Look, in DMs, sometimes I may come off as a horny fuck, but in all actuality, I'm just aegosexual and I like dirty talk sometimes. If I talk dirty to you, just know in real life, I'm really not that way. I prefer to be cuddled and held and talked to like I'm a person. I want to be comfortable around others more than anything.
I'll yap your ear off and give you way too much information you dont actually need to know about, but I'm shy about physical affection and I'll always ask if I can give you a hug or hold your hand, even if it is the primary way I love to show affection. Hell, even if I wanted to kiss you and have you be my first kiss, I'd probably never ask.
I don't like the idea of hooking up, so I'd even be way too shy to ask for anything to do with sexual favors, but because of my aegosexuality, I probably seem a lot more horny and needy than what I actually am irl. It happens, yes, but I can suppress those urges and mask them very heavily because of my personality.
So just know, if I've talked to you in a sexual way, and we ever meet up irl, I am a thousand times more different than you probably imagine.
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how doomed must your love be that the same year you finally escaped your prison is the same year your immortal wife loses her immortality and the same night she regains her immortality is tHE SAME FUCKING NIGHT YOU LOSE YOURS HOW DOOMED IS YOUR LOVE?? I ASK HOW DOOMED??? I CANNOT KEEP GOING ON LIKE THIS
Plot: Sam grooms Castiel's wings and they make out a bit LMAO
!!Warnings: Fluff, cutesy romantic shit, makeout scene, TLC for these boys they deserve it, pet names (Honey, angel, baby, love), NO BETA!!!!
Word count: 1,065
Castiel had been working his ass off with the Winchesters. It had been hunt after hunt after hunt after hunt with no breaks. And it was taking a toll on him. More physically than mentally. He hadn't had the time to take care of his wings.
And the soft, black wings Castiel worked so hard to keep perfect were now unkempt and unsightly. There were black feathers nearly ready to fall out. And those loose feathers were itchy as hell. Making the angel even more uncomfortable.
But luckily, Sam had noticed. Sam always noticed when his boyfriend was uncomfortable. He noticed everything about Castiel. How disheveled he looked after going so many rounds (in hunting.. of course.. perverts). How he would roll his shoulders uncomfortably.
Sam wanted to take care of his angel. But they were on another hunt. So to do that, he had to kick Dean out of the motel room. Which wasn't hard. Sam just had to throw in some of his brother's trigger words. Like a dog. He mentioned "bar", "beer", and "women". He was out the door quicker than lightning.
Sam turned himself back around to look at his angel. He was sitting on those old motel bedsheets, his palms interlocked together while he watched TV. But Sam noticed him shifting uncomfortably and the way his shoulders rolled once more. Sam's lips thinned as he approached him.
The motel bed squeaked grotesquely as Sam put his weight on it, sitting down next to Cas. The angel didn't say anything. His gaze locked onto the TV screen. Trying to distract himself. If Sam had to guess why? It would probably be from how uncomfortable the angel felt.
But Sam spoke up. His concern etched onto his chiseled face. "Cas.. honey, what's going on? You look like you wanna crawl out of your skin."
"I'm fine, Sam." Castiel replied, but he wasn't. He had a bad poker face. Hell, he didn't even have one. It still surprised Sam how his boyfriend was able to deceive him and Dean when he was working with Crowley.
"You're lying. You've been uncomfortable since the third hunt in a row. I've noticed." Sam rebutted as his large hand came down to rest on the angel's thigh. His thumb rubbed into the clothed flesh. "You can tell me anything, angel. You know that."
The taller watched as Cas' face contorted. Like he could see the sentence forming on his face. "My.. wings. I haven't had time to take care of them. They're really itchy and frankly unpresentable." Castiel finally spoke. Sam sighed.
"Angel.. let me take care of you. Let me see them." Sam had seen Castiel's wings before. It was a rare occasion, though. Like many, people have seen them through flickers of light. But if you were close enough to an angel, and had a personal.. or in this case romantic connection, they'd let you see them.
Castiel was reluctant at first, he didn't want Sam to fuss or worry. But the taller gave him those signature puppy eyes that made him crumble fast. So he relented. His big black wings appeared from thin air. Sam smiled as his hand brushed against the soft feathers. It made the angel shiver.
