Schizoafucktive

Lobo | Adult | Schizoaffective Bipolar Subtype | Vent Blog | Message me about psychosis/schizo things whenever

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bro people have been sending me asks for years and I never replied to any of them because I didn’t know I had to go LOOK for them! I thought it would show up in the notifications, damn!

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It’s so hard to know how I feel about other people when I can’t tell what’s real.

I imagine signs I like you.

I imagine signs you like me too.

I find bizarre excuses to touch your hands.

You framed a sticky note I offhandedly wrote you.

I thought I heard you say my name when you weren’t here.

You wear the colour I think I might wear but then don’t every day.

These feel the same to me.

These feel as though there’s something there, but if I know anything about my mind, it’s that there’s never anything there.

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Anyone else have some sort of psychotic disorder but not autism, yet get mistaken for having autism a lot, or am I just alone in that boat?

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Plot twist of the century, I was diagnosed with ADHD, which is apparently commonly comorbid with schizophrenia. Who would’ve thought.

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Man, I just feel so very disconnected from my life right now, as if there’s another life that I have been unjustly stolen from. I can feel it on the outskirts of my mind and I can feel it in the leftovers from my dreams. There was a life I was living and this is just a pale replacement.

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I really hate that AI generating inaccurate information is called “hallucinating.”

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whoa wait. the people doing the “schizoposting” memes and stuff aren’t schizo people…? I thought they were… I didn’t realize it was making fun of us… :(

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I tag all my stuff with “schizoposting.” Me, naively thinking “I’m schizo! and I’m posting! Hee hee! :)”

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whoa wait. the people doing the “schizoposting” memes and stuff aren’t schizo people…? I thought they were… I didn’t realize it was making fun of us… :(

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I Love participating in research studies but research studies don’t love having me participate in them. I wanna be a little lab rat but every single one is like “Requirements: Be not psychotic.” Like shit man, I would if I could! Please let me participate! I promise I’ll be a good psychotic :(

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yeah I have sex

Schizophrenia

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Anyone else have some sort of psychotic disorder but not autism, yet get mistaken for having autism a lot, or am I just alone in that boat?

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the boss makes a dollar, I make a dime. that’s why I hallucinate on company time.

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When you’re in a job interview and the hiring manager is talking about how the company strives to have an environment that uplifts mental health and supports those with mental health struggles and you’re just sitting there thinking “What if I just said ‘I’m schizophrenic’ right now, what if I just said ‘Well that’s a huge relief because if you hire me, I will hallucinate my entire shift.’ Hahaha! Anyway.”

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I can’t tell anyone in my life about it. And I don’t want to. But I still want to say it. I have been thinking about ending my life constantly. I am passively suicidal. I want something horrible to happen to me. I will not act on this, but I wanted to put the words into the world. That’s all I needed. Don’t worry about that. Thanks.

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Was driving, stopped at a red light, my brain reset, and I went “oh I almost forgot to turn off the car!” and then just ,,, proceeded to park my car in the road at a red light.

Thank goodness this is the longest red light ever invented and I was able to say “Hey :) what the fuck am I doing :)” and turn it Back On. But I really just forgot where I was and what I was doing.

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I have waited a long time for this moment, and it finally happened! I always knew it would be on a day that is connected to 8, I knew it would be at a significant 8 related moment. And it was! 04/04 and it was at 22:22!! Can you even believe it!! I knew that this was a sign for me. I don’t want to go into too many details, but it was meant for me, and I just had to wait for the signal! And it happened just as planned, oh, I’m ecstatic!

Really, it all means that the waiting paid off, and my moment for action came and went, and we are now on the correct timeline again. The alternate time, the rip in space time, it closed successfully. Im just so happy about it :)

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Bipolar anger is like nothing else. Why am I so mad? I’m so insurmountable angry at literally everything and it’s for no reason.

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This is the kind of treatment schizo-affective people get, even when they're perfectly capable of reasoning and taking care of themselves. Remember that next time you use the word "psychotic" to describe someone you deem to be unhinged or evil. Remember that when its someone you know who suffers from it. This man found out she was schizophrenic and IMMEDIATELY tried to groom her for conservatorship, for total control of her life and relationships. She's LUCKY he told on himself so fucking quickly because many people play their cards CLOSE to their chest and slowly drive you crazy till there's a big explosion that they can use in court. This is why it matters so much that you LISTEN to us.