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[morgan-angel]

Hello y'all!!!

My name is Morgan, and I'm a 20 years old artist (trans man, he/him).

I love drawing, writing, music, photography and painting. Here, I'll post mostly about my drawings.

I post also on Instagram, so here is the link if anyone is interested : https://www.instagram.com/eishihashimoto1?igsh=N2MycDh6NnE4cDMw

I'm trying te be better at each drawing so please, take a look at my profile !!

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[THE CHALLENGE IS CLOSED SINCE 2024]

I've been drawing for 7 years now, but it's been a while since it was not active learning drawing. I want to be better for me, but also for my future art school. 🌱🌱

Sooo I decided to do a lil art challenge. Everyday, I'll draw for 30 minutes at least with a theme for each month.

Every drawing I'll do is for learning how to draw again, kinda. Like a total reset! 🦔

I'm not a famous artist but here is the main tag I'll use for this challenge : #morgan challenge.

Here is the theme I've decided to use for each month :

September : Finding my style

October : Anatomy

November : Shadows, values and lighting

December : Colors

January : Realism

February : Background

March : Perspective

August : Comic book pages and dynamic scenes

April : Animals, plants, food and nature

May : Character design

June : Clothes + jewellery

July : Anatomical poses and perspectives (anatomy season 2)

I'll show y'all the process every day. I'm very motivated to do it ! I'll pin this post btw, if some people want to see the "rules" of this concept.

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Update : At the end of each month, I'm gonna do a illustration with all the things I learned so far during that month. For example, if the month is February, I'm gonna do a finale illustration at the end of a big city, or a very detailed background.

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My Instagram, if some people are interested to see more of my art : https://www.instagram.com/eishihashimoto1?igsh=N2MycDh6NnE4cDMw

Thank you in advance!!! Love y'all!!

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just a lil oc's drawing ! Really loving the manga style lately... 🎐

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lil study I did ! It's very hard for me to do this angle for the face...

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commission I did for my friend 🍵

first time doing in doors background! it was very fun but also kinda complicated.

try to find all the references ! 🍬

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just a little sketchy I like ✨

need this art-style for my webtoon asap

(drawing I made back then)

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Update🐞

Hey!

I know, I was gone for a very long time. Like, one whole year without any news.

I want to update you guys. Even if no one is reading this. Even if no one that followed me back in the days reads this.

First of all, I want to thanks y'all a lot. For some reason, 2024 was a horrible year for me. No friends, no dreams, no job or college, nothing.

And, it's so silly/corny to say but, the support y'all were giving me for my drawings (likes, comments, reshare...) was a light in my word of darkness. I had few people following me and I was so happy to post everyday.

But one day, it just broke. Everything. I was really unstable and I never post again here. I didn't draw for a while too.

But I finally got a job. I'm going to college to be an elementary teacher, this september. I have money now. I'm moving to my first appartement soon. I even cut my hair. AND, I started drawing again. Like, for real (started again in April).

Even though it was difficult, I did my best to draw a new path for my life. I know this isn't my dream, like the plan A, but that will do for now. I know I'll be a pro artist one day. I believe it. ✨

But anyway.

I'm going to start posting again. No more drawing challenge unfortunately, but that's okay. I'm very proud of my improvements that I did back then.

I'm not going to post full paragraphs on every post like I did. BUT, the spirit is still here : I'm trying to be better at art, again. So I'm gonna post pretty much everything I want, with or without explanations. Wip or finished illustration. I want Tumblr to be quite messy with my art.

If you want a cleaner version of my art tho, you can go on my insta : @eishi_h

Anyway.

Thanks for reading all of this.

And thanks for all the support guys, it means a lot to me. Glad to see you back ❤️

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Day 32+33 of my art challenge.

#morgan challenge

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Day one :

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Day two :

First day of october (October theme's is anatomy. I've been struggling lately with anatomy and it really make me sad. So, I want to make some progress on it !) 🎃

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Do it tomorrow xoxo

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Go see the pin post on my profile if you need some context :)

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Working on opening a lil shop on Kofi tho. I really want to do some commissions. If you want to just follow me, here is the link : https://ko-fi.com/eishi_h

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Also, if you want some better quality photo or just want to see more of my art, go on my insta : https://www.instagram.com/eishihashimoto1?igsh=N2MycDh6NnE4cDMw :)

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Bye bye y'all

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Day 31 of my art challenge. 💀

#morgan challenge

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Part one :

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First day of october (October theme's is anatomy. I've been struggling lately with anatomy and it really make me sad. So, I want to make some progress on it !) 🎃

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First post of october! Finally a new theme ! Yippie !

