hypnosis event

here to document a descent into fandom after years marked safe

[fringe-problems]

when there's nothing left to burn

ch4. WIP, alternating POV Scott and Shane. 23k words.

There, in the ceremony of it all, like the cool blue heart of flame. Hot enough to melt, Captain of the Montreal fucking Voyageurs. The feeling lives under his shoulder blades, cupped there. His thundering pride is a physical feeling running through his body that blazes past the singular focus of hockey, right down to his heart. 

In which Scott Hunter accepts a trade to Montreal, just as Shane Hollander is named captain.

Or: what if i spin scott hunter and shane hollander at each other like two high-strung beyblades??? ilya and kip will both show up, eventually. along the way: so much canadiana i'm making myself sick on the maple syrup.

Chapter four: the hockey season, December, impulses followed.

[seren-starlight]

Unoriginal sin. Derivative sin

[sixfoottallfeverrat]

hey you want some fic

Good news! I'm re-upping my own work. It's good as hell. Promise.

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Series word count total: 83.5k

Summary: The turbulent history of Kip and Scott's relationship, between the breakup in late 2013 and the Cup. Or - Scott spirals. Kip follows him down.

This is an exploration of the realities of being closeted, orphaned, and weird as an elite athlete - what those realities mean for friends and lovers, and how they corrode lives. And it has a happy ending!

Show canon. Skip-centric, background Hollanov, brief SkipxHollanov. Contains nu metal, Yuna Hollander being a good mom, Ilya almost falling off a balcony, and montages. Warnings for drug use, serious mental health issues, substance abuse, hockey-type violence, brief medical gore, cheating, and an underlying white-hot hatred of the Buffalo Sabres. Comes with a playlist.

[fringe-problems]

For the WIP title game: “sad lil birthday boy”. This sounds like it’ll be peak Scott “sad cow eyes” Hunter (to quote “through the high noon sun”) and I’d love to know more. Thanks!

you would be correct.

scott hunter's canonical birthday is july 4th (as inspired by his original form, captain america). having a birthday during the hockey off-season is ... intriguing—this started as a birthday 5+1. however, the final form is yet to be determined.

here's a single line, scott's ninth birthday:

There’s cake waiting to be cut just before dark, when all the fireworks in the sky will be for him.

[fringe-problems]

for the wip title game:

"send his ass to mtl"?

this is the google doc title of when there's nothing left to burn!

i name stories something dumb and only sometimes change it when i come up with a real title (other doc titles: "woof woof intimacy" and "elevator torment")

[fringe-problems]

@wooden-ducks tagged me in a WIP title game.

Rules: make a new post with the names of all the files in your wip folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them, and then post a little snippet or tell them something about it!

send his ass to mtl

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bad ideap2

sad lil birthday boy

the first one is the current longer WIP (new chapter soon!), which was based almost entirely off my friend saying "why are you writing about new york? send his ass to montreal," so. i did.

[qqchurch]

[fluentinbird]

shane hollander - "who are you when you aren't performing?"

Paul Butler, “Untitled (Two with Puck – Red)” - Collage, 2018  / Detail from Kazuo Nakamura, Suspended Landscape, 1967 / Heated Rivalry 1x01 / Ralph Ellison, Invisible Man / Detail from Kazuo Nakamura, Suspended Landscape, 1967/ Heated Rivalry 1x04 / David Hannan, Falling from Grace, 2024 / Paul Butler, “Untitled (Two with Puck – Blue)” / Detail from LEE U-Fan, From Line (1976) / Rebecca Bellmore, At Pelican Falls/ Heated Rivalry 1x02 / Heated Rivalry 1x01 / Sally Prasch, Neon Series / Ocean Vuong, Night Sky with Exit Wounds / Robert Matta, Bleuêtre, 1993 / Heated Rivalry 1x04 / Kazuo Nakamura, Blue Reflections, B.C., 1964 / Heated Rivalry 1x02 / Sally Prasch, Shattered Shell / Heated Rivalry 1x02 / Carmen Maria Machado, In the Dream House / Heated Rivalry 1x02 / Kazuo Nakamura; Blue Morning / Detail from Rebecca Bellmore, At Pelican Falls/ Jennifer Walton, Frozen Lake Series / Heated Rivalry 1x04 / John Steinbach, East of Eden / Koichi Nabatame, Morning Mountain Range

[allthespoons]

ai could simply never create a body of fanfictional work that is so revealing about the author that it borders on humiliating.

