WrenH

[cloudabserk]

i propose a new day of the week called hollanov thursday

[penandinkprincess]

3 pm: god, I'm EXHAUSTED. going to bed early for SURE.

midnight: I Have Literally Never Been More Awake And Alert

[penandinkprincess]

no, but i actually do love that ilya was fully trying to listen and understand shane's plan

because man was OUT and now he's suddenly awake and there's a fucking LAMP TURNED ON (maximum rude) and SO MUCH english is happening at him so fast before his eyes are even fully open, and he STILL is trying so hard to listen and understand what shane is getting at here

like he would totally have been within his rights and understandable to go, "please just save this until morning, okay? let me go back to sleep."

but no

if shane thinks this is important enough to do right now, then ilya will hear him out (as best he can when he's getting hit with a ten year plan in the middle of a rem cycle)

[chemdoodles]

I'm late, but I wanted to draw this so...

Happy Birthday, Shane Hollander!

[emhatesshakespeare]

shane, fighting tears with all his might: we can figure something else out, okay?

ilya, internally: i would grab the sun with my bare hands and use it to set the entire earth ablaze to keep you warm, no force in the universe could ever hope to get me away from you, i’ve been in love with you since we were teenagers and you would have to kill me to get me to leave

ilya, externally: okay

[brightloveee]

I know we talk a lot about how Ilya turned himself from a ho into a housewife, and how much he loves to be a My Husband guy. "My Husband" this, "My Husband" that, "Have I told you about My Husband Shane Hollander?" And yes. True. Love that.

BUT, do you ever think about how quietly, but equally, chuffed Shane is to be a My Husband guy too?

There are definitely points in Shane's story when he thinks This Fcked Up Thing Between Them will never amount to anything but sex – he doesn't dare even entertain it until the cottage. And there are YEARS in between when Shane is pretty much convinced that in order to have a happy future, he would need to be in a heterosexual relationship. He has a lot of internalized comphet notions that take him trying and failing to date Rose to dismantle. Based on his upbringing and environment, he thinks he NEEDS to be with a woman in order to have a long-term partner that he can be with publicly. Rose is the ONLY person he's ever liked enough to even consider, but he can't even like HER enough for that.

There has to be a period of mourning, after that conversation with Rose, when Shane thinks maybe he WON'T get to have a partner. After all, things with Ilya are FAR from assured at that time.

Meanwhile, he's certified Husband Material. As I've Shaneterpreted before, he's a major Protector and Provider. He's DYING to do Husband Chores for someone. Man the grill. Mow the lawn. Make the fire. Kill the spiders. He's worked so hard, he's built this big cottage, and for what?

He WANTS to share it with someone, and for a while there's a strong possibility that he won't, and he'll never get to have that.

So when it all works out, and he gets to think of himself and Ilya as an "Us," I think he gets a little smile to himself. He's calling the pharmacy like, "Hi, yes, I need to refill a prescription for My Husband." "Hi, is this the lost and found? My Husband lost his earbuds again." "Two tickets, for me and My Husband."

He looks normal. For all the world he's as calm and collected as ever. But internally, he's JUMPING for joy. He gets to have a husband! And it's ILYA!

[hudsonwasian]

someone on twitter said "the way ilya nudges shane to burrow into his shoulder and shane just melts..."

seriously, people need to stop noticing these little details. i can't take it anymore, i feel like i'm going to explode.

[escapepodding]

While homophobia in male sports is the true villain of Heated Rivalry can we all take a minute to appreciate how the boys helped build their own torment nexus? Ilya used the nascent rivalry narrative to get the pre-rookie season shoot to fly the boy he liked over so he could hook up with him, thus building the rivalry up in the media. Shane lets everyone around him think Ilya is an asshole they should all hate as a screen for their situationship.

The ultimate pack it in boys, we were young and made a blunder. Needed a 12 step plan that involved moving country and setting up a whole foundation to undo the Saw trap they helped make for themselves.

