This is a real letter, dedicated to the boy I am so sweetly in love with. I can't tell you his name, but his name sounds like bells clinking when you say it. To the boy that is like sun rays peeking out from behind a forest to me, I hope one day you will know just how much I love you. And I'll always try to understand your decisions, even if they sometimes don't make sense to me.
Letter:
I miss you. A sweet feeling lingers in my heart, and all I can think about is your smile, and the fact that we can never be friends anymore. But this sweet feeling, sweet as sugar, stubbornly stays there my heart and drives me crazy. It won't go away. I've got the sweetest little crush on you, it's so sweet, so so sweet. You got me so drunk on your poison, because your poison is as sweet as honey. I want to know what your lips taste like, I want to get drunk on your smile, I want to fall into your eyes and stay there for hours.
But despite all this, I know it isn't just a crush; I developed a crush on you only after falling in love with you. For many people it works the other way round; but for me somehow, I realized I was in love with you first.
The gentle feeling of love came first - the peaceful feeling of being in your company. The calm feeling I felt when listening to you tell jokes and stories. And the way the world seemed to fall silent, when I watched as you walked happily alongside your friends.
It was only after that, did every little thing about you start to make my heart race, did every single thing about you seem cute beyond words. It was only after all this, did I get a little drunk in your eyes that always seem to be thinking.
But this "dizziness", this blinding crush, will lessen eventually, and in the time that it will take for it to reduce, I promise to hide most of it from you to respect your comfort.
And throughout all this, I will always love you the way I did from the beginning.
