CW for RAMCOA, hallucinations, flashbacks
I get auditory hallucinations. I can’t hear. People cofronting with me can make the connection to our residual hearing better than I can, but that’s not what it is. It sounds like it’s coming from outside. People yelling, screaming, calling our names. Sometimes my own name, but that’s always whispered. It’s mostly PTSD, snippets I or a system member heard before.
I’ve been hearing the angels and demons (also headmates). That’s most of how I communicate with people from those layers. I think it comes from my training, to view programmers as gods and headmates as spirits. I like them better than the flashbacks.
I don’t know what to make of it. I know it’s not external because I physically couldn’t pick it up. I don’t remember if it was always like this, but it feels normal.
Diversity of experience I suppose. Hearing voices as a Deaf girl is strange in concept, but I only want to change the trauma bits. The rest… well, maybe I can teach the others to sign.