"There you go.." Sam had whispered in awe as his eyes raked over Cas' wings. They were beautiful but they were definitely in need of some preening. So Sam got to work as quickly as he could.
"Extend your wings, baby." Sam requested, and Cas followed. His wingspan was huge. Nearly taking up half of the room. Which always made Sam gawk. He loved his boyfriend and his wings. They were beautiful to him. Even when they were a mess like this. He still thought they were.
Sam began plucking at the loose feathers and making a pile next to his leg. He knew he was doing a good job as he saw his angel's wings twitch. Being free from the itchiness that suffocated him for days was so gratifying for Castiel. Sam even managed to get a few hums of pleasure from his boyfriend.
"I let you go on like this for too long. My poor angel.." The taller murmured. He let his long fingers rake through the wings now to try and see if any more loose feathers would fall. And when they didn't, he began smoothing them down for Cas. Making sure they were neat and tidy like always.
"It's not your fault. We've been busy." Castiel replied, but Sam didn't like that answer. He felt as though he should've done something the minute he noticed his poor angel was uncomfortable. Sam leaned in, his nose bumping into Castiel's stubbly cheek.
"Should've done something earlier. Should've taken care of you right away." Sam mumbled, his lips ghosting over Cas' cheek before he finally kissed him there. "I don't blame you, love." Castiel spoke out as he turned his head, their noses how bumping against each other's.
"You always take good care of me anyway. I'm grateful." Castiel's breath fanned over Sam's lips. Sam smiled. "I love you." Sam whispered.
"I love you too." Castiel replied.
Their lips crashed together. Sam's hands left Castiel's wings so he could cup the angel's face while Cas draped his arms over Sam's broad shoulders. The kiss was filled with love and compassion for each other. And it was slow at first. Sam tasting Castiel's lips, showing the angel how much he loved him. But it moved on from that.
Sam's tongue licked at Castiel's bottom lip, asking for entrance. And Castiel gave it away immediately. Their tongues mingled together for a moment before Sam decided he wanted to explore. He licked everywhere he could. Sam missed how good Cas tasted.
And Cas was enjoying it all. His throat let a few soft moans escape him while Sam was lost in exploring his mouth. The angel's arms moved away from draping over the giant's shoulders just so they could tangle their way into Sam's long brown hair.
Then the taller pulled away for air. Unfortunately he was NOT an angel that could kiss without needing to breathe like Castiel. He pressed his forehead against the angel's and stared into his strikingly blue eyes. "You feel better, honey?" Sam asked.
"Much better. Thank you, love." Castiel smiled, leaning in once more to peck his lover on the lips.
A/N: I hope you guys liked that cause I've been in a mood and I needed them to kiss IMMEDIATELY. Sastiel posting ONLY!!
I haven't abandoned this story. I just put it on the back burner for now. The story is just on a small vacation. It is currently out of office. It can't come to the phone right now. It just fell under my bed to sleep with the monsters. It never left my head. It is everywhere - except on paper.
thinking about that post of people assuming ao3 has an algorithm and also about how bonkers persistent the view is that ao3 is social media lite. like with startling regularity I get comments saying something along the lines of "it's probably weird to comment on a fic this old--" no it isn't!!!! this is an archive I am literally just assuming you searched for a selection of specific tags or sorted by kudos or looked back on my pseud or any other number of completely normal ways to use an archive site ?? kill the tiktok ghost in your brain and comment on old stuff it's NOT weird
So, a friend said something to me about thinking that Larys is a psychopath, and I think that's completely wrong. I think he's a sociopath, which makes him all the more dangerous
(Disclaimer: I know that Psychopaths and Sociopaths aren't necessarily dangerous, and that they just have ASPD. And this is also all only MY opinion, and not what I think is actually canon)
Psychos are just born like that. they adapt, they learn, they just live their life - again, this is w/o sadism in the mix - but socios.
They often developed this total lack of empathy due to trauma, which means they've been exposed to the ways that others hurt others, and why it hurts, how it hurts, and not only that, but also damaged enough by this exposure to create either an anger issue, or the sadism needed to make a psycho/socio truly dangerous (i'm only thinking in terms of Larys, not all sociopaths)
The exposure to violence, and knowledge of it, as well as the effects of his anger or bloodthirst means that he's more equipped to know how to feed that anger or bloodthirst.