Sooo, today's was about anatomy, obviously. And also a bit of character design and line-art. I made two parts for today. First one is a study of a full skeleton. Even if it's not anatomically correct yet, it's still my first time doing a full time skeleton and I didn't make a lot of skull in my life tho. I really like it ! Also, drawing skeleton to help with anatomy is actually so much better than doing poses studies. Because skeleton is a guaranteed base !

Part two was about doing characters in a skeleton base. I love doing this, it's so fun and it actually helps a lot. I know we can't very tell that there were a skeleton base so here is an example :

I really love this ! It's hard but worth it so far.

Gotta do some more skeleton studies tomorrow ngl. Or else. But I like doing this.

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Go see the pin post on my profile if you need some context :)

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Working on opening a lil shop on Kofi tho. I really want to do some commissions. If you want to just follow me, here is the link : https://ko-fi.com/eishi_h

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Also, if you want some better quality photo or just want to see more of my art, go on my insta : https://www.instagram.com/eishihashimoto1?igsh=N2MycDh6NnE4cDMw :)

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New beginning! Gotta grind and make a lot of progress like September !

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Day 27+28+29+30 of my art challenge. 🪽

#morgan challenge

Thirty day (27-30) of september (September theme's is finding my art style. I've got a lot of references for this theme, I want to be confident with an art style. So here am I !). 🌱

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Late post again. And... It's not even finished. Let me get this straight : I had two mental breakdowns, big fatigue and this illustration was so hard to do. The anatomy and all... I felt so guilty about doing nothing. But then I remembered : this is MY challenge. I'm NOT mentally stable. It's okay to not finished this piece right in time because I had issues. It's okay to struggle. So, I'll try to finish this when I can. I still love it tho, even though it's not perfect.

Like I said, this illustration is a mix of everything I learned during September. I'm not gonna list everything I did work on, but I'll say it's a great conclusion for next month theme's (anatomy). I'm gonna show all the different versions.

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First one. Loving it but the anatomy of the wings and the composition isn't right.

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Still working on the wings but eh. I understood it wasn't it.

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Changing the wings and it's way better. But... Still missing some drama.

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Continuing the drama before the definitive version of the first sketch you saw at the top of the post.

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And there you go. End of September. I did a LOT of progress during this month. It was really cool to do. Thanks to all the person who supports me. It means a lot. Love y'all. ❤️

See ya next post for October. ~

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Go see the pin post on my profile if you need some context :)

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Working on opening a lil shop on Kofi tho. I really want to do some commissions. If you want to just follow me, here is the link : https://ko-fi.com/eishi_h

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Also, if you want some better quality photo or just want to see more of my art, go on my insta : https://www.instagram.com/eishihashimoto1?igsh=N2MycDh6NnE4cDMw :)

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Bye bye y'all. Stay safe.

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BPD rage sucks sm.

You feel like everything is against you and your life, but you keep that buried anger to yourself. Because you have to.

Until one day. Until one day, it explodes.

And you say EVERYTHING, the same things you kept in your head for ages. You say it with litteral rage, ugly crying, with no commun sense but just passionate and relevant speech.

The following day, you wake up to "that" and... You can't handle the stupidity of that crisis. All you did was insulting, screaming, being angry and annoying to the people you said you love. Just for the tiniest things – even the big issues are mixed with terrible insults and screams, and made the other feels guilty and terribly worried.

I'm so tired of myself. All the people I love will eventually go away with me acting like that. I feel so freaking guilty. Too much that I can't even talk to them.

I just want to exist and feel loved...

Worst part of BPD rage is that... It's never ending. It's a vicious circle. All these thoughts will come again. Because we freaking need therapy. Better environment. We need real love, support, a stable life and friends/family/partner.

I'm so sorry. I feel so bad. I'm crying everyday. It ruins my life. It ruins life of other people.

I'm just a burden for people's lives.

Let me go away for ever.

For ever...

