g.a.a.

Come inside to my little neurotic mind

[venusplutoangels]

Hey guys, I'm back <3. I'm writing this as a response to my poem Fireplay. I've had a healing girl summer where I'm working the 12 Steps in Love Addicts Anonymous. I've made a lot of realizations about my past romantic patterns of using toxic connections that I used to self-destruct with. This time around, I'm taking my power back and channeling that intensity into my work. I'm finally pouring my intensity into my art instead of pouring it into emotionally unavailable people that I used to seek validation from. If you've ever been told that you're too much or that you are very intense, then my work is so for you <3. I hope you enjoy my new poem and my art journal page ✨️

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"Fireplay", 2022

Reposting because this time I added some artwork

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3 years later and I'm making a sequel to this poem

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Having to alchemize my love addiction into poetry so I won't relapse

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Making a poem inspired by Sylvia Plath's poem "Conversation Among The Ruins"

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Where the writing happens

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its open wounds wednesday dont forget to bleed out

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"Fireplay", 2022

Reposting because this time I added some artwork

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TW; mentions of abuse

I'm back with a poem after abandoning writing for a long time. I've been in EMDR therapy for my C-PTSD and it has been very eye-opening but also very painful. My inner child cries everyday about the things that I've gone through. Every time she feels pain I picture her crying like how I used to when I was little. I feel sad when I look at pictures of her. I hope to smile one day when I see a picture of her. I also hope to help her soothe every time that she's banging on the glass case that I have her trapped inside of in my body. I pray to find love that is pure. I pray one day to make my inner child feel loved. I've abandoned her for too long and I can't keep doing that to her, and that's why I've been hurting so much on the inside. I'm trying to be kind to myself now. I hope that you can be kind to yourself too. Much love, G <3

[venusplutoangels]

I wrote this about a time in my life when I looked for comfort in the torment of a toxic relationship. Something that only makes sense when you're in a trauma bond.

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About me

My name is Grace and I am a 26 year old poet. I like to write about topics that people are too uncomfortable to talk about. Writing is a release and I first gravitated towards this creative outlet at a very low point in my life. I struggle with mental illness and am currently healing while using writing as a healing tool. I am based in Miami and come from a Dominican family. I would love to one day become formally trained in writing in an academic setting. This is my space to write for those who are hurting, like me. 

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Update: I am now 27

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Sometimes I feel like a fatherless child

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I’ve been wanting to paint this in the style of Tracey Emin for years and I finally drew it on my iPad on procreate. I can’t wait until I’m able to paint this on a canvas. This is about how I’ve only ever felt pretty while having my trauma re-enacted through rough and degrading sex with a partner who did not give a fuck about my well-being. I broke my own heart each time that I recreated my sexual abuse but I also laid it out on a silver platter for the predator to devour it as well. This was a partnered effort that made me feel at home during the act and torn with shame and self disgust afterwards. This piece is the visual representation of sex used as self harm. I know that many victims of csa/sa who have acted out in both sexual and self destructive ways because of what we suffered before. I make this art for many survivors who can relate but also for the survivors who have too much shame to speak out about it. The world has shunned us enough for something that was out of our control so please have compassion and grace towards yourself. Love, Grace <3

[venusplutoangels]

"Fireplay", 2022

Reposting because this time I added some artwork

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richard siken also just published two new poems—sidewalk and metonymy—and i recommend reading them in that order, the end of one seems to start the other. if we’re getting sequences out of mr siken this may be the end of me i fear

[weltenwellen]

Cathy Park Hong, from "Spring and All"

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An excerpt from my poem..

g.a.a.

TW; mentions of abuse I'm back with a poem after abandoning writing for a long time. I've been in EMDR therapy for my C-PTSD and it has

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Rainer Maria Rilke, Rilke’s Book of Hours

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May Sarton, Journal of a Solitude