The Nightmare System

☾ dx DID | 22 ☾ ₊˚ ✧ ━━━━━━━━⊱⋆⊰━━━━━━━━ ✧ ✧ HRT: 04/03/25 ✧ ✧ 18+ only and anti-endo

[xnightmaresystem]

The Nightmare System Key !

Below contains links to info about us, alter intros, flags, DNIs and our stances !

About us

General information about us can be found here !

Detailed DNIs and Stances

This is a full, detailed list of people we do not interact with, our stances on topics, debates we will engage with, and warnings about us

Alter Flags

General alter flags Pastel Little Flags Front Bonded Alter Flags Shadow Alter Flags Nonhuman Alter Flags Gender-related Flags for Alters Specific alter role flags (pt1) Requested flags (1)Requested flags (2)Requested flags (3)

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Warnings:

If you are sensitive to alcohol, drunk people, or substance use (specifically weed), we highly recommend you do not read our blog. Quite a few of us drink/smoke, and openly talk about drinking/smoking, as well as making posts while drunk/high.

We also can be quite open about sensitive, or sexual topics. Please read with your own discretion.

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TLDR?

DID system, adult, engaged, poly, we actively drink and smoke, we talk about sensitive topics, anti-endo/pro endos, general dnis, anti-transID, anti radqueer.

[xnightmaresystem]

1 year on testosterone !!

Today is my one year on T, god I don't know how I lived without this stuff before. I'm so incredibly happy with my progress and transition. Hoping for many more years on T ! - 🌙 he/him

[xnightmaresystem]

Hello, So sorry to bother if this has been addressed anywhere.

However I was interested in joining the discord server to further my knowledge about DID and other CDDs to better support my friend who has such a disorder! I noticed the link was invalid, I assume this is due to raiding and stuff but I wanted to ask just in case!

Thank you!

Hey there, the link should still be working ! Here is the discord server: https://discord.gg/qZUvntamUc

[xnightmaresystem]

I'm back ?

Please only read if you are 18+ !

Hey everyone, It's been a while but I'm slowly returning to tumblr. I've started answering my asks at @systemtraumadumping again, but it might take a while to get through them all. A lot has happened. I have been working a LOT. Our system got into online sex work, so for a while we had 2 full time jobs--my data analyst job, and the online sex work. Then, about two months ago, I got let go from my day job. It was a huge hit because I was just about to be able to move out from my abusive and deeply transphobic family's house. So that has been put on hold. Luckily, the sex work/content creation has really pulled through. We made it into the top 500 on the platform we post to, and are in the top 1% of earners on that platform. it makes about 7k a month. It's a HUGE achievement for us, so things are looking up again. I've also been through a lot of friendship and intimacy drama. I found a person named Hazey (on VRC) who I was very sexually compatible with, we became very good friends, it was an amazing outlet, and the first time I'd ever had a healthy sexual dynamic with someone. Well, turns out this person sexually harassed their own cousin when she was 22 and her cousin was 17. Soooo yeah... a deal breaker, to say the least. Then, more recently I met someone named Jaspyr (again, on VRC). Super compatible, very healthy dynamic. That was, until she became very dependent on me and basically treated us like we were in a relationship. I'm extremely aromantic, I've literally had panic attacks over people saying they love me. So I had a talk with her saying I need some space and I'm not comfortable with our dynamic. She said she understood, said she would respect my boundaries, but absolutely nothing changed. Then, one night she wanted to try out something we'd never done before, told me I had "blanket consent" to do whatever I wanted with her etc. I said that won't work for me. It was late, I said she should go to bed, and she seemed upset about that. She got off, but then tried to get back on and BEGGED for us to have sex. I said I didn't think it was a good idea, but she kept begging and begging and begging, then just got into VR even though I was saying no. I had a huge panic attack and was incredibly triggered because me saying no wasn't doing anything. I told her no again, she finally said "ok", said sorry and whatever. But after that, I halted all intimacy because I felt very unsafe with her. And again, the dependency was just as bad as it had always been. I talked to her about these issues like 5 times before I realised she wasn't going to make changes, so I had to. I put distance, we stopped hanging out every single day, I stopped using pet names etc. She ended up crying and having a breakdown when I didn't hang out with her for one day, started doing attention seeking bs like changing her status to morse code saying "sorry", putting herself on red, and tried doing things to force us to interact. I finally had enough of that when she sent me this long google doc saying how she felt about me, how she felt collared by me, like I owned her (that was the sexual dynamic), and then--get this, started saying why she though I liked HER. Me, the aromantic one. She said she thought I liked her because I put our minecraft beds together LOL. She turns 30 this year btw. So yeah, I blocked her, then she's been crying to all of my friends and even other content creators until they all blocked her. Anywayssssss yeah, that's been my life loll. I'm trying to be more active on here again, I do really miss tumblr. I hope all of you are doing well !

