what’s this? A treat?

[allthingswhumpyandangsty]

just a heads up to my fellow writers out there that AO3 is currently fighting off bots commenting on people’s works to tell them that AO3 will delete their fics “due to the works being deprecated”, and the deletion will affect their accounts unless the authors delete the fics themselves first. IT IS A SCAM. AO3 will NOT delete your works. please do NOT fall for these bots!

I’ve been told the reason why these bots are doing this is due to copyright infringement issue where they’re trying to steal your works (possibly to train AI but this is just a guess) ‼️‼️‼️and once you deleted your fics, it will be either very difficult or impossible for you to claim ownership of your own fics when they were already deleted.‼️‼️‼️

a reminder that AO3 will never contact you through your comments section (in case they claim to be one of the moderators). AO3 will only contact you through your email address which you use to register your account, and it will be from AO3’s official handle. not some sketchy ass @

so if you get a comment telling you you should “delete your works to protect your account because AO3 is doing blah blah blah” report that comment. don’t delete your works.

PLEASE DO NOT FALL FOR THESE SCAM.

AO3 IS NOT DELETING WORKS.

DO NOT DELETE YOUR WORKS JUST BECAUSE SOMEONE CLAIMS THEY KNOW SOMETHING.

[imminentchaos]

Reblogging so more people see this

[zillychu]

hey guys check it out I can do a frontside 180 with my stomach haha

[zillychu]

hopital

[zillychu]

just 4 u. I braved Phone Art while on Turbo Morphine (I think they called it dilaudid. it's Turbo Morphine 2 me)

oh ur super flexible? yeah well lmao can u do THIS??? (throws up and dies)

[zillychu]

u know in retrospect my stomach shrimping wasn't even the worst part so far. it was the tube that went to third base with my floppy ass cardia. through my sinuses. just straight up cockwarmed a silly straw all the way thru my esophagus for 2 days

[zillychu]

I'm a fool. a fucking fool. an absolute clown. do u know what happened minutes after I posted this.

I found out my body cannot handle opioids.

my muscles lock tf up and deliver the worst pain imaginable in every direction at once. I can't describe it. it's not just pain it's the sensation of every disgusting awful flu ache you've ever experienced in your life condensed into one square inch of your body, all over your body.

do u know what alternatives hospitals have to opioids? HA, HAHAHA

they don't

[zillychu]

GUESS WHOSE HOSPITAL IS GETTING HIT BY A TORNADO

[zillychu]

made the saving throw 😎 not today, Satan

[zillychu]

Y'ALL WILL NOT FUCKING BELIEVE WHAT BIOLOGICAL PROCESS STARTED LITERALLY THE DAY BEFORE SURGERY

[zillychu]

THERE'S ANOTHER FUCKING TORNADO

[zillychu]

I'd love to say this has been an educational experience, but unfortunately I run on Spite and simply vow to torture my blorbos even more now

which is saying something while being in the Vivisect the Half Dead Child fandom

[zillychu]

I LIVED BITCH!!

Stomach is back where it should be, I got some guts stapled and skin glued, and recited Dexter's Lab every time the nurses mixed powdered medicine in with my applesauce. I'm bored of drinking ramen and watching Resident Alien reruns so I'm gonna peruse the tags!

I cannot tell you how many times I unironically gazed into the middle distance and thought this

I've learned things can be true and also a shit post at the same time. unfortunately

starting to think maybe I've been saying this too much all my life and karmic justice just backed up in the pipes before exploding. still gonna obliterate those twinks tho. get back here Siffrin I'm not done with you yet

this guy is getting the true moral of this story

I HAVEN'T IN YEARS so either the AO3 curse has a disconcerting half-life, or it extends to discord servers and Google docs. both are horrifying and deserve a federal grant for further investigation

you and me both! isn't nature beautiful

you've made me realize my most recent fic in my gdocs is in fact the darkest thing I've written. so maybe all the ppl in the tags claiming AO3 curse aren't as wrong as I've been thinking they are

god's a bitch and I'm into omegaverse

I feel like I should get a medal for enduring something so fucked up that randos on the internet think I must be lying. yeah bro me too

did I stutter

[zillychu]

honestly the worst part about all of this is the fact that I can't watch Murderbot. I want to so bad. but I refuse until I'm feeling halfway alive again

fuck life. I give myself lemons. AO3 on hospital Wi-Fi

you do not. like emphatically, I don't think that's a great idea

I'd say I'm sorry but tbh this seems very on theme for ISAT so

THANK you I need everyone to remember I'm a gamer first, god's favorite crusty sock in the bottom of the drawer second

the ARE a lot of people in the tags calling me Jesus Christ

I'll admit that one's on me. when I started being unable to eat anything, my first thought was not "stomach straight up saying the abdomen's haunted"

