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leslekieuart

do y'all remember when they found all that tf art in Osamu Tezuka's drawer post-mortem because I think about it often

anyway keep chasing your bliss and draw weird shit, god knows we need that right now

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Here’s a really gay comic I made out of nowhere! Based on that one picture by @giglio-nero-e-bianco

I just outed myself as being a fanfic author on ao3.

Let's see how that goes.

Holy hell, it wasn't cancer.

It was a 6" benign tumor that had almost blocked part of my colon. It also had signs of the bad stuff, the signatures OF cancer. My doctor said I was a hair's breath away from it being cancer.

I am deeply, and profoundly lucky. I will NEVER disparage my luck again.

TW: illness

well

Hi.

I haven't posted things here in a very long time. I figure this is a quiet place to get my thoughts out. I don't think I have too many folks on this tumblr anymore. That's fine, as I needed to go somewhere online to vent this all out in a place where not many will see it- and get upset.

So. The TWs.

TW: Cancer

I guess that's the only one I need? It's upsetting enough.

Some how, it appears I *may* have developed colon cancer. After a few years of bad stomach problems attributed to this, that, and mental illness- it turns out there's a very large tumor in my colon.

Its been tested. The test came back negatively for cancer, however my surgeon thinks that because of the size and shape of it, it's probably cancer. It's also the freaky kind of tumor that looks all eldritch. In my driest of humor, my coping mechanism, I hope it grows teeth.

I also hope to keep those teeth.

We won't know until the bastard's been evicted, along with my torso lymph nodes and gallbladder (unrelated to the colon tumor, but equally if not MORE painful). I won't be losing my whole colon, but part of it. My only fear is that may have spread, if it is cancer. However, the first place it usually goes is the liver and my blood tests came back as normal for that.

I have a great surgeon. I have my date. It's the waiting that's the hard part. Well, and the pain. The pain sucks too.

I'm so tired. It's like it put a tap in me and my energy is running out like a fountain. All I want to do is sleep. But I keep on doing the things I like. I keep seeing my friends. I go to work. I go to the gym. I keep moving.

I have no idea what caused this torso abomination. I'm active- I swim, I lift, I walk. My diet isn't bad. I have no genetic markers for this type of disease. The rest of my colon is very healthy, as I found out from the colonoscopy. No diverticulitis, no colitis. Perfectly normal.

Its a fluke. The weirdest damn fluke. I used to joke that I had the worst luck. Well. Maybe I do. But I at least listened to myself and went through the testing. This could have been far more advanced if I waited.

As long as it's not cancer, I'll be back to 100% normal. ....as normal as that gets for me. If it is cancer and it hasn't spread, I'll be back to 100% normal when it's out. If it is and it spread? ...Well... we will cross that bridge when we come to it.

I have good days and bad. The worst of the depression seems to be gone. So has the bargaining lol. I've accepted it, and have begun prepping for surgery.

Thanks for stopping by and giving this a read. I probably won't post again until after the surgery unless I need to get my thoughts out.

incorrectstainmight

Toshinori: My husband is a ten but he’s two candles away from making our room an All Might shrine.

Toshinori: Do you know how awkward it is to have to make eye contact with yourself saying “be the best you can be” while going down on your own husband.

knicks-knacks

It's hilarious to me when people complain about AO3 and its policies, and what they allow on the site - but it's ESPECIALLY funny when people complain like "Why can't the freaks make their own site and just go there?"

Sweetie... AO3 is the site for that. Y'all invaded our space.

Wattpad and FFN still exist. Go there. They're as shitty and G-rated as you want. You can't have the luxuries that AO3 offers if you're gonna be a little bitch about its policies. Imagine walking into a strip club and complaining about the alcohol and naked ladies when there's a god damn Dennys next door you could have gone to. Christ.

girlnotthis

An accidental Magritte painting in Bundoora https://instagram.com/p/BWhVynelep0/

mikkeneko

Macbeth better watch out

catchymemes

weaselle

Some things to know:

the school closes and locks its gates at 8:30 to encourage punctuality

the school is for students as young as four years old

the fence is six feet tall

source

likepetra

Whenever you see something that’s a real world article but the headline reads like the Onion, its usually because there’s some bullshit fuckery going on in the details

This waiting may end me

Stomach ache for days

Not eating

Pacing wildly

Not sleeping

boredpanda

Meet Ladybeard, A Cross-Dressing Wrestler And Death Metal Singer From Australia

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My new atheistic is crossdressing-heavy metal-weeb-wrestlers from Australia.

fatale-distraction

Ladybeard is everything

lynneskysong

Lady Beard’s posing game is strong.

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Y’all missing that he’s now in a new idol duo called Deadlift Lolita, and his partner is this absolute babe:

Reika Saiki is a bodybuilding model and professional wrestler as well.