Larys has likely been abused, even if not by his family, then by those that mock him because of his disability.
And well, we all know how vicious "mocking" can get. Especially in times like in HotD time where violence is more normalized.
I imagine he's been facing it all his childhood. Hence; trauma. Therefore; Sociopath. Because he was made, not born.
He was exposed to that violence and the sadism of others, and learned the ways they hurt others and made them feel vulnerable.
What has Larys been shown to do? Hurt others, and make them feel vulnerable.
He's been learning all his life even before he lost his empathy.
Without it, all he has now is a sadistic need to enjoy others pain the way his tormentors likely enjoyed his pain
also this goes without saying, but psycho/socio's are the best manipulators around. They're extremely logical to a point, because they're often unaffected by their emotions and see things in a very clear objective way, and therefore can give excellent advice as well as manipulate anyone.
people depicting that as "pride" is so very infuriating confusing to me. Babygirl, how is that pride? What does pride look like to you and how is that it?
That's desperation.
That's "you told me too late, i can control no one now", that's aegon is out of my reach, aemond is lost to me, helaena is suffering, and no one gets what they want now. None of my kids are the same as when they trusted me and followed me. That's the whole "All the damage I got isn't good damage, it's just. Damage." shtick. If she wasn't right, then it wasn't worth it, and we destroyed ourselves for nothing.
That's not pride that's making her refuse to back down, that's desperation.
If she's wrong, if she admits that she's wrong, even if it saves them from a war, it makes everything that already happened worthless, and she has no control over anyone anyway. It just makes their side weaker, and her words lose more credit. No one will follow her, besides Criston.
They all suffered for the throne, she can't just go "oopsie it's not yours" and undo it all.
The way people use Aemma Arryn's death to justify the hate Alicent gets needs to studied.
Aemma Arryn was used as a broodmare since a young age, married to a man older than her. She was put through multiple pregnancies, miscarriages and stillbirths against her will and when time came, she didn't even get the dignity to die in her own terms. She was gutted like a pig as she got held down, as she begged Viserys to stop. All because Viserys wanted a Son.
Alicent also marries a man who's far more older, old enough to be her father, the man in question being her childhood companion's father, someone who watched her grow up alongside his daughter. She too goes through multiple pregnancies; anyone of them could've been her last, anyone of them could've resulted in her meeting the same end as Aemma. But she doesn't, she in fact bears Viserys THREE healthy sons. Viserys gets THREE of what he killed his first wife for and he neglects them.
So what's the difference between Aemma and Alicent you might ask? Well according to some TB members Aemma Arryn suffered with class or grace as she fulfilled her queenly duties, like the High Valyrian Queen she is.
A stark contrast to the "Filthy Low Class" Alicent Hightower with her "inferior genetics" who wanted Viserys to give a damn about the kids he had with her. How dare Alicent Hightower want what was the best for her children? Only Rhaenyra gets to do that! How dare she show any agency or ambition instead of sitting in the corner and let the "rightful queen" walk all over her and her children.
How dare she get mad when her son got bullied for not having a dragon? How dare she loose her composure when that same son losses his eye because he got attacked by those same bullies? How dare she attack Rhsenyra the "rightful heir" when she latter asks that her now freshly mutilated son be sharply questioned Why can't she just roll over and die?
the saying "the only good victim is a dead one" is very true here. many people (on team black especially) are all for supporting victims until one isn't a perfect little angel who never did anything wrong, until one is angry and has agency and autonomy and wants to gain power (unless that victim is Rhaenyra of course; only then is this justified). they love aemma bc she didn't have the chance to do anything "wrong" yet; if aemma had lived and done something they deemed bad, there's a good chance she would have gotten the same treatment as alicent.
when a victim dies, they've "redeemed" themselves; they did the right thing by succumbing to the abuse and not challenging the status quo that normalizes said abuse, by not wanting better for themselves. they hate alicent bc she knew the way she and her children were treated was wrong and actually tried to change it; they hate her bc she didn't lay down and die like a good little victim is supposed to do.