I hate that I was actually considering getting white haired anime boy haircut right before all this happened. could you fucking imagine

don't carbon date me like this

Rascal Flatts was right. life is a highway and it's riding me all night long

[zillychu]

the abortion was a success! (/silly)

they snipped and stitched some things, yanked the whole sucker back down UNDER my diaphragm where it belongs, and did this thing called a fundoplication where they wrap and stitch the top of the stomach around the bottom of the esophagus. it’s supposed to help keep that little bastard in its assigned seating

what I had was a called a combination sliding hiatal hernia (stomach wants uppies) and paraesophageal hiatal hernia (stomach wants uppies but through a different hole in the diaphragm bc it’s not like other girls, making it look like it’s trying to phone home), along with combined organoaxial and mesenteroaxial gastric volvulus (stomach flops around like a dead fish and twists itself shut like a bread bag AND goes upside down). the former usually ends up cutting off blood flow and starts necrotizing the stomach (very dangerous), but I was extremely lucky that hadn’t happened yet!

the hernias are uncommon but not terribly rare. the stomach flopping around? that’s rare. the fact that I had both of these at the same time, where they both did ALL AVAILABLE BAD THINGS POSSIBLE?

to put it gently, according to one resident, I had surgeons fighting over me. pictures were taken. I had like six separate groups of medical professionals coming into my room regularly. my surgeon shook my hand like I was a celebrity. it was honest to god hilarious.

all in all, I spent 3 months thinking I was being a huge wimpy diaper baby, only to find out I narrowly evaded death bc my friend Moth told me to go to the ER right away, and it triggered a panic attack big enough to make me do just that. the poor ER doc came in sweating with the initial CT scans like “I’m gonna be real with you I’m not entirely sure I know what I’m looking at but it’s giving INCREDIBLE Emergency Surgery”

I’m upset I don’t get to birth an alien baby, but considering how it was Rapturing into my chest, it probably would have been a chest burster anyway. I want to kiss Miss Xenomorph as much as the next guy but I think I’ll just stick to sending prime numbers out into space until one returns my booty call

EDIT: btw I love the dog jokes lmao I had no idea volvulus was common in dogs! don't worry I'm not a werewolf (unfortunately), I simply have hypermobile Ehlers-Danlos, which makes all my connective tissue soft and stretchy. So we're waaaay more prone to having organs (and joints) slip n slide around and do things they REALLY aren't supposed to. But I wish I was a werewolf even more now. when will it be my turn

[zillychu]

haha that was a fun near-death experience glad it's over though GUESS WHO JUST GOT FIRED

[zillychu]

ARE YOU KIDDING ME THERE'S ANOTHER FUCKING TORNADO

[zillychu]

my clowns in hellsite, I have no idea how my house is intact when there are trees uprooted by my mailbox. if I had less staples in me I'd bend over and moon the sky

I'm not gonna keep dragging this post on I swear I'm just still on pain meds (I can handle higher doses of weaker opioids for some reason! yippee!) so I'm gonna look through the tags one more time and address a couple things I've seen often

- no, I wasn't doing anything in particular to fuck up my guts. sometimes our organs just Tony Hawk Pro Skater 2 right through the polygons. don't worry about it, it's rare and you get a fun story to tell ur friends

- yes, I was fired because I missed too many days nearly dying and requested more to recover from nearly dying. what can I say I'm a needy unreasonable bitch

- yes it's pretty lame to do this to someone right as they stumble off the operating table and get dumped with expensive medical bills. yes this is legal. yes I'm filing for unemployment. yes I would leave mouse poops in the CEO's coco rice krispies if given the chance. love and peace ✌️

- it's cool my dudes I live in the Midwest, basements are an evolutionary aspect of natural selection here. we've also got Steve Templeton I'm pretty sure he fights the tornadoes off himself

- Murderbot TV series good :)

- don't worry guys I know the original artist for Life is a Highway. Lightning McQueen

- there are a LOT of you offering advice on how to avoid the torment nexus. while having a Siffrin pfp. just an observation

- who the fuck is Job

please laugh. every drop of joy I squeeze from this karmic fart parade is another finger shoved firmly up god's withered asshole

can everyone stop being funnier than me for 2 minutes

I only fucked someone once and it was bc they replied to my reply on their comment to the fic I filled for their kink meme prompt on Livejournal. it was vore. and my name's not Jesus

no I'm going I want to ask Joshua how he got that gay

can y'all stop comparing me to deities I'm already on thin ice here with one or possibly more of them

no this is Patrick

I'm sorry to disappoint but I only have 2 weed smoking girlfriends. if anyone lets me borrow one of theirs tho it would really help the Make A Wish Foundation. I beg them once a week and they keep telling me I'm "not a child" and "already got two wishes fulfilled"

take a ticket and get in line if you're gonna make an attempt on my life, you goddamn heathen

you can't give me this after I was just accused of being Dave Strider

DON'T YOU FUCKING DARE