-🌙 He/Him

[bonyassfish]

Speaking as a survivor of child sex abuse: the world would be a lot better if yall spent less time talking about the ways in which pedophiles should be punished and more time supporting survivors and preventing abuse

I get it, punishment can feel cathartic. I’ve certainly spent time imagining all the ways in which my own abuser might be punished. But ultimately, him dying, or being jailed, or publicly shamed, isn’t actually going to help me nor will it stop more kids from getting hurt in the future.

I don’t want more prisoners. I want free therapy with trauma informed counselors. I want better sex education for young children that teaches them about consent and body autonomy. And I want a society in which I can openly discuss my trauma, or at least as openly as yall discuss the evils of pedophiles

[bellaswansong]

yeah how come we cant even mention how we were hurt but y'all can bring up pedophilia anytime you want in front of us for no greater purpose than virtue signalling? thus reminding us of what happened daily while we are just trying to vibe. thus compounding the harm we went through. food for thought

[theburntbeanssystem]

Hello everyone!

Currently in development, my boyfriend is coding a website, and app for both apple and android for plurals! (DID, OSDD, UDD). It will be like SP and Octocon, but will have some extra features, and aims to be as inclusive as possible.

The app will be named Mind Nest (or maybe not, we will see later down the line)

I am the project manager for this app, if there are any features anyone would be interested in, comment down below!

Right now, we are creating the database for the app!

[xnightmaresystem]

Sending you love and support during this rough time 🫂

Thank you so much, this means a lot to me 🫂 -🌙

[xnightmaresystem]

So for anyone who knows I just had a breakup with my ex fiancé of 2 years, here’s some updates. Warning there’s talk of verbal abuse and suicide threats.

I’ve fully come to terms with the fact she was abusive. Not only did everyone around me constantly warn of her abuse, but so did my own therapist. That can’t be a coincidence. She was verbally abusive and manipulative. She forced me away from my friends and destroyed what remained of my social life. My friends didn’t feel safe around me because of her, and she actively tried to pit me against my friends. She hurt them all very badly and drove many of them away.

I’m trying to rebuild my social life, but it’s extremely difficult. I’m also trying to both figure out who I am beyond being a caretaker for my ex.

My ex would constantly have violent outbursts of anger, in which “all bets were off” so-to-speak. There wasn’t a thing she would do or say during these episodes. They always began with her subtly hinting she was upset, or vaguely venting about an unknown person. I always knew that person was me, it would make my heart race and I’d be glued to my phone, hoping against hope I wasn’t the one she was venting about. Eventually it always came to light that she was upset at me for some reason.

She thought I was always “interrogating her”, that I “never took her side”, that I was cold. The reality was, I didn’t bend to her every wish and command, and that upset her. And yet, she constantly flipped the table. To her, I was the one forcing her to bend to my will. I was the one verbally abusing her. Towards the end of the relationship, she was telling a mutual friend that I was the abusive partner, and that I was manipulative. It honestly shocked me. It shocked me to hear someone say that, knowing full well the things she’s done to me.

