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[hollanderthoughts]

puppy want a treat?

Puppy wants something real he can call his own for once…

[vesnuszki]

whenever someone draws shane hollander as a twink… describes his muscles as anything but bulging …. his cock as anything but thick and girthy… an angel loses its wings

[spiralboundd]

lily.....ilya.....the love is constant ....all that changes is the boundary between it & and emptiness....

[ambiguityenjoyer]

Hurts but it’s true

[brainstreams]

Don't use AI to write. Use cocaine like a real author.

[rainbow-femme]

They move in together full time and Ilya notices that Anya acts differently with Shane than she does with him, more quiet and less playful, and he worries that means she doesn’t like Shane or is jealous, so he hires a dog trainer to come over and see if there’s anything they need to do to help

After a while of talking about how Anya acts the trainer says there’s nothing to worry about, Anya likes Shane just fine, it’s just that she sees him as the boss and is acting accordingly

And Ilya is like. But. I’m the one who adopted her? And raised her before Shane got here?? And the trainer is just like yeah well she sees you more like an equal. And Ilya is like WAIT she thinks Shane is in charge of both of us?? And the trainer is just like well do you interact in a way that would make her think that?

Ilya’s life flashes before his eyes as he thinks of all the times Shane has come over with a snack for Ilya and a treat for Anya, or all the times Shane has announced they’re all going for an after dinner walk, or pets Ilya’s hair and tells him he did a good job at practice, or the fact that he uses the same warning tone with Anya when she misbehaves as he does with Ilya when he’s causing problems on purpose

Shane comes home to Ilya with his face in his hands going oh god I’m not Anya’s dad I’m her brother and she thinks we’re both your pets. And Shane just goes. What.

[russianblush]

#the way they're both ready to devour each other

[isolabellz]

hollanov honeymoon scenes

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don’t worry everybody i’m gonna get ilya that wellbutrin perscription

[barry2018-2023]

But that's okay because you can talk about guys and I can talk about girls, and we'd both still like video games and hockey and pizza. Well, everybody likes pizza.

dylan o'brien in twinless (2025) dir. james sweeney

[bipolar4autistic]

How Shane looks at Ilya after they engage in under discussed cnc play

[spiralboundd]

hollanov leviticus au..........

i'm thinking especially about during the situationship era where they want each other so badly and are so far apart and barely talking and then the entity is there but they are still so alone even with the other body in the room and of course theres still the resentment and the desire despite the fear and especially playing into ilyas isolation like hmmmmm........give me a moment to better articulate this

[siriuslikethestarr]

shane: carrying in the groceries

ilya: reaching out a hand to help

shane: switching all the groceries to one hand so he can hold ilya's hand

[nicolegendary]

i knowwwwww in my heart ilya would love taking shanes last name and after they have kids referring to their family unit as hollanders. ilya turning around to the backseat like okey hollanders here is plan. we are going to be in and out of costco in thirty minutes. you may choose ONE item each. if we get separated we meet at optometrist. we will get ice creams on way out as long as everyone is cool and nobody tells dad. hollanders on three.

[spiralboundd]

good bruises

emotional infidelity, sex tape leak, shane gets a turn in the torture gauntlet, so much pressing on bruises || explicit, chaptered

He didn’t want Hayden there, patting him on the back, probably disgusted. Of course he was. Shane was disgusting. The video, when viewed through anybody else's eyes, was disgusting. And now it was everywhere. Shane could hardly conflate this with reality. It felt fake. Like some horrible nightmare. Distantly, and then all at once, he wanted Ilya. Or, Tampa doesn’t happen, and Shane and Rose get engaged. Two months later, the Hollander-Rozanov sex tape hits Twitter.

on ao3

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CHAPTER 5 IS UP AND I AM FREE

[spiralboundd]

i will write i will finish the chapter i will not be held captive for even 1 more day i will write i will finish the chapter i will not be held captive for even 1 more day