[bugslibraryy]

Why aren’t we talking more about the first night they actually got to fall asleep together. The first night at the cottage, warm quiet all alone, a little sunburnt and tired from an afternoon swim in the lake. Sore from sex and kissing, sleepy and shuffling to the big bed together. Shane brushing his teeth she’s half shut already as Ilya strips down for bed, Shane watching him wash his face in the skin, pulling back to let Shane spit his toothpaste when he needs to and maybe it should be a little sealed because they have never ever done this, but it’s not. Ilya pees while Shane takes his supplements and then Ilya brushes his teeth while Shane neatly places his clothes into the hamper.

They fall into bed just in their boxers and Ilya is pulling Shane into his chest, curled close together under covers. They’re both nervous and giddy and excited and so fucking sleepy. Smiling like dorks and yawning into kisses. Feet playing under the blankets and shane is so happy he has to hide his smile in Ilyas neck because it’s embarrassing how pleased he is, Ilya in his bed. His real bed. With him at the cottage and there is no walking about the door just them and being honest and happy and Shane feels like his skin is buzzing. They shuffled cuddle and re adjust until Shane is laid on Ilyas chest, sprawled on top of him with Ilyas fingers slowly tracing up and down his neck. “M not too heavy?” Shane asks and he’s nuzzling his nose against ilyas pulse point. The bed smells like him, he knows they will fuck again in the morning but more than that he knows Ilya will kiss him sweet and slow hand on his jaw and throat until they fall back to sleep after. Knows he’ll get up with him after that, later in the morning, have a coffee with him sat out on the dock and then they will have the whole day to just be. But he asks that just incase, incase sleeping on him like this is too much, overheating Ilya or he’s too heavy on him. Ilya lets out an unhappy gruff and bites gently at the curve of Shane’s cheek “don’ move” he whispers back, words all mixed together.

Pleaseee give me your thoughts on their first night together. Maybe Ilya wakes up and realises they have drifted apart and pulls Shane back to him. Shane gets up to pee and just spends a minute watching Ilya sleep in his bed, settled and sweet boyish face relaxed 🥺😭

[myworldisfictional]

One of my favourite things about Shane and Ilya’s relationship dynamic is how they never really ask each other for anything but end up offering so much willingly. Like they never try to change the other person and love them for who they are. Ilya is continually endeared by Shane’s quirks and when Shane starts to panic, Ilya does his best to calm him down. Shane also never expects Ilya to give up his lifestyle. Like that’s how they accidentally fell into a monogamous relationship. Shane gets so giddy when Ilya tells him that he hasn’t been with anyone since the last time they were together. He knows Ilya was sleeping with other people before and even though he’s internally jealous every time he hears about it, he would never ask Ilya to give that up. Ilya gives up sleeping around because he’s so in love with Shane that he really doesn’t want anyone else.

When Shane comes out to Ilya in Florida he asks if Ilya wants to be more and Ilya says he would never be able to go home, Shane doesn’t ask Ilya to give up his family. He doesn’t ask Ilya to risk it and get into a relationship anyway. He just holds Ilya and takes what Ilya is willing to give. And then, when Ilya comes to realize there’s nothing left for him in Russia and he doesn’t want to go back, he’s the one to offer a more serious relationship. He’s the one to first call them boyfriends and imply that yes now they are officially more (despite them already admitting they love each other).

Even Ilya giving up his life in Boston is something he did because he wanted to. Ilya was the one to say he wanted to possibly switch to a Canadian team. Shane never asked him to do it. But once Ilya brought it up, Shane suggested Ottawa so they could be closer. Their love is never transactional they just want to be close to each other and they love each other for who they are

[omgpostsplease]

Do you want this? Can we let ourselves want this?

