Poetry

Sometimes you can't say how you feel, so you just have to write it down, and try to understand yourself before you can tell others.

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Heavy

My heart feels heavy without a cause to be

My mind is so filled I barely can sleep

I can't say why but it's making me cry

My life full of light still a dark place to hide

This darkness makes me remember what a lonely place it can be

I'm here all alone and no one can see

I feel that sadness it weighs too much

My heart can't take more

My mind is messed up

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Hands

I can feel them now

Crossing boundaries they weren’t supposed to

The darkness leaving

Clearing up memories

Supposed to be forgotten for good

Do you regret what you did?

Can you even while saying it was my fault

Alcohol makes me the villain

You’re the victim

I didn’t love you so you stole what you wanted

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The one that loves more

Stumbling around with my heart on a plate

At least offering 130%

Love will never be given to me the way that I do

It’s fine I’ll wait.

For now 30% of you will do…

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To No let you in is what I desire, stone cold, no emotions,but sure I’m “just tired”. I won’t let you close, you might care too much. Then see the true me, realise I’m fucked up.

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Want to change the way I feel about myself but it's hard to stop hating when no one's there to help

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Oh to cure the brokenness we all provide

Is it my fault that everybody tries to hide the scars that they try to forget behind the lies, made up to neglect

The fact we're all fucked and not a million lies can cover lonely nights makes me sad but who am I to criticisize

If I do it myself from time to time...

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A spark

My heart started to melt

Felt the sun warm and bright

When you looked at me with your crystal clear eyes

Snow fell down my cheek but you were there

Wiping it away as if you had cared

Your sparks were never enough to keep me warm

Let me freeze to death in your arms

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A Heartbreakers philosophy

You told me I'm cute

Once i felt enough

But I was your toy

'til you had enough

- I got attached to you though...

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Don't give your heart away

Don't let it go

You'll learn how to feel again

And then they let go

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Hold me

Hold me tight

Don't let go

Say the right

And you won't get a no

No matter how hard I broke

No matter how much I've lost

Just say the right things

And you'll have all my trust...

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Two words

Two words

Only two words that I ought to say

Help me

Please help me

Cause I'm not okay

Look in my eyes

Deeper than my lies

The sadness when I cry

The emptiness inside

Help me

Please help me

You soon will see why

I'm cutting again

Don't care if I die

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Please love me

Why can no one love me

Is there something wrong

Did I do something to you

Or do just no one wants

A person like me

With scars on her arms

With tears in her eyes

And fears in her heart

Will I be alone

Alone in my life

Just because sometimes I feel

like dying inside

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No savior

My cold eyes

Starring at your damn lies

Trying to forget those great times

Blades again drawing red lines

Broken people being just fine

Lifes being on the line

No one sees that we're dying

At the graveyard they'll be crying

But no one's saving our minds

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Piece by piece

You broke my heart piece by piece

My heart broke more every sentence you released

I don't let anyone in since the day that you left

Because you leaving me made me want to be dead

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It doesn’t hurt anymore when I think about it. I just go numb. I’m numb a lot now, because I think about it a lot still.

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Storm

The storms going on I just can't stop cry

My mind is so loud I can't tell you why

My heart hurts and my body does so

I could make it stop

But I'm scared to let go

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Down here

I'm down here again

Oh if you'd just know

How bad I feel for not feeling anymore

I'm not telling anyone because they think I'm fine

I wonder if it would change if my arms again had red lines

The scars on my arms they're still well to see

The pains of those times are still haunting me

The nights when I went crying to sleep

They're coming again

I think I'm too weak