A few days ago, I told her I’d no longer be financially supporting her. I paid for her rent, her food, we paid for PC components, VR headsets, games, all kinds of shit. She was using my information to run her gumroad and PayPal because she claimed she couldn’t use her own information. Then, she blocked me. The last thing I heard of her was that she was telling mutual friends to keep quiet about what she had done to me. She didn’t want her dirty little secret out there. So, Bell, I hope you’re reading this. Here’s just one of your dirty little secrets

You cheated on me, you chronically lied to me, you verbally abused me, blew up on me at least once per month, forced me to be responsible for every single aspect of you (financially, emotionally, your safety and well being), I put my life on pause for you — I spent over 8k on you to make sure you were healthy and as safe as could be. Suicide threat after suicide threat after suicide threat. I’m almost certain I was catfished. There’s no telling at this point what was real and what wasn't. You pushed the boundaries of everyone around you. You’ve traumatised so many people with the horrendous shit you’ve done.

I truly do hope you read this one day and realise the harm you’ve done.

-🌙

[xnightmaresystem]

Something feels like it’s missing from me

I’ve been so unbelievably exhausted these past few days. I have no energy, especially today. I went to the gym yesterday and had to cut it short because I was so exhausted and my chest was tightening. I can’t tell if this is a physical health thing or a mental health thing. Idk if I’m just low on something like iron or sugar, or maybe it’s one of my many mental disorders. Idk but I’d love for it to stop please and thank you

Maybe it’s a combination of both. I’ve been eating so well so I just don’t understand why I feel so low energy and physically ill

-🌙

[xnightmaresystem]

Could you maybe do gods/goddesses and furries alter species flags? :]

I understand if you don't wanna do the gods one lolol

Specific Alter Flag Requests ! pt. 3

These flags are for CDD (complex dissociative disorder) systems ONLY. Do NOT use if you are a "non-disordered system", endogenic, or an endo supporter. Systemhood is part of a mental disorder, not an identity you can adopt.

God/Goddess Alter: An alter who feels that they are a God/Goddess, or God/Goddess-like in some way. This can be in behaviour, sourcing, innerworld appearance, etc.

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Version 2

Furry Alter: An alter who identifies as a furry, or is furry-like in some way. This can be in behaviour, sourcing, innerworld appearance, etc.

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Version 2

Sorry this took so long!!!

[xnightmaresystem]

Specific Alter Flag Requests ! pt. 2

These flags are for CDD (complex dissociative disorder) systems ONLY. Do NOT use if you are a "non-disordered system", endogenic, or an endo supporter. Systemhood is part of a mental disorder, not an identity you can adopt.

Request from: @ameliegirl Doll Alter: An alter who feels that they are a doll, or doll-like in some way. This can be in behaviour, sourcing, innerworld appearance, etc.

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Request from: @justanotherchangeling

Were-Animal Alter: An alter who feels that they are a Were-animal, or were-animal-like in some way. This can be in behaviour, sourcing, innerworld appearance, etc.

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Version 2

[xnightmaresystem]

Life cannot stop hitting us directly in the face, can it ?

Tw: SA

Had to break up with my fiancée on Wednesday because the relationship was bad. I’m hurting so much. We were together for almost 2 years.

Then on Friday one of the people in our system got r@ped by a friend. The guy made her puke and cry and every time she said no he would tell her to shut the fuck up.

I have so many asks piling up on my blog and I feel like a shitty human being for not being able to handle them right now. All I want to do is help people but I can’t even help the people in my own system, and I couldn’t help my ex.

I feel like a massive failure.

-🌙

[jaydens-emojis]

hello ! i love your art , feel free to not answer this because this may not be what your blog is about , but ive always wondered how people with DID - if i read your intro correctly , you have it ?- shift between alters and if theres a power imbalance / jealousy between the host and alters ?

I do not have DID, so I can’t exactly answer this, I’m sorry!

I’m part of the community as my boyfriend is a system, and I myself *do* dissociate, but it is not extreme enough to be DID. The trauma I do have is not considered severe enough for it.

However, if someone who does have DID wants to answer this, be my guest!

