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28 years old and I can’t kick the bucket hard enough
damn daniel was AI?!
many of you seem to be under the impression that I'm claiming the damn daniel video was AI, but no, the video was recorded by real camera artists and unproblematic. Damn Daniel, the boy, was an artificial intelligence incubated by Palantir to blend into normal society.
turn on the tv, any channel
may we have the link to the article? cause looking into this, i couldn't actually find anything
here
So Let's Discuss "Emasculation"
A few people have expressed the sentiment that "transemasculation" validates certain forms of male grievance politics that are usually expressed through the word "emasculation", so I'd like to expand on this a bit!
Firstly: Take a look at this argument, and my commentary on it.
Keep that one in the back of your mind.
Secondly: Have you ever seen an anti-sexual harassment campaign that uses "real man" language? "Real Men Don't <XYZ>" as a slogan or a pithy shibboleth?
This is because even in liberal-feminist discourses that purport to be about sexed equality, many cannot let go of the sanctitity of manhood. Manhood is something sacred, sacrosanct, an ideal, an aspiration, synonymous with power and agency and humanity itself.
In other words: The heirarchy of manhood as distinct from, non-overlapping with, and superior to womanhood infects even well-intentioned attempts to address misogyny.
All of which obscures the central truth that we are all aware of, but never name: Manhood can be revoked.
It is revoked often, in fact, and--this part is crucial--most often by other men.
For what is the ideology that manhood ultimately protects? What is the implication that no man can abide, that reduced even the "feminist ally" from the screenshot earlier to homophobic, misogynistic mudslinging to rival the deranged reactionary? It is, and always has been, male supremacy.
Because when you are designated as a proud Citizen of a Regime, someone who is expected to be its pride and uphold its edicts, you buy into the ideology that enshrines your own superiority, and violently lash out against anything that challenges that.
Cissexual men do, in fact, fear being unmanned, fear being seen as or like women in any way, and fear most of all the punitive censure of their peers if they do not enact (trans)misogynistic and homophobic rituals of brutalization that reify their sacred hierarchy.
Something I can attest to as someone who was frequently subject to that brutalization, assaulted, and harassed, degraded without end so that The Boys could feel like The Boys and not like whatever wretched creature I was or would end up being.
Misogyny amongst men manifests as protectionism, as loyalty, as "Bros Before <misogynistic term>", as the knowledge that if you do not participate in manhood, you will be its target.
Emasculation is, sadly, very real, and among the cissexual it's a very real threat.
I call it transemasculation because that same pressure to participate in manhood exists, the pressure to "prove" it through participation in what manhood means. The threat is the same for the in-group and for those "without", who are "seeking entry": If you do not Embody Manhood Correctly, you will be cast out into the wretched wastes of the degendered.
Does that make sense?
Might fuck around & post about my Mormon-religious-trauma & deconstruction
Mormon Resurrection Makes No Fucking Sense
For a quick low-down for those fortunate enough to not me familiar with mormon teachings—mormons believe that after Jesus’s return, everyone who has ever lived will be resurrected in a “glorified, perfected body” just like Jesus was after the crucifixion.
The church explicitly teaches what the whole “glorified perfected body” means— the Book of Mormon says that “every limb and joint shall be restored to its body… even a hair of the head shall not be lost; but all things shall be restored to their proper and perfect frame” & Dallin H. Oaks, the current prophet/president of the mormon church, has taught that that includes “birth defects, mortal injuries, disease, or the natural deterioration of old age”.
So everyone will get a “perfect” body that apparently will be something like in the prime of your life, & not only any damage your body sustained during life be reversed, but any “damage” or “imperfection” you were born with will be gone, too. Which I know when they claimed that, they really thought they were cooking with people who were, for example, born without a limb or something.
Thing is, I’ve got ADHD, & around the same time I started deconstructing mormonism, I also started learning more about my neurodivergent brain (I’ve lived with ADHD my whole life, but wasn’t diagnosed until I was 11 & still was given basically no further information or support after that). One thing I’ve learned is that ADHD is the result of a difference in brain chemistry. My brain physically operates different. But also that affects my consciousness, my personality, how I perceive & interact with the world—ADHD is a piece of my identity.
But it’s also considered an “abnormality”. So (hypothetically) when I get Mormon-Resurrected, will my ADHD be gone? And if so, what does that mean about my identity & my soul? Does my spirit have ADHD? If I still have ADHD post-resurrection, what’s the cutoff for disabilities that get undone from Mormon-Resurrection vs. those that don’t? Is it just disabilities you can see? Do you keep disabilities that you’ve coerced to accept as part of your identity?