[fringe-problems]

when there's nothing left to burn

ch3. WIP, alternating POV Scott and Shane. 16k words.

It is unsurprising to find Shane Hollander already there, doi g practice drills. It’s not even 10 am, on this day of unofficial open ice time. Hollander is skating back and forth, hands behind his back, helmet on, no stick in hand, darting easily between cones. Scott watches him appreciatively. Even skating idly, Hollander is so fast, just by stride alone. 

In which Scott Hunter accepts a trade to Montreal, just as Shane Hollander is named captain.

Or: what if i spin scott hunter and shane hollander at each other like two high-strung beyblades??? ilya and kip will both show up, eventually. along the way: so much canadiana i'm making myself sick on the maple syrup.

[jessiesjaded]

Ship dynamics are always like Sunshine and Sunshine protector~ Cinnamon roll and their grumpy one 🤗 Well what about 2 cunts. They're both cunts and that's the dynamic. cunt4cunt.

[teaboot]

[knucklecurve]

booty shorts that say I ❤️ IGNORING EXTRATEXTUAL AUTHORIAL COMMENTARY across the ass

[wtf-is-hockey]

Like am I insane or would the story not be immediately improved by Harris not trusting Troy and not liking him and Troy having to, over the course of the book, actively prove himself to Harris and earn his admiration?

[fractally]

I think a lot of the perfectionism characterization the fandom gives Shane is much more correctly attributed to Scott Hunter. Like Shane is crazy ambitious but I don’t think he has the same “gotta be good gotta do right gotta be perfect gotta make them love me” stream flowing through his brain at all times. That’s a Hunter thing. I think Shane is more just a shark that can’t stop swimming or he’ll die

[fringe-problems]

yes yes yes

or more specifically: both of these characters (2 me) believe they need to be perfect to be worthy but their definitions of “perfect” are fundamentally different.

shane is going to drive in a straight line (until he hits a wall) based on internal goals he subsumed from parents and institutions that demonstrated love by giving him goals. he has people who love him and takes it for granted that everyone else does too (this being the fundamental way he puts his foot in his mouth with ilya over and over again). he is less a “perfectionist” because he is setting and setting goalposts to drive at like a car on a highway with no exits. as long as he’s driving in a straight line forever he’s actually FINE why are you ASKING. shane basically never changes course until an external force smashes the car into a new lane.

scott is a motivated by external goals he has to meet in order to be perfect and worthy of love and he is running in circles to get there until he can/will just drive off the track into new territory

anyway this is the thesis of why i am throwing these two character in a jar and rattling them like loose change against each other.

[fringe-problems]

when there's nothing left to burn

ch2. WIP, alternating POV Scott and Shane.

“Oh,” Shane looks up. A new piece of information pierces like a blade through all three of those paper-thin versions of Hunter. Scott Hunter is intense, steely-eyed. He is neither the poster captain nor the welcoming vet. The kind of captain Shane wants to be—one that leads by example, work ethic, instead of big dumb speeches that anyone could deliver—can work with intense. 

In which Scott Hunter accepts a trade to Montreal, just as Shane Hollander is named captain.

Or: what if i spin scott hunter and shane hollander at each other like two high-strung beyblades??? ilya and kip will both show up, eventually. along the way: so much canadiana i'm making myself sick on the maple syrup.

[clytemnestraaa]

i knooooow ilya was the sweetest gentlest shyest little boy who was scared of the dark and listened to his teachers and coaches and loved sprinkles and his stuffed bear and singing in church and was very very good

and then i also know shane did NOT grasp "no hitting when you're mad" until at least age 9 and threw crazy flailing tantrums and was a biter and had to be on a leash for a long while because he would run and then hide in the fucking walls and yuna would be in the department store after closing at 10pm being like shane for the love of god for the love of GOD

[allthingswhumpyandangsty]