I went to the WB studios today and I feel so bad :(
Me and my friends knew it all when we booked the tickets but now we're in the car on the way back and yeah we had fun but now I just feel bad and I don't know what to do with that
How do we deal with that guilt?
can i be blunt with you in a way i normally am not? i don't care. i just,, sorry that you're the one that gets the reply lol but i get So Many asks like this of people buying merch or seeing CC or going to the studios etc and then feeling bad and just. i never know how to respond??
idk what you want me to say here. every time i get an ask like this it feels like people just want to be absolved. it feels like people want me to turn around and go "nooo don't worry !!! i know you didn't mean any harm !! you aren't a bad person !!! don't worry, i forgive you <333"
and it's not that i necessarily think you're a bad person or meant to cause harm. but you're coming to a trans person who is so very vocal about this, who is so vocal about the ways in which he himself experiences that harm, and you're saying that you Knew and chose to do it anyway, and now,,, what role do i play lol. the absolutionary?? what role do i play here other than a sponge being used to soak up guilt that isn't mine???
what do you do with that guilt? feel it. and i mean that in the nicest way possible. feel it. you say here that you Knew and you still went and did it, then feel that guilt. that guilt can do you some good in the long run. that guilt is what allows us to grow and change as people. there's a certain amount of guilt that makes us better. there's a certain amount of guilt in this fandom space that makes us more receptive to these kinds of discussions, that make us more open and aware, and make us Better.
but this isn't my guilt to absolve. you'll find the comfort you want through making sure your actions match your morals. you'll find the comfort you want by making sure you don't do it again if it makes you feel bad.
you'll find that comfort anywhere other than here, with me. and i'm sorry if that's not the reply you want and i'm sorry that you get this and not the many other people leaving asks like this but. idk what you want me to say. thanks i guess?? for feeling bad?? lol