WanWan

Open vent account RAMCOA programmed alter Your favorite asshole !!

[permawanwan]

Wanderer Fictive [Fcktive — Brainmade Fragment + Fictive]

Call me Wanwan… or don’t, I don’t care. Just don’t give me some stupid name, I’ll laugh and then kill you.

Ageless adult, I don’t remember. I’m over 18 though 👍

He/They [It/its pronouns CAN be used, but usually only by those I allow to use them]

Gender isn’t important to me. I’m a guy. That’s all.

Aromantic Allosexual [I’m engaged to Her. I could date or flirt with other people, but I don’t fall easily. At the end of the day, when she comes for me, I will run to her]

Programmed part [Prince(ss)] — Don’t ask specific details. I’ll say something if I feel safe enough to do so.]

Paraphile, but I don’t openly talk about it unless I REALLY want to.

NPD[w/ ASPD traits] holder, not a BPD holder but we collectively have that too. I have low empathy and low sympathy. Don’t vent to me and expect anything similar to comfort. I don’t sugarcoat and I don’t care …

I live in a “every man for himself” world (except me and my wife). If you come for me for advice or guidance, I’ll give you just that. Otherwise, go away.

Working to be better.

@princenarc1ssus is a headmate accounts very similar to mine [NPD centered]

[This is the link to my pinterest identify board]

[future pronouns.CC page] [No link yet]

[Favorite YouTube playlist]

If you want to talk outside of tumblr, ask for our personal/main discord @ inside of DMs.

You can DM me at @coded-pup [just in case I ever turn these off]

NO DNI

NO TAGGING SYSTEM

I block freely and I’ll block you if I simply hate something you like. I’ll block a bitch of WPD… perhaps, even on Fortnite and YouTube. Don’t even joke, Lad.

Read this, it was against my will. He has more internal power than I do… EuGH — [Click]

[permawanwan]

If I could bleed, I’d want to bleed out in a field of flowers, surrounded by the chirping of birds and the sun on my face.

I want die feeling like I meant something, to anyone.

I want to die knowing that even after I pass, this field will thrive off of me and become more beautiful and vibrant.

If that’s all I can do for anyone, so be it. At least I did something.

[hirac-delesbian]

Been getting back into genshin. Why is there Roblox.

[permawanwan]

Being short means being doomed by the narrative, okay?

Maybe if I grow a couple inches, people will see me less like a brat and more like a threat!!

[Absolutely not true Lmao —🪽]

[npd-confessions]

I’ve never posted an ask here…

TW RAMCOA/programming type [not graphic]

Prince Programmed + NPD haver is such a hassle. I physically cannot keep up with all these changes since leaving the abuse? I mean, I was probably one of the only ones who truly didn’t mind it. And because my mindset is naturally “eat or be eaten”, it’s not like I can force myself to care for the others (headmates).

EuGH going through the motions… so many changes make me unstable and vulnerable and hnnnghhh… I want to bury myself in blankets

—W (not anon, but just in case I ever send another. Not sure yet)

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[permawanwan]

Credits to OP on TikTok

You guys see the way that when MARI comes on screen, the light in his eyes move with her?!

Do you know what I’m about to say?!

…

ME AND MY WIFE ?! THAT’S US, YEAH? THAT’S HOW I FEEL ABOUT HER, YEAH?

Can she comeback before I actually lose my MIND !!! YOU CANT TAKE EVERYTHING FROM ME AND THEN THROW ME AWAY

No, if she actually did that, I’m gonna have to find her and — let’s not say that online. But my point STILL stands!!!

#imissmywife #Comebackwife

[permawanwan]

Here’s a fun fact for you guys:

Our Wanderer has a slight British accent when angry…

Where did it come from? Haha I don’t know. Perhaps Victorian children?

Anyways, I want him to stop yelling at me. He’s Lucky I’m so docile, otherwise, I’d be triggering the things I know about you right now.

…This is fine.

—🎮🍕

[permawanwan]

sorry to tell you this but your intro link doesn't work (ToT) - (alter in ❄️'s system)

Sigh… I kind of figured. Thanks for letting me know, I’ll figure it out sometime later.

[permawanwan]

I’m not lazy, I’m royalty?! What don’t you people understand?! Are you truly that stupid and incompetent?! Is there anything in that skull of yours?!

I shouldn’t even be here. If I were back, simply asking me to do useless, mundane chores like “washing dishes” would’ve gotten you slapped across the face?!

