#persistent drive for autonomy

[surrah698]

[willwantsyouthrights]

having pda profile autism as a kid is so hard because i have “I need to have autonomy at all times or I will cry” disorder but I’m part of a group of people that literally has no autonomy and is legally seen as property

[my-autism-adhd-blog]

10 Signs of 'Pathological Demand Avoidance (AKA Persistent Drive for Autonomy)

Neurodivergent_lou

[autism-affirmations]

[sex-hiccups]

I hate that any expectation, merely even perceived expectation, overwhelms me to the point I shut down.

I'm capable. These things aren't inherently difficult for me. They can even be enjoyable. Things that I want to do. But expectation automatically makes me feel so panicked and it's so fucking stupid. Why do I want to cry because my mom sends me videos to watch, or because my own body is asking me to eat?

I wish I could powerwash my brain and rinse away whatever is responsible for making me feel like this all the time. Demand avoidance is hell. And I feel like it makes me such a negative person to have to deal with. How can anyone possibly depend on me when even suggesting I do something makes me shut down?

I'm never not disappointed with myself.

[mary-maud]

Gunilla Gerland, A Real Person

[catgirl-kaiju]

i hate experiencing PDA whenever people suggest media for me to experience. like, i care about you and want to experience the things you enjoy and want me to enjoy. i want to open up my mind to new experiences and talk about your favorite show with you. unfortunately, my brain is a fan of interpreting things that aren't demands as demands, and then doing everything in its power to justify avoiding those demands. so, i'll probably het aroundto watching it next year.

[vampirepuppyboyfag]

having pda is so aggravating because it just sounds like you're being pedantic

"oh sorry i can't do that because you told me to do it"

what

"hey you gave me instructions and now im irrationally angry at you"

okay ??

why does this happen to me