She’s the reason
You are happy
And you are
The reason
I’m happy,
I hate her
But I don’t.
Oh but she only
Seems to be the reason
I’m happy,
When I’ve never really
Found happiness,
In anyone other than
You.
You found happiness
In me by keeping me
At an arms-length.
Keeping you
At an arm’s length
Was for your good,
Any closer
And I may have
Burned you.
Keeping me at
An arm’s length,
But never
Letting me go.
How was
Trapping me
In the open
Ever be good
For me.
Would let it go
The string I was
Holding on to,
Go if you must
No longer trapped,
But know this
You take my happiness
With you.
I want to go but
I cannot leave,
Not when you
Call me happiness,
Yet chose her
To make you happy.
You say you care
Yet go on
And hurt me.
If you do love me
Let me know
And let me go,
Don’t ask me to leave
Because a body
Without a heart
Is just a
Dead person walking.
You can leave
And take my happiness,
If you lost yours
It can come in handy.
I was hurting and she came,
She’s great
Though I didn’t find happiness
It was lost with you.
She knows it
Says I’m hollow
Tells me I’m heartless
And it’s a total mess.
You don’t have to be
Without a heart,
Take mine by all means
If you must,
I’ll exist without it,
If that is indeed what I must.
I could have been
Your happy and
Your happiness,
But you
Never wanted me
Even though
You needed me
The most.
You do not
Get to decide
Whether I should be
With you or not.
You say you’ll burn me
If you hold me any closer,
But look at me darling
I am just ashes,
Left of the passion
You showed me for her.
How could I never want you,
When in every crowd
I pass through
I search for you.
Dark and grey has taken over
Since you left,
No colors exist anymore.
I have no say I know
For you’re hurt too.
You may be ashes,
But oh my dear
You’re ashes of the phoenix
Which will rise again.
The passion you talk about,
The feelings, the emotions,
They don’t exist anymore,
She has deemed me heartless.
Wanting someone
And having someone,
Are two different things
And even though you say
You wanted me,
You kept me away,
Thinking you were
Keeping me safe
While all you did
Was hurt me.
I hurt you
When all I wanted was,
To keep you safe.
You see,
I don’t trust myself,
I want you,
But I don’t think
I deserve you.
What if you come
And my demons
Make your life miserable,
Rather than better.
Nothing can make me
More miserable than
Not being with you.
I’d rather be sad with you
Than be happy anywhere else.
I can’t let you be sad,
I’ll do whatever I can,
To make you smile,
To make you happy,
For you deserve nothing less.
Will you be by my side
When the tides get high.
If you want me
To be happy then
Take me in your arms,
Let me be there
For as long as
You can hold me.
I need nothing more
Than you to
Keep me alive.
Let the tides get high,
We will be higher
By being at
Each others sides.
Let us shine bright
Like a beautiful sunrise.
Come then,
My arms are wide open,
Let me hold you.
I’m clumsy
But I won’t let you fall.
You’re too precious.
With you by my side
We’ll fight and defend,
Whatever comes our way.
We will glow,
Shed our tears,
Immerse ourselves,
In each other,
A beautiful sunrise, indeed.
a collaboration between @fragments-of-my-mind and @justscribbledwords