#tw system vent

[drunkencombatmedic]

i hate cptsd i hate cptsd i hate cptsd why am i the holder of everything why am i the only guy that has 2 deal with all this why do they force me 2 front whenever they get triggered – 🌀

[zamvza]

Hey vox. Bud. Yk what's not cool. (Read TWs..?)

Yk what's not fuckin cool. Goin on to syscringe to ask for help on how to make "imaginary" alters disappear. Makin ur cohost cry bc he doesnt know if he's real or not. Makin us out to be some cringe little trend followy thing insteada ppl who help ya with ur life.

[the1andonly-adrienbillcipherfan]

Hello.

Tw unreality. Read the tags before you look at the rest of the post. If you wish to be untagged I'll untag you.

Poetry. @buggz-owlz @literallylink--who-tf-is-ravioli. Please don't look at the rest of the post without reading tags.

You have been warned.

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Welcome back, Adrien! How was the hospital visit? Don't get me started! They didn't even care! They let me bleed in a bed for hours! They had to give me more blood because I almost died! Ah. Well, you know how they are..getting laid off and underpaid. I know. I know. They are just trying to survive. You've told me a thousand times. But.. I just.. feel like myself anymore, I just..feel l̙͖̑̾ͣỉ͔͖̜͌ḳ̯͍̑ͦẹ̿͋̒̕ I̍̅̀̎̊'ḿ̬̏ͤͅ ḑ̴̞͛̒ẹ̿͋̒̕ā̤̓̍͘ḑ̴̞͛̒ ā̤̓̍͘ṇ̤͛̒̍ḑ̴̞͛̒ r̴̨̦͕̝o̯̱̊͊͢t̲̂̓ͩ̑t̲̂̓ͩ̑ỉ͔͖̜͌ṇ̤͛̒̍ĝ̽̓̀̓̓̀. WE ROT. WE ROT. WE ROT. WE ROT. WE ROT. WE ROT. WE ROT. WE ROT. We rotted long ago. Adrien? Wake up! WAKE UP! ADRIEN- HA. HA. HA. HA. YOU ACTUALLY THINK THAT'S THE NAME I BEHOLD? YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW ME! I AM NOT YOUR PRECIOUS ADRIEN. HELL, I HATE YOU! THIS MORTAL HAS BEEN NOTHING MORE THAN A MEATY COSTUME. HE DIED LONG AGO. BUT YOU NEVER NOTICED. Adrien, snap out of it, you're having another episode- ALWAYS PASSED ME OFF AS ANOTHER ISSUE WITH HIS MENTAL HEALTH! HA. HA. HE ISN'T ALIVE ANYMORE, HE NEVER WAS. YOU ONLY KNEW A LIE. ADRIEN NEVER LIVED AND NEVER DIED. HE'S IN PURGATORY. HE HAS BEEN THERE SINCE THE BEGINNIN- ADRIEN! ...Huh?

[your-pal-nebula]

TW plural vent

(Everyone just went dormant out nowhere and I don't like it)

How the fuck am I supposed to write fanfic if the characters from it aren't there to help me and how the fuck am I gonna emotionally process anything without my emotional support vampire and how the fuck am I supposed to be safe without Invisi-Bill being there to protect me

Sure I can deal with one or two going dormant but WHY DID EVERYONE JUST SUDDENLY GO DEAD SILENT WHY IS MY HEAD SO EMPTY THIS IS LONELY AS HELL EVERYONE COME BACK WHERE DID YOU ALL GO HOW DID I SURVIVE LIKE THIS FOR YEARS. HOW DOES LITERALLY ANYONE SURVIVE LIKE THIS HOW DO SINGLETS DO THIS I FEEL LIKE I'M NAKED AND TERRIFIED IN A GIANT SHADOWY FOREST

[videost4r]

I'm genuinely exhausted. Dunno why people expect me to just be okay after blatantly being told I remind them of shitty people they've dealt with I'm just gonna try and get some sleep and hope for the better in the morning.

[videost4r]

Genuinely trying to cope with the fact we feel like a useless pos to everyone around us. It sounds dramatic or has a lesser meaning because I bring it up so fucking much but genuinely I'm at a crossroads. I want to be able to make everyone around me happy, to be something they can rely on if need be, but lately, I feel like we've been failing at even that. We feel so irritated and heavy. Not psychically but mentally and emotionally. Like something or someone put a weight on us that we don't know how to get off. I feel so pathetic whenever I do this because it's not anyone else's problem but mine that I feel this way. I hate it when people tell me what I can and can't be. I hate feeling like I'm alone in a room full of people. I hate feeling like I'm the odd one out. I hate being sensitive. I hate feelings. I hate my brain. I hate my thoughts. I hate all of it. If I could tear them out of me, I would. I miss people I shouldn't. I want them back. It's supposed to be a fun week, yet I'm already dreading it. I feel like a dog. An object to be used and discarded the moment we're deemed unusable and too broken to play with anymore. We don't know how to communicate properly but when we do suddenly we're a freak or a monster or the fucking problem. But I guess we're not important to do that. I'm genuinely on the verge of just saying fuck it and putting us out of our misery because clearly we're nothing but a problem to everyone and everything. We feel like a freak everywhere we go, and sure, we'll joke and call ourselves one, but it's just us coping with the fact that we feel like the odd one out. I feel so jealous, envious? Whenever someone is happy and I know that they're happy not because of the happiness themselves, it's just why can't it ever be like that with me? I feel like a jealous freak. I take things too close to my heart, and I don't know how to cope with it. We feel like we genuinely have to fight for everything we have and keep it close because the moment we turn our backs, they might leave, and we get so scared. When we're scared we get irritable and distant we do things we don't mean all because we don't know how to do anything fucking right. I don't know anymore.

[zamvza]

How to account for his rise to the top ?

Maaaan.

The man is non-stop.