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Day 26 of my art challenge. ⚔️

#morgan challenge

The un-zoomed version :

Twenty-sixth day of september (September theme's is finding my art style. I've got a lot of references for this theme, I want to be confident with an art style. So here am I !). 🌱

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Okay so, late post right here. I did continue this piece today but I'm counting it for yesterday only. Today I'm starting the "big illustration" and I'll not share anything until I finished it. Like a big surprise for us !

So, I will describe everything like it was today's drawing. Btw, go check my others drawings/posts if you want to and have the time ! Thanks y'all ❤️

Sooo, you saw the first steps of the process last post ; here is the final illustration. It was not supposed to be an illustration at first but here you go. Today's was about digital painting, color studies, anatomy, and art-style. I know it's a bit "static" and not anatomically correct but y'all... I'm actually in love. The vibe and the coloring, the HAIR ? That's it. That's my style. It's a very good end to this month, before the big illustration (see the ping post in my profile for context).

Like I said, no post 'til end of the month with the big finale drawing. I hope y'all will like it, I'm currently working on it. Thanks for all of the support during this month. I love y'all sm ❤️

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Go see the pin post on my profile if you need some context :)

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Working on opening a lil shop on Kofi tho. I really want to do some commissions. If you want to just follow me, here is the link : https://ko-fi.com/eishi_h

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Also, if you want some better quality photo or just want to see more of my art, go on my insta : https://www.instagram.com/eishihashimoto1?igsh=N2MycDh6NnE4cDMw :)

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See y'all in 3 days !

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Day 24+25 of my art challenge. 🎐

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Zoomed version of the eyes :

Twenty-fourth and twenty-fifth day of september (September theme's is finding my art style. I've got a lot of references for this theme, I want to be confident with an art style. So here am I !). 🌱

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Wip of the day. In fact, wip of two days. I did draw yesterday but lemme tell y'all, it was not successful at all. I was sick, very tired, and after like 2 hours of a complete mess... I just gave up. I'm sorry. I didn't post anything 'cuz it was not successful at all, and I want to post clean things at least, not the process. Btw, here is tomorrow's version (spoiler alert, it looks terrible) :

Nah, I'm embarrassed. I didn't use guidelines at all, it was not anatomically correct, only the hair and the colors were kinda good but eh. I still decided to continue on it 'cuz I liked it, even though it was ugly. Never give up!

Btw. Worked on digital painting, art-style study, colors, and drawing without line-art. I'm really proud of that one so far, mostly the beautiful eyes. Even the lips doesn't look that bad. Should I continue it in a illustration? It has some potential...

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Go see the pin post on my profile if you need some context :)

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Working on opening a lil shop on Kofi tho. I really want to do some commissions. If you want to just follow me, here is the link : https://ko-fi.com/eishi_h

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Also, if you want some better quality photo or just want to see more of my art, go on my insta : https://www.instagram.com/eishihashimoto1?igsh=N2MycDh6NnE4cDMw :)

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Almost the end of the first month. We did so much progress. Shall continue it !

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Day 23 of my art challenge. 👘

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Those are me and my boyfriend.

My boyfriend in his hippie style (tell him he's slaying please, he deserves it) :

Me in my modern/y2k goth style :

My boyfriend in his japanese streetwear style (again, look at him eating that fit) :

Me in my acubi Korean style :

Finally, me in my classy daddy style :

Twenty-third day of september (September theme's is finding my art style. I've got a lot of references for this theme, I want to be confident with an art style. So here am I !). 🌱

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I wanted to draw something quick and good looking, so I drew stylized outfits in chibi art-style. I really love the diversity in shapes and in the different styles.

Today's was about dynamism, art-style, line-art, dynamic lines and stylized outfit. I really like the style, even more because chibi style need to be dynamic and need thick and cool line-art. I think I did the job right. Help me giving more confidence to my lover btw. Look at him, he slays sm 🎀

Will see what to do tomorrow. Maybe a quick drawing too (feeling sick).

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Go see the pin post on my profile if you need some context :)

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Working on opening a lil shop on Kofi tho. I really want to do some commissions. If you want to just follow me, here is the link : https://ko-fi.com/eishi_h

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Also, if you want some better quality photo or just want to see more of my art, go on my insta : https://www.instagram.com/eishihashimoto1?igsh=N2MycDh6NnE4cDMw :)

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Loving that journey y'all. The progress are incredible. Must continue.