(all) heated rivaly gifs

[toutes-les-choses]

the fact that Ilya clearly does not wear shoes in his house (we see him in house slippers) and he even takes them off at Shane’s but when Shane asks Ilya if he should take his shoes off at his house Ilya is like oh no you’re good don’t worry about it this is really chill and I’m very laid back nothing is serious at all I’m Ilya Rozanov, really chill and easy going guy just hang out for a while we can do whatever we want it’s chill don’t worry wear your shoes, why would I care ? I’m chill

[astershollanov]

I’ve not seen anyone talk about this but I just watched an interview that Jacob did a few days ago (CBC) and he talks about the phone call scene and the significance of Moonlight Sonata.

Jacob said he chose Moonlight Sonata because of how beautiful it is and that Shane is hearing the most beautiful thing he can think of: Ilya speaking Russian.

Moonlight Sonata is portraying to us what Shane feels like he is hearing - a deeply melancholic, beautiful song.

[oftirnanog]

I am begging you all to understand what is happening during the Vegas bathroom scene.

the reason shane folds so easily is that he doesn't think he should be upset with ilya in the first place. if he's thinking about it logically—which he is trying very hard to do!—then he thinks ilya is doing the smart thing by staying away. that six months of no contact? the correct move! from Shane's objective perspective. but he's not obejctive about ilya. and he is upset. so then he's also upset with himself for being upset with ilya in the first place. because he thinks he shouldn't be! what the two of them have going on is a very bad idea! and if they talk about it at this point, the conclusion will be that they should stop. so they don't talk. because neither of them can walk away from the other. they are down horrendous and they don't. know. what. to do about it. because they cannot have a relationship. that is what they believe at the core of it. this thing between them is impossible. and yes, they are hurting each other, but they are also hurting themselves. and they know it! but they'll take what they can get! like everyone thinks it's just Shane taking what he can get from ilya, but it works both ways! ilya is also taking what he can get from shane.

I cannot stress this enough—by following shane into that bathroom, ilya. breaks. first. some of you are forgetting about the very specific nature of their situation and how impossible they believe it to be. they literally cannot see an alternative to what they currently have going on. and so the constant push and pull isn't just happening between them, it's happening internally. they are constantly, CONSTANTLY telling themselves to walk away. so when the other pulls back, they're like yeah! smart move, my man, I wish I had the strength! except neither of them can actually maintain that distance because neither of them really does have the strength. they are so catastrophically down bad! they are sick with the wanting. it is killing them. which is how they end up hurting each other and themselves so badly.

[themoonandmyman]

Building voodoo dolls of every journalist and media critic that dismisses Hudson’s performance or wrongly attributes it as ‘wooden’ rather than the masterfully subtle, controlled and authentic portrayal of a low support needs autistic man that it is. But I fear I will run out of pins

[maggi3rob3rtson]

It’s especially crazy considering how many autistic people (me included) feel seen by his performance. It feels grounded and real, especially in these scenes where Shane hasn’t quite caught up socially (the water bottle scene, the tuna melt freak out, the don’t marry svetlana scene). He does this incredible like internal confused freak out that comes across so clearly in his intentional stiffness and flat affect. Hudson plays Shane much more animated in scenes where he’s comfortable and can easily follow what’s going on/when there’s a clear social script, and that makes the shift to the quiet internal confusion so good.

Basically Hudson is amazing. I love him and his yearning bottom eyes

[magicaldreamfox1]

I don't ever want that problem to ever go away.

[hothockey]

hollander. holly. holls. hollzy. hollz. holler. holla. olly. hollerama. hollypocket. holé-holé-holé (MTL chant shane blushes over for variety of reasons). hollball (losing at sewer ball). hollpass (intricate rituals). holl-in-one (shooting five hole). land-down (sniping bar down). hollothy. holo. holly the hauler (carrying that clappable material back on the odd man rush). captain canada. lands. slapper shaner. stick shift (doing that nasty deke backhand to forehand). hollerbackboy. zoolander. blue oleander. landy, yeah. pretty, shanezhka,, lyubimiy, jane, even...