[xnightmaresystem]

Hey there, I'm a system and can give my personal input ( : Shifting between alters -- or otherwise known as switching, is caused by external or internal triggers. Triggers can be negative, positive, or neutral. A trigger can range from a stressful experience, a song playing on the radio, a certain smell, or even internal communication between alters that results in a switch. Switches can also be induced by gatekeepers. Not all systems have an alter with this role/capability, but a gatekeeper is an alter who is tasked with managing switches, managing memories, or managing the fronting process/alters in some way. A gatekeeper might pull one alter out of front and put a different alter into front if they feel the second alter can better handle the current situation. Some alters may hold more "power" or "privileges" than others. For example, a gatekeeper would have more "power" than the host alter. Some alters have more control over the system's innerworkings than other alters. Jealousy can absolutely occur within systems. Just because they share a brain, does not mean most alters will like each other, or work well together. Typically before a system has started therapy/healing, there will be a lot of conflict and issues between alters, as there is usually less cooperation and communication without the help of therapy. I hope this info helps explain some of the questions you had !

[xnightmaresystem]

Hai if ur still taking reqs id love a pokemon alter species flag :3

These flags are for CDD (complex dissociative disorder) systems ONLY. Do NOT use if you are a "non-disordered system", endogenic, or an endo supporter. Systemhood is part of a mental disorder, not an identity you can adopt.

Hey, so sorry for the wait, but here are the flags -- hope you like them !

Pokemon Alter: an alter who is introjected from, or feels connected in some way, to Pokemon.

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[xnightmaresystem]

Guys I just made the subreddit r/systemcringeiscringe in direct opposition of r/systemcringe.

So for those who think that subreddit is a despicable, lazy attempt at masking blatant ableism and vitriolic system hatred as “defending the truth”, you now have a place to rant about them, or even to reply to their posts. However, don’t go on any witch-hunts or demean the users there for anything other than their ableism and misinformation, that should be the primary focus of posts !!

Reddit - The heart of the internet

This subreddit is not going to be for endogenic systems, or to promote endo beliefs. This is purely for DID/OSDD systems and to debunk myths/misinformation about these disorders.

[xnightmaresystem]

Hi!! Sorry for interacting, this is just me trying to make sure hdhghg we'll stop interacting if you like!!

We're technically not listed on your DNI, but we don't understand if you want pro-contacts paraphiles to DNI, or all paraphiles.

If this is confusing - contact basically refers to acting on attraction!

We're a harmful paraphile but we're completely anti-contact. We understand that the contact is dangerous both to ourselves and others and we want full recovery.

If you want all paraphiles to DNI we'll leave!!! /Gen

I’m only against pro-contact, I understand paraphilia is a very broad term (and ofc not all of them are inherently harmful, or specifically harmful to other people). It’s a very distressing thing, and I sympathise heavily for those who struggle with them and want to get better. Although if the paraphilia involves non-consenting parties, or children, I’d rather not hear the details because that’s quite triggering for me. If you’d like to educate me on the subject as well I’d be more than happy to learn more, I’m not very well educated on it

[xnightmaresystem]

Specific Alter Roles (pt.1)

These flags are for CDD (complex dissociative disorder) systems ONLY. Do NOT use if you are a "non-disordered system", endogenic, or an endo supporter. Systemhood is part of a mental disorder, not an identity you can adopt.

Internal Guard: an alter who's role is to guard restricted or hidden areas within the innerworld/headspace, from alters not permitted to enter those areas.

Sleep Inducer: an alter who's role is to induce sleep, or aid the body in getting proper rest. These alters might also deal with chronic fatigue, or may only front during times the body needs sleep.

Nightmare Manager: an alter who's role is to hold or manage memories of nightmares, or is the alter responsible for processing/experiencing the body's nightmares. This alter may also be responsible for interpreting nightmares for the system.

Medical Handler: an alter who's role is to manage any disorders/conditions/disabilities the body may have. This can include seeking out medical treatment, attending appointments, managing medications, tracking/identifying symptoms, logging symptoms, or anything related to managing the disorder/condition.