🌲 What is the kindest thing your OC has ever done for someone? What is the kindest thing someone has ever done for them? On the flip side, what is the worst thing your OC has done to another person?
🌳 What does your OC do when they see others upset or in pain? An upset friend? A stranger?
🌿 What is something true about your OC that they refuse to admit about themselves? Is there any reason to this besides embarassment?
🍃 Describe a regular day for your OC. What is their schedule (if they have one).
🍂 How does your OC think they will die? Does death scare them? Is there any reason for this?
🍁 What is your OC’s most traumatic experience? (If they don’t have just one traumatic experience either pick one or describe them all!)
🍄 How would your OC react to the death of a friend/family member/loved one? Is there anyone they can confide in?
🌾 What would your OC be like if they were evil. Or if they’re already evil what would they be like as the good guy?
💐 How would your OC react to somebody telling them that they love them? (+ bonus give another characters/OC name!)
🌷 What does your OC hate about themself? What lies about themself do they believe? On the flip side, What does your OC love about themself?
🌹 Does your OC have any scars? How and when did they get them?
🥀 What is something your OC blames themself for and is it really their fault? Does it keep them up at night and is there any lingering trauma?
🌺 In what situation would your OC be pushed to commit an act of violence? Would they go as far to kill someone if they had to? How would this affect them and their relationships with others?
🌸 What would your OC do if they were given god-like powers or the ability to change anything about the world for a whole day?
🌼 Describe one of your OC’s worst nightmares.
🌻 What advice would your OC give to their younger self? What advice does your OC need now?
I really do have a lot of OC's constantly taking up space in my head, so I'll go for a recent one.
SONIA B.
🌲 Generally, she's a protector, so probably the nicest thing she's ever done is protected some stranger or friend from a dangerous situation.
The kindest thing someone has done for them... Probably her sister, giving her a space to be a person and actually someone rather than just a martial artist with a goal.
The worst thing Sonia has done to someone would probably be to her sister, who tried so hard to reach out and save her, but due to her current blindness and anger, she ended up pushing away so much that she couldn't find any reasons to stay anymore.
That really hurt Anna a lot.
🌳 If they're just upset, Sonia would probably avoid them (she's not great at emotional stuff), and get someone better equipped to handle that, be they a stranger or a friend, or even a sister.
If they're in pain, she'd get a first aid kit and see what she can do to help.
Physical things she can do stuff against is better than stuff of the mind to her.
🌿 Sonia knows that she's been exploited and used all her childhood and that, if she had just looked past that, her sister wouldn't have left.
She refuses to truly admit this though, because past being the reason her sister left the family, it would mean that she'd have to decide what to do with her life, and she's never truly done that before.
She's afraid of the freedom the truth brings.
🍃Mostly just train at the dojo.
Study, during the breaks for her body to rest, and eat after studying, after eating, back to study, then after study, train again.
On some days, this schedule changes because she has to go to (college) classes, or a competition, but overall, she's just always honing her skills.
Sometimes she hangs out with whatever small group of friends she's managed to make, if they make plans.
🍂 Sonia probably believes that she'll just die of old age. She lives a healthy life, she doesn't pick a lot of fights (kind of) and she's pretty strong.
She doesn't have a lot to worry about so just die naturally. She's not really scared of death, since she believes she'll have a long life before it.
However, the idea of things ending before she can feel content with what she's done in her life does terrify her, and if death is the reason, then she'd be terrified of death, but again, she believes she'll have a long life.
🍁 Sonia has spent her entire life training for a goal that she didn't even get to choose for herself.
Her entire life, she's had a lack of autonomy and freedom. She's been restricted and oppressed all her life, as well as, before her sister left, compared and contrasted with her twin.
She has a low self-esteem, high level of insecurities, and a desperate need to prove herself. Most people who meet her won't see this right away, but it shows eventually.
She doesn't think herself good enough due to how she was raised, but as a most traumatic experience - she'd probably choose that one moment that she gave it all she got, to reach her goal, and everyone acknowledged that her 'best' was astounding, and her sister still won.
🍄 Honestly depends on who it is, but she's a very family oriented person, and losing someone just would take a toll on her.
