#dysgraphia

[redd956]

One thing I am unashamed of as a writer is my many typos. I've gone to college for English and other degrees, and when I buy a book from the store I don't expect typos and errors, but I'm not writing for fancy publishers right now (plus it's the editors job to fix writing errors)

I'm writing for myself and the handful of people who dare read what I've written. Plus there's nothing in my way from going back and fixing the occasional stray typo and hitting submit/post again

[durantplushie]

Can’t tell if I have dysgraphia or if the American education system just failed me

[hotcloroxenema]

shivering panic attack out of nowhere. it would probably help if i could cry but it's simply not something that i'm able to do. in the last ten years i've maybe cried three times - once under an onslaught of confusion from my abusive ex, once when my cat died and once when my mother used christmas morning to put me on trial for being a recovering suicidal person struggling with the sensory overwhelm of the holidays*.

i sure as hell don't cry now.

i found out today that i very likely have dysgraphia and/or dyspraxia which unlocked a chain of traumatic memories. i'm very clumsy and have struggled with fine motor movements (especially handwriting) for my whole life particularly as a child and to this day i will do anything to avoid writing by hand if i possible. i also can't chop vegetables or use tools to save my life which resulted in a lot of embarrassment and social sanctioning on theatre sets in college.

i had just thought i was a stupid failure. apparently i'm more than that. i'm a stupid disabled failure.

this is really common in people who have adhd (diagnosed) and autism (waiting on an assessment) but instead of seeing their child as someone who needed help my parents took this as another cue to mentally emotionally and physically abuse and shame me for struggling with what was clearly a disability.

i'm sure if i had a time machine someone else would have killed hitler with theirs. i would go back in time and pressgang my parents into therapy if i couldn't convince the stupid fucks to use a condom.

great now i'm thinking about them fucking. as if i didn't see my father naked enough growing up. god i hate him.

*(i got hospitalized again two months later and she wouldn't even talk to me on the phone while i was on the psych ward.)

[thedysinthegraphic]

The last post was in mid May so I'm not sure if this blog is still active, but if it is can I please submit Ralsei from deltarune? :3

Ralsei from Deltarune has Dysgraphia!

[thedysinthegraphic]

Weird and not very common ball knowledge but Pleskit from Sixth Grade Alien? (Not the live action TV show, the books)

Pleskit from Sixth Grade Alien has Dysgraphia!

[pride-stars]

Dysgraphia : a neurological condition affecting a combination of motor and information-processing skills used in writing. People with the condition have difficulty with both the physical aspect of writing and the thought processes associated with expressing things in writing. Many people with dysgraphia are able to write, but the exercise requires a lot of concentration and effort, and the results may be hard to read. [Source Link]

[tenantoftheorpheumcircuit]

I wish they did cute digital templates w matching physical envelopes so I could write fancy letters for my friends on nice letter paper to go with gifts without having to handwrite and then get to put it in a matching envelope !

[sleepyiestvampire]

Update

I was going to post a week ago but then I didn't due to not feeling like going through the effort.

But I kinda want to talk about this, so I will

Earlier Today I questioned my mom over the fact that she keeps me homebound even when I can physically go out and for my mental health I should go out more. We ended up discussing a lot of important things. One of which Tetora even helped me open up about(I am very grateful for his support). And then we talked about why I don't even go to school like I used to, yes for some time I did attend normal school. And then my mom commented one reason that I did NOT know about myself, that in a public school no teacher could actually help me(both because of time and many students present to actually focus on my special needs) is that; I have dysgraphia. I thought it was just I didn't know how to write FOR YEARS. But it makes sense, and my mom did say I have all symptoms, and looking it up.. yeah I do. I can write on my phone or in a keyboard but if I use a pen and go write physically, my hand hurts, I feel exhausted, and my letter goes all ways, sometimes on top of eachother, some bigger than others

So new thing I know about myself, cool ig 👍 not cool I have a disorder, but cool that I now know, and can explain better