#ocd rant

[antler-the-archivist]

Having moral OCD and making an actual genuine mistake, or reflecting back on your actions and having actual legitimate regrets, is like handing yourself a loaded gun and convincing yourself you’re a bad person if you don’t pull the trigger.

[sylveriasarcana]

you're not alone. i promise.

but if you're in the OCD tag looking for reassurance or chasing a compulsion, I'm gonna need you to put your phone down. go on, put it down. and i want you to say out loud,

"Maybe the thoughts are right. Maybe they're not. Either way, I will be okay."

that's all you have to do. no more googling or tag searching, you've given OCD all the attention it deserves. you can go do something else now.

the monster in your head isn't in control. you are. good luck ❤️

[cinnamonswirrll]

me rn I genuinely cannot cope

[eight-littlenightmares]

sometimes i gaslight myself into thinking that my ocd isn't bad but then i remember my six month long mental breakdown last year and how it made me passively suicidal for a while and how now i'm constantly sick and i'm pretty sure it's from the aforementioned six month long mental breakdown and how i genuinely try to find opportunities to get myself kidnapped somehow and how i can't perform one single action without like 20 compulsions and how if i spiral it gets to the point where i can't tell if i'm feeling physical pain or just guilt and how when i feel guilty i can logically know it's ridiculous but it still STICKS and feeling guilty is actual paralysis to me like i can't do anything and feeling happy or having fun immediately brings the guilt back for some reason and there's nothing i can do to escape this ever so i regularly walk around random places in the woods and along roads by myself hoping that i'll get snatched by some cannibal in a van or something.

..maybe i should go to bed

[elliethecat]

Who knew people you follow talking about stuff that may or may not be related to you could be so nerve-wracking

This post is most likely not about whoever is reading this dw

[k1ttygam3r]

How it feels seeing your thoughts and comfort in a piece of media be invalidated by a group of people you don’t even fucking know

[disgrac333]

im so normal about everything

[abs-blabs]

Ok I need to rant so if you’d like to scroll you can if not thank you for reading my muddled thoughts, I just need to get this out of my head.

TW!! Mentions of OCD and its physical effects as well as intrusive thoughts and mention of blood

So, I have mild OCD that is kept pretty regulated through my mental health medication. At its most basic level OCD is just a very particular type of anxiety (but that’s a very broad description of it). OCD looks different for everyone, but again it’s pretty mild for me.

I’ve been ON ONE recently (if you know what I mean), and all of these things that are bothering me, or are the sole reason for my intrusive thoughts are body related. Recently for me it’s all been teeth/mouth related especially. Although I know what I’m doing is unhygienic or just plainly not good, I do it anyway because I can’t stop the way that this disorder affects me. The only thing that finally stops me is the thought that I could end up permanently hurting myself or making myself bleed.

I obviously won’t go into detail but, if you take away anything from this post, remember that people who struggle with OCD not only struggle with the mental effects, but the physical effects as well. Luckily I have a very understanding family that is very supportive, and very open to talking with me about what I’m feeling. Ok that’s all, sending anyone who read this all the love in the world :p