Like I know both Joseph Smith & Dallin Oaks thought they ate with this, but for people like me with neurodivergence, it’s just a metaphorical thread that I can’t stop picking at, until the whole sweater comes undone.
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YES! And not to mention super white supremacist—because even though the teachings have gotten more subtle over the years & most members will rarely say/acknowledge it, part of having your body resurrected in a Glorified & Perfected State™ is that it will also be made “White And Delightsome”
it’s always worth asking yourself, do my friends not like me or are we all just really fucking autistic
Might fuck around & post about my Mormon-religious-trauma & deconstruction
Mormon Resurrection Makes No Fucking Sense
For a quick low-down for those fortunate enough to not me familiar with mormon teachings—mormons believe that after Jesus’s return, everyone who has ever lived will be resurrected in a “glorified, perfected body” just like Jesus was after the crucifixion.
The church explicitly teaches what the whole “glorified perfected body” means— the Book of Mormon says that “every limb and joint shall be restored to its body… even a hair of the head shall not be lost; but all things shall be restored to their proper and perfect frame” & Dallin H. Oaks, the current prophet/president of the mormon church, has taught that that includes “birth defects, mortal injuries, disease, or the natural deterioration of old age”.
So everyone will get a “perfect” body that apparently will be something like in the prime of your life, & not only any damage your body sustained during life be reversed, but any “damage” or “imperfection” you were born with will be gone, too. Which I know when they claimed that, they really thought they were cooking with people who were, for example, born without a limb or something.
Thing is, I’ve got ADHD, & around the same time I started deconstructing mormonism, I also started learning more about my neurodivergent brain (I’ve lived with ADHD my whole life, but wasn’t diagnosed until I was 11 & still was given basically no further information or support after that). One thing I’ve learned is that ADHD is the result of a difference in brain chemistry. My brain physically operates different. But also that affects my consciousness, my personality, how I perceive & interact with the world—ADHD is a piece of my identity.
But it’s also considered an “abnormality”. So (hypothetically) when I get Mormon-Resurrected, will my ADHD be gone? And if so, what does that mean about my identity & my soul? Does my spirit have ADHD? If I still have ADHD post-resurrection, what’s the cutoff for disabilities that get undone from Mormon-Resurrection vs. those that don’t? Is it just disabilities you can see? Do you keep disabilities that you’ve coerced to accept as part of your identity?
Like I know both Joseph Smith & Dallin Oaks thought they ate with this, but for people like me with neurodivergence, it’s just a metaphorical thread that I can’t stop picking at, until the whole sweater comes undone.
when someone mentions HOES with ARMPIT HAIR
its 10 AM on a weekday .
Isn't there an industrial boiler you're supposed to be maintaining
I must find...the HOES.
,whatever it takes
I don’t even want to write a review of “Top Gun: Maverick” honestly, I’ve seen 1,500+ movies and I’ve never finished one that left me more depressed about the future of this country. I just want to stop thinking about it
By popular demand:
The White House just shared a video using footage from “Top Gun: Maverick” right before real footage of US bombs hitting Iran. I am sorry to announce that I have been 100% vindicated in my views on this movie.
I'd burn cds 4 u
something has to be done about mormons this cannot continue
I have a suggestion.
Mel for the Bloodborne AU.
I love this. Perfection.
C H I L L S
I accidentally glitched out an animation I was working on and created a perfect example of what the passage of time feels like to someone with ADHD
just unfollowed someone for rbing anti-manhating sentiments. it's very weird to me and I'm not sorry. there's a rise in conservatism and a big societal push to strip women of our rights and make us men's property, and your biggest priority is lecturing women on how we talk about men?? fuck right the fuck off actually
"but it hurts their feelings!" it hurts MY feelings when my sisters and mothers don't have rights.
"but it doesn't help your goals!" meanwhile men are beating, raping, oppressing, and killing women everywhere to advance the goals of the patriarchy. don't tell me what I should and should not feel about that.
"but it harms trans men/men of color/other oppressed men!" does it? because trans men and men of color have way more serious shit to deal with than women expressing their feelings on the internet. such as transphobia and racism. meanwhile, women in their communities (trans women, women of color) have to deal with all of that PLUS oppression from the men.
you simply cannot convince me that anti-manhating arguments are anything more than patriarchy propaganda. "unhh we have all the power and rights, but if you don't worship at our feet, you're just as bad as us." fuck offfffff
just unfollowed another person for rbing similar sentiments. I am NOT in the mood
congratulations! the award for "first self-victimizing addition" on this post goes to this person
I NEED TO SHOW THIS
INTOLERANCE
i fucking hate white people, we are the worst
just pinned a girl to the fourth wall