She isn't given a lot of reasons to, but she loves her family dearly anyway. At the very least, she's extremely loyal to them, so to lose someone feels kind of like a gut punch, again and again, to her.
If she lost her sister, or parents, someone she was really close with - she would be completely torn up.
She doesn't like losing people. It would make her feel helpless, and she'd hate that even more.
🌾 Sonia is... not evil, but she is very... She seems like she could be. She's got the past (basically a child soldier) and she's pretty asocial. She's ambitious and cunning, extremely fiery (in drive) and cold (in personality), and will do almost anything to win, and prove herself, but she is good. As an evil character, she would be pretty terrifying.
If she wasn't a protector at core, then... Probably just think Azula from ATLA w/o powers? She is pretty similar to Azula in many ways.
💐 If someone other than family Sonia that they loved her, like, say, Mickie, who's also a martial artist (less skilled than Sonia), she honestly would fritz out a little.
Completely unsure of how to respond. Would prob reply with "Thank you?" and feel awkward towards the person.
She wouldn't really trust it at first, but once she does, she'd warm up to them, eventually let them in, and consider them one of the people that she would lay down her life for.
She's asocial, isolated by her way of life, doesn't have a lot of friends, and her family isn't very loving - She doesn't have a lot of people who loves her.
🌷 She hates that she's never good enough to win the competitions that they're sent in 100% of the time (bc to them, anything but first place means they're a failure).
She believes that they're not good enough or are a failure, or are too weak compared to others or not working hard enough, but those are all completely untrue.
She however, does love that she's powerful enough to have achieved what she's achieved in the past.
(I've realized I've been switching pronouns, lol. Her pronouns are she/her but she honestly does not care if others used they/them for her. They'd feel uncomfortable with he/him though, it doesn't feel like them.)
🌹 Likely. Training, probably. Or competitions.
🥀 She blames herself for Anna leaving the family, but it wasn't really her fault. She was part of the reason, yes, but not the whole reason, and therefore shouldn't be carrying the blame like she does.
Anna left because she grew painfully aware of the fact that living in the manipulative family that they live in would destroy everything good about her, because it already destroyed her relationship with Sonia.
This absolutely keeps Sonia up at night and probably wakes them up too (nightmares) when they finally manage to sleep (or pass out).
🌺 Violence is kind of her main thing as a martial artist, but yes (jk i know that although it's violent, it isn't directly violence due to difference in intent).
If it was to protect someone (or herself), she would resort to violence.
Even murder.
This would tear her up a lot, but not for a long time. She's very good at justifying things. Especially if her family and sensei's, who she basically reveres and (mostly) fully believes in, gave her a justification, she could move past it.
Would probably distance her more from others and pull her closer towards her manipulators (her family and the dojo she trains at, which is basically also family), but that wouldn't change too much.
🌸 Would probably find a teacher who is the best at what she does and surpass them, bc she always wants to earn everything she accomplishes.
And have her sister back. (And have more friends, and be loved, and be able to indulge in anything without losing her maintained toned body).
🌼 Being left completely alone for not being good enough at anything she does. Being abandoned because she's a disappointment.
🌻 She would probably tell her younger self to hold on to Anna a little more, and train harder, and that with certain preparations, they can achieve their dream.
But the advice she'd really need is to find out if she actually wants what she's spent her whole life working for, or if she just doesn't see any other path besides it.
Oh no, the 14 indoctrinated year old teenager stayed loyal to her father, her absolute monarch, and her country to the end and didn't commit high treason. Look how irredeemably evil she is.
The fact that Azula doesn't expect that Zuko show her any love, compassion, or support, even when they are on good terms with each other, really suggests to me that Zuko never really gave her much love or support when they were younger, at least as far as she can remember. The fact that Zuko expects and demands that Azula do emotional labor for him and give him support in other ways suggests to me that she did give him a lot of love, compassion, and support before his exile.
Again, I'm not trying to demonize Zuko here, since he grew up in an awful and abusive family, nor to say that Azula was an ideal sibling, because she wasn't at all, but it really seems that both siblings were used to acts of love only flowing in one direction when they were younger, while acts of aggression and hate flowed in both.
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