University and Fucking hating my Life because of it
I've started smoking CBD cigarettes more especially after school cause I'm like, love hate relationship with school where I love and I'm proud of my work but also school makes me feel awful about my life 24/7 so I wanna Leav e
I blame school a lot for failed relationships (2 and counting) and failing to maintain friendships cause there's not enough time to travel and hangout
I blame school for being really unhappy everyday because I can't do things I want to do or things that I think would be fun. Or I'd have to hold off on trips or desires because I have assignments due and 7am mornings to wake up to.
I blame school for making me feel like I'm boring, silent, invisible, because I can't put out my art or work on artistic projects I really really want to put my heart into (playing instruments, poetry, paintings)Â
I blame school for making me conform into a reality of institutions and structures I never wanted to be apart of.Â
I blame school for my insecurity, my problems, my mental health, my heartbreaking everytime I recognize I'm not doing what I wanted to be doing at this age.Â
"Am I even punk anymore?"
