Together they ate just ✋😙👌❤️

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yall

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I don’t know what’s happening here but it makes me happy.

ohmygillygoshoppler

this is what my existence was missing

heyitsthetrash

this slaps

levonsnape-deactivated20230929

Hey guys. So. Due to struggles with mental illnesses I'm pretty much losing everything I have. My dog, laptop, and art tablet are with me but nothing else is going to be salvageable. I'm losing personal items, very small Star Trek, Leatherface, and Kreuger collectibles that meant a lot to me, books, most of all my traditional art supplies and craft items I've been getting to try to start selling jewelry and other things. I can't get into "why" because I'm very ashamed over. To be less specific, I have problems with executive functioning due to autism spectrum, ADHD, depression, and anxiety.

The first two were diagnosed as an adult and I'm struggling to find treatment and help. I don't have friends or family who are able or willing to help me. Im out of work right now relying on some savings while staying with my dog in a hotel.

I've had years and years of mental health professionals dismissing my problems, not listening, not understanding how bad things are because I'm "smart" so I should be able to hold a job, or take care of my living space, or whatever. I already lost a house a couple years ago. Now I'm losing all my stuff in my apartment due to conditions. It wasn't much, but it meant a lot to me.

I don't really know what to do mental health wise, and I can't stay with family because I'm trans and I'd have to go back into the closet around them and I don't think I can cope with losing anything else.

I have someone coming to look at the situation today and estimate costs of cleaning it all up professionally.

I'm not just talking about a messy house. I don't want to get into it but it's bad and without seeing it he's estimated between 1000-5000 or more and it's probably going to end up on the higher end after some stuff I found out today. I can add the exact number later.

Im in the process of trying to get disability, working on gathering medical records, but all I have for income right now is less than 600 a month and some savings which is going by quickly since I've been living in a hotel for over a month.

So anyway, I know the U.S. is shit right now, but this is a commission post. I can't do much else right now.

Digital, pencil, short fic.

A couple of these examples are unfinished but it's all I have on my phone right now.

Pencil sketch of one character bust like the Poppins example (but finished) $5. Digital sketch like "live ugly" $5. Full body sketch like dragon person, but finished, $10. Inked like "adventuring" example $15. Color digital portrait $20. Fic $5. NSFW is fine if you're 18+ and all characters are 18+.

Art for any fandom. Fic for DS9, Harry Potter, TCM.

https://paypal.me/JLParmak?locale.x=en_US

Signalboost appreciated.

Go to paypal.me/JLParmak and type in the amount. Since it’s PayPal, it's easy and secure. Don’t have a PayPal account? No worries.

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ultrafacts

Source

Video of Tama

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The picture in the background of the second one

pizzaismylifepizzaisking

Tama is boss

ultrafacts

cat-fandom

THE TRAINS HAVE CARTOON TAMAS ON THEM

ultrafacts

Sad update everyone, Tama recently passed away… An estimated 3,000 people, including railway officials, attended Tama the cat’s funeral on Sunday, days after she died of heart failure aged 16. [x]

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For those who haven’t read articles about it, the local shrine elevated her to a god. She’s now the Eternal Stationmaster and patron god of the station.

karinanotcinerina

Beautiful.

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Now I’m crying thanks

sapphic-matriarchy

and a new cat was hired right?

clarenecessities

yep! her name is Nitama (essentially ”second tama” or “tama II”) and she served under Tama as an apprentice before being appointed her deputy

she works very hard

beasti

Everytime this crosses my dash, I reblog. It is the law.

lafayettelabaguette

Law

tooiconic

I’m crying at 11pm over train cats

sighinastorm

Nitama, already now a mature cat (born 2010), has a protege named Yontama (fourth Tama, b. 2016). There is no information available for either the physical befellment or tragic self-disgrace which has removed Santama from contention.

^Nitama majestic, and below with Yontama

Yontama.

linkislost

a legacy

bemusedlybespectacled

okay but actually what happened to santama (or sun-tama-tama, which is her name because it’s a pun on santama) was that she was basically sent to train for the position in okayama and they liked her so much they refused to send her back

kindaoffkilter

“Sun-tama-tama” (a pun off of “Santama”, lit. “third Tama”) was a calico cat sent for training in Okayama. Sun-tama-tama was considered as a candidate for Tama’s successor, but the Okayama Public Relations representative who had been caring for Sun-tama-tama refused to give the cat up writing, “I will not let go of this child, she will stay in Okayama.” [25]

As of September 2018, Sun-tama-tama is working as the stationmaster in Naka-ku, Okayama and appears occasionally on Tama’s Twitter account.

cryoverkiltmilk

Every time I see this post there’s new info and it gets better

northeastartist

You are only allowed to scroll pass this after you pay tribute to the great Tama Station masters.

redchrominance

The shrine of Tama Daimyōjin (Great gracious deity Tama), next to the Kishi station where she worked.

Nitama presenting her yearly offerings to Tama Daimyōjin on the anniversary of Tama’s Death, June 23 (The offerings are presented by the company president, as Nitama is a cat and thus can’t hold the offerings herself) (Not pictured, but also present, Yontama)