#bipolar things

[pull-droned]

i’ll let you drag me to hell if it means i’ll be able to hold your hand

[mayikissyoux]

one day i feel like i’m super pretty and the next day i feel like rat

[latterdayfilth]

Isn’t that the entire point of this site

[thesaddesttoothless]

does anyone know how to make an anxiety attack stop

and also how to stop a depressive episode or at least make it manageable

[thinly-veiled-dread]

It be like that ig

[macdennisnation]

I watched sunny for the first time at the beginning of my biggest manic episode to date. It was the start of the pandemic, I had just moved into a new apartment, and I locked myself in my room, sat on my mattress on the floor and watched the entire thing in a matter of weeks.

I then proceeded to make a lot of bad choices of the sex, drugs, and rock ‘n’ roll variety. But through it all (for better or worse) those characters were there with me, and for me.

I recently rewatched it all for the first time since then. Years later, now that I’ve gotten the treatment I needed. It’s still the same show, but I’m a different person watching it in a lot of ways. I did questionable things when I was manic. I wasn’t always a good person, and I’m still not sometimes.

The sunny gang are bad people and the show can be quite problematic there’s no denying, but they held up a mirror to a part of myself that will always be there beneath the surface. And in a lot of ways, they saved me. So I guess this is a very long thank you. And a reminder to lean on people and things (fictional or not) that make you feel safe & sane in a life, a world, that is anything but.

[thesearelilydreams]

30 de Agosto

Me pergunto o que há de errado comigo.

O

Que

Eu

Sou?

Quando amo, amo demais.

Quando odeio, odeio demais.

Quando sinto medo, nem cogito o desafio.

E quando estou triste, parece que estou à beira de um precipício.

Ei, o que há de errado comigo?

Transtorno bipolar.

Dizem que, quando se dá nome às coisas,

tudo fica mais leve.

Mas a bipolaridade sempre deixou tudo tão pesado…

a f u n d a n d o . . .

[pull-droned]

i want to be able to see you again without feeling all the pain