idk

[blleeerrgg]

How severe does your trauma have to be for you to be able to develop bpd?

I've heard that it varies but is simply more common to be quite bad. I relate a lot but I just don't feel like I have the trauma to back it so I wanted to check

[blleeerrgg]

Is it possible for your trauma to affect you years later?

[blleeerrgg]

Can cocsa influence your intrusive thoughts some years later?

Cause I've only just been thinking like a p×d× for a few months and it all started from one dream I had of a boy who looked about 7-10 curled up on a bed b3×t3n and n×k×d, and I don't know if that's just me being fucked up or if it could have been from something that happened to me.

I'm also just in general really p3rv3rted even tho I don't want to be. I wouldn't label myself hypers3xu4l but it's just there a lot.

I don't want to think these things and I just need to know why I am or could be

[blleeerrgg]

Is it bad that I want friends who are 2-3× older than me?

Like, I've always prefered to be around adults, the only things I don't like is being treated like a child. Like yes, treat me like im younger than you, cause I am, but don't treat me like im a precious like 5 year old who'll mind will break if you make a simple sex joke or if you explain what your talking about too. Like, INCLUDE ME PLEASE. I want a friend, not a babysitter.

[blleeerrgg]

I need a fake id, a bottle of whisky, and a joint, stat!!

[blleeerrgg]

Get me in contact with someone who'll sell me dr×gs and I'll love you forever <3

[blleeerrgg]

A lot of people might say "why would you want to be mentally ill"

Or "why would you want an addiction"

First off, I don't WANT that, I hope I have that because of my issues with validation and inability to handle an unstable view of my life. If suddenly I stop being fucked in the head, I'm going to crash tf out

Secondly, I don't want to think and I need to feel something. I don't care for the consequences, just make me feel good for a short while and I'll be thankful forever

[blleeerrgg]

"But you've barely even v×ped"

Bitch I've wanted ac1d and c1gar3ttes longer than I've even thought about dr1nking, shut the fuck up

[blleeerrgg]

Okay, I need help

Does anyone know how to buy something online if you just have cash and don't want your parents finding out?

It's mostly clothes and makeup I want but I've also been wanting those eyebrow r4zors cause my eyebrows have been out of control lately and if I try with a regular one, knowing my luck I'll shave half of the thing off.

So any advice on how to get past any age restrictions would be appreciated as well :)

I saw someone mention a visa gift card, but I've never seen one irl before and don't know if it actually works

[blleeerrgg]

I lowkey want to tell someone but I just don't think I can

[blleeerrgg]

I'm either running away or k/ll1ng myself by the end of the year

Anyone wanna join! (The running away, the running away, the running away, not the other one)

[emotionalsupporthandgun]

the masculine urge to say “me” whenever i see the most deranged, insecure, selfish, bitchless loser in a show/movie/game

[blleeerrgg]

No need to use my name, just call me verity or even ame if you prefer

[blleeerrgg]

Sorry for immediately victimising myself whenever someone tells me I did something shitty

If I don't do that, I'll just keep thinking about k/lling myself instead

[blleeerrgg]

I'd rather d/e than go back into autopilot

[blleeerrgg]

I can't feel shit without an fp and it's driving me mad

I can feel things very faintly but the second I think, what am I feeling? POOF! THEY'RE GONE! and then the "emotions" I was just experiencing suddenly feel so fake. It's such bull

[pastelcottoncandyunicorn]

i feels like there’s something missing in me that the rest of the world has and it’s not fair