"Beautiful Chaos"

Hello, my name is Torrey. I suffer from severe OCD and Binge Eating disorder which causes me depression. My journey to a happier and healthier life with out constantly having an addiction take over your life. This isn't for anyone's entertainment maybe to help someone whose going through the same pain I am suffering from

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Time to start my life over somewhere else.

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Left with my Broken Wing.

Chaos strikes. The adrenaline that runs through your body feeling no pain. The fearlessness in the eye. Anxiety boiled to its max. Scratched through the flesh. Broken. Just, Broken.

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Multiple week binge. Broke. Depressed. Fat. Breaking out.

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The Unraveling.

The past Month I’ve let myself go again.. It’s crazy to see that I always seem to vent to tumblr. I’ve totally lost who I am. I've done things I'm not proud of, I've acted out on people who didn't deserve it, I've let things get in the way of my work ethic, I've lost the drive to get enrolled in school, I was spending money mindlessly.. Mindlessly spending money on a drug that took over my life for so many years! Crazy to think that something that's not a drug and be an addicting drug. What have I don't to myself, my puzzle has so many pieces and I just need to start putting it back together..

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Don't ever let anyone take your innocence. Don't ever compromise your feelings for someone else. Don't ever forget who you are deep down.

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I've let myself go

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If he wants you, he'll come find you.

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You wonder if it's meant to be or not?

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Feeling alone. My brain went to an old habit and I'm hating myself for it at the moment.

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Finally down 60lbs.

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I can't believe I just binged 4 pieces of pizza. The thought of being angry at two people that are suppose to be the ones that love me most caused me to break. I was 4 months strong.

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I fell into a burning ring of FIRE, I went down Down down, and the flames got higher. -Johnny Cash

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Ask me. Been through a lot in life. I give great advice:)

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Love is something we all want to experience, But how can one experience it if they don't even love them self.

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Unexpected Panic Attack🌪

Who goes to a party and has a panic attack? This girl🙄😒😟 Everything was fine until everyone was really loud, and you couldn't hear the tv. There was a lot of people in a little area. There wasn't enough room for comfortable seating. There was a few people that were being a little bit on the bitchy side and just getting under my skin. It was weird. I couldn't feel the anxiety build strongly but I could feel the tension. I began to feel sick. As if I needed to go to sleep. My head was tight. My stomach was hurting. I was breathing heavier. But I didn't realize I was feeling anxiety. My mom and I went outside and I just started crying. Having a panic attack on the inside. I just burst.