So why do you ask me?! I should have the right to slap you until you bleed and until you beg me to stop!

Ask me for one more mundane and lowly peasant thing and I will fantasize about skinning you alive!! Wouldn’t be the first time, yeah?!

[permawanwan]

Good song. I wish I could say the same thing with the same confidence. I’d be lying about most of it, but at least I have the confidence

—🎮🍕, He/It

More songs I like ^^

[permawanwan]

Sigh. Updated my intro… pissed off but read this if you plan on stalking this account or whatever. It would probably help with confusion and sign offs and … urgh i want to sleep.

CLICK ME <- links to a private post on the account, if it doesn’t work, let me know. I’ll either cry or have to fix it. Probably both.

Sign off for me will now be : —🪭

[permawanwan]

TW RAMCOA + programming talk, not graphic

Partially trained internal handler… we discovered him and he took on a form. Okay, cool!

It’s been a lil bit since we found him and?? He doesn’t do the handling???

Genuinely, despite the fact he complains of headaches/dizziness/nausea and sometimes hallucinations when he refuses to do the role, he just doesn’t???

Says that he has better things to do than to babysit a bunch of traumatized teens ??!!

I mean, yay! One less handler!

But also?! Is this just… a thing? Are you allowed to do that? Is this just?? Okay???? 😭 I’m so???

Like genuinely, I’m confused? Is this just allowed and he can get away with this for sure ?!

Well, for the mean time, he’s going to be sharing my account. Much to my dismay, but it’s to avoid creating more accounts until we can archive a few. (We have over 23….)(not to mention the ones that aren’t side blogs….)

[swagvo1d]

doomed

[permawanwan]

ahhhh of course!! i love sharing songs with people !! what kind of music do you usually like ? - ❄️

Answering both in one post, hopefully that’s fine with you, anon. Just to not spam the account with posts .

The music I usually listen to varies. I have a similar music taste to a lot of the other headmates. I’d say indie pop / Japanese shoegaze / Japanese indie alt are my top three right now.

I’ll link some songs below under the cut, ones that I enjoy personally.

And I appreciate you trying to relate. I’m glad that I can provide that sense of relatability for you. My memories still are really scattered so I honestly don’t remember exactly why we lost contact.

Even though I speak about her the way I do… we all know deep down inside, she’s probably gone. Especially living where we used to and being so young.

Not to get sad or anything, I just suppose me being delusional is better than me spiraling in my own depression, right?

Songs I like :

[permawanwan]

ooh okay may I also recommend natural disasters by enon, pink by maretu (our host has a whole collection of covers publicly available LOL), who is she by i monster kinda reminds me of you for some reason,, - ❄️

I monster mentioned! I love a lot of their songs, I enjoy “Lust for a vampyr” the most! Who is she is also a pretty good song, I’m surprised it reminds you of me though. I’m curious about the thought process behind it?

I listened to the song you suggested before, it’s good. Adding it to my playlist, I like the ladies’ voice. Something about it gives… “to kill a mockingbird”. Maybe that’s just me, but I get that vibe.

And I’ll be listening to the two you just suggested as well. Thank you. I appreciate you taking the time to respond and share some of your songs.

It helps, especially when I’m in narc crashes, like now (imagine LOL)

[permawanwan]

VENT — Don’t read if you’re simply going to pity or give fake sympathy, I don’t want it

I genuinely don’t think I can do anything right.

I keep forgetting what I went through was abnormal. Weird. Illegal.

None of it was NORMAL so when I talk about it, people look at me like I’m crazy. And that’s just the worst. I hate feeling like the outcasted freak. That’s not supposed to be my role and somehow, here I am.

I genuinely don’t understand.

I can logically understand that death, murder, cannibalism, all of it is morally taboo.

But shit, that was my everyday, man. What the hell?

Maybe I’m a freak.

I should

I should just go back to the cult. I know it’s a bad thought but they’ll be the only ones to accept me, I know that.

They trained me so I would never be accepted by normal people. Normal society. Even though I long for it, I’m not normal. I never will be.

If normal is what I want to be, I’ll never get it. Not unless I’m with them.

I want to go back.

[permawanwan]

I might genuinely have to kill myself, guys. Everyday I get closer to mentally break down into psychosis and I’m like 🤏 RIGHT THERE.

I’m fine. This is fine. Mhm. Yeah. I’m fine haha.