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Day 22 of my art challenge. 🍦

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The non-zoomed version :

Twenty-second day of september (September theme's is finding my art style. I've got a lot of references for this theme, I want to be confident with an art style. So here am I !). 🌱

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Sooo, I love it. Not gonna lie. I love that mix between manhua/semi-realistic style and manga style. It's looking incredible and I very love it. It's kinda giving Tokyo ghoul vibes (my favorite manga) and I'm all here for it.

I mostly worked on line-art and art-style, and also a bit of anatomy and values. Shading with lines tho. It was very fun to do. I learn a lot of things this day.

Will see what to do tomorrow. Maybe continuing that kind of art-style or doing digital shading.

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Go see the pin post on my profile if you need some context :)

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Working on opening a lil shop on Kofi tho. I really want to do some commissions. If you want to just follow me, here is the link : https://ko-fi.com/eishi_h

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Also, if you want some better quality photo or just want to see more of my art, go on my insta : https://www.instagram.com/eishihashimoto1?igsh=N2MycDh6NnE4cDMw :)

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This art journey is beautiful. We must keep going.

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Day 21 of my art challenge. 🌿

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Twenty-first day of september (September theme's is finding my art style. I've got a lot of references for this theme, I want to be confident with an art style. So here am I !). 🌱

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Working on some OC's today! Don't tell everyone but I'm kinda thinking about doing a webtoon these days... Maybe they are part of this webtoon, we don't know. 🦔

Btw. Mostly working on that art-style, anatomy and chara-design. I love how these turned out. It would be a great style for a comic I think. Those are really old OC's tho. I'm glad I can do faces now, without having the feeling to search on Pinterest for reference. I'm still not perfect but that's not the point of my journey.

Sorry for not drawing yesterday btw. I was really tired and was busy. Guess it was my cheat day ! Will see what to do tomorrow tho. I would love to make digital painting or line art studies... Will see!

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Go see the pin post on my profile if you need some context :)

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Working on opening a lil shop on Kofi tho. I really want to do some commissions. If you want to just follow me, here is the link : https://ko-fi.com/eishi_h

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Also, if you want some better quality photo or just want to see more of my art, go on my insta : https://www.instagram.com/eishihashimoto1?igsh=N2MycDh6NnE4cDMw :)

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Keep going y'all. We need to. We're getting too much powerful with theses. 🔥

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Day 19 of my art challenge. 🖍️

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Nineteenth day of september (September theme's is finding my art style. I've got a lot of references for this theme, I want to be confident with an art style. So here am I !). 🌱

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Doing some sketches for today. Didn't have the energy to do most than that but hey, I still love the expressions and faces I made. I worked also on the line-art a bit and art-style, of course. All of theses are OC's (love drawing OC's theses days).

It's not perfect at all, it's not proportional and some faces are not good looking. But it's still part of my journey. I was in a big mental breakdown at that moment and traditional art is comforting for these moments. Also, I'm way less competent on traditional in term of anatomy. It's not the perfect medium for precise work (at least for me).

Will continue on that way. 🎨

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Go see the pin post on my profile if you need some context :)

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Working on opening a lil shop on Kofi tho. I really want to do some commissions. If you want to just follow me, here is the link : https://ko-fi.com/eishi_h

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Also, if you want some better quality photo or just want to see more of my art, go on my insta : https://www.instagram.com/eishihashimoto1?igsh=N2MycDh6NnE4cDMw :)

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It's hard but we can't give up yet. Let's keep working y'all.

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Day 18 of my art challenge. 🦇

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Eighteenth day of september (September theme's is finding my art style. I've got a lot of references for this theme, I want to be confident with an art style. So here am I !). 🌱

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A lil wip of a series of 3 studies. It was actually kinda hard to do because the reference was in color and I had to use my tiny brain to pick the right values and make the face looks 3D. 🦧

That was actually interesting and low key better for me to learn. No pain no gain, gotta continue on that method and this lil series.

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Go see the pin post on my profile if you need some context :)

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Working on opening a lil shop on Kofi tho. I really want to do some commissions. If you want to just follow me, here is the link : https://ko-fi.com/eishi_h

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Also, if you want some better quality photo or just want to see more of my art, go on my insta : https://www.instagram.com/eishihashimoto1?igsh=N2MycDh6NnE4cDMw :)

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Let's continue y'all. I was tired today but still doing it. Recommend it ngl.

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