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unsolicited thoughts of a teenage girl

[broimjustagirl]

i physically cannot listen to swim by chase atlantic anymore bc it reminds me of the boy that 15yr old me thought was going to be the loml but ended up being the most performative and insufferable man ever who enraged me over the span of 1 week

#stayawayfromolderguysthatwearquarterzips

[crowwowo]

The moon is different here. He meant he wanted to go home.

The burning god, chapter 30 / chapter 1

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Low key don’t like this but I needed to get this idea out of my head :,)

[broimjustagirl]

greg heffley is literally a holden caulfield variant no i will not be answering more questions

[broimjustagirl]

why is rin so whos afraid of little old me coded

[themostdivinething]

when hozier said "the only heaven i'll be sent to is when i'm alone with you" and when halsey said "i know i've only felt religion when i've lied with you" and when sappho said "in the crooks of your body i find my religion" and then when rf kuang said "she's the only divine thing he ever believed in"

[polartss]

hey poppy war fandom,,,,,,, I’m here to serve you some pain

[nartml]

"Mommmm, Altan's haunting the narrative againnnn!"

[broimjustagirl]

rip rin you wouldve loved my boy only breaks his favourite toys

[broimjustagirl]

rip rinezha you wouldve loved apocalypse by cas

[sabraneadaz]

"We may be small, and we may be young, but we will shake the world for our beliefs."

- Truyde utt Zeedeur, The Priory of the Orange Tree, Samantha Shannon

[broimjustagirl]

I CANT BE THE ONLY ONE WHO SAW THIS. IM CRYING. UGH (posted by sokka and Zuko's new actors in the new atla live action show, on Instagram) (@zoethepony omg look at this)

😃...🏃...😭😭😭

[broimjustagirl]

OK BUT WHAT IF THE GAANG CHOOSES TO GO TO THE SPIRT WORLD AFTER THEY ALL DIE AND TOPH IS FINALLY ABLE TO SEE HER FRIENDS?

[ijustgothereimnewhi]

toph:you are very beatiful katara

[broimjustagirl]

STOP-I CANT DO THIS RIGHT NOW

[broimjustagirl]

OK BUT WHAT IF THE GAANG CHOOSES TO GO TO THE SPIRIT WORLD AFTER THEY ALL DIE AND TOPH IS FINALLY ABLE TO SEE HER FRIENDS?

[broimjustagirl]

OMG SO I SUDDENLY REMEMBERED THIS

A FEW WEEKS OR DAYS AGO MY DAD AND I WERE WATCHING SEASON ONE OF AVATAR THE LAST AIRBENDER BECAUSE I WAS TRYING TO CONVINCE HIM THAT IT WAS AND ALWAYS WILL BE A CINEMATIC MASTERPIECE AND THAT HE SHOULD WATCH IT AND WE GOT TO LIKE EPISODE THREE WHERE MOMO APPEARED AT THE SOUTHERN AIR TEMPLE AND AS MOMO WAS CREEPING OUT OF THE SHADOWS AND SOKKA WAS LIKE MEAT, MY SPOTIFY MALFUNCTIONED AND BLUEBERRY FAYGO BY LIL MOSEY STARTED BLASTING AT FULL SOUND WHILE MOM WAS FREAKING STRUTTING DOWN THE HALLWAY LIKE A RUNWAY MODEL, SO YESSS MOMO!!!!

AND MY DAD LOOKED AT ME AND WAS LIKE WHAT A VULGAR SONG AND I WAS JUST LAUGHING THE HELL OUT OF ME.

[broimjustagirl]

HERE'S THE LINK TO THE SONG BTW: https://sf77-ies-music-va.tiktokcdn.com/obj/tos-useast2a-ve-2774/d5070afa9d19463a9eeb17e21282dbd2

[broimjustagirl]

Hellooooo Fellow Gorgeous Homosapiens!

(If you want to talk/chat with me, feel free to DM me here, because I'm bored as heck and I don't want to do my homework :D ...)

I normally don't talk about things like this but I normally don't talk about anything I post (*nervous sweating*) and since I run this account, I'm going to continue because I'm upset and I need to let it out on my tumblr page (sorry if you were expecting some Audrey Hepburn stuff or Shadow and Bone ranting, that will be reserved for after my freaking library hold is ready to be picked up (*stares into the camera that's obviously there*)

So recently I've been feeling kinda lonely and sad. I've realized my friends are kinda draining, but they're my friends, and I still love them of course, but I've been experiencing social recharges lately and I really don't want to be around them. But obviously, because of my anxiety from confronting people, I don't want to hurt them and I've just decided to sort isolate myself.

(I ALSO HAVE A REALLY GOOD REASON FOR THIS BECAUSE IT'S PISCES MOON SEASON AND AS AN AQUARIUS I NEED TO SELF ISOLATE TO AVOID EMOTIONAL OUTBURSTS) (Yeah, I know, Aquarians aren't supposed to be emotional, too bad, so sad)

(Also don't come at me for believing in astrology. I really don't need it right now, k?)

But I'm a pretty decent person, right? (kinda, I dunno) And I actually do make an effort to improve myself to become the best version, of well, the best version of the Countess of Cats.

Not to mention that the hot weather of 25 degrees celsius (77 degrees fahrenheit) (AMERICANS, I KNOW, IT'S NOT THAT HOT, BUT IT IS FOR MY SENSITIVE BODY, IN FACT, I'M SWEATING RIGHT NOW AT 9 AT NIGHT) hasn't been helping things and I absolutely hate it.

There's also this uh, guy that has been going through some issues in my class and trying to be the best version myself, I sorta talked with him about it and I felt really bad for him because some of his friends haven't been the nicest to him. So I've been trying to let him cheer up with these paper candy things that I learned to make from Youtube, and I've been giving him one each morning. (They look like crap but hey, I've put in effort)

These troubles might seem like nothing to you guys, but Tumblr is a safe space, right? And I really do want to share what I've been going through cause I've felt pretty down lately, and I this is my source of clarity.

Anyway, I hope you beautiful homosapiens get some good rest and sleep, and I hope you guys will have the most beautifully memorable day tomorrow (or today).

Peace out ~ The Countess of Cats

*BTW, this Countess of Cats is Canadian*

[broimjustagirl]

My Rant About Siege and Storm (Spoilers)

(Re-posts/re-blogs are allowed)

*please don't hurt me, I promise I am actually a decent and kind person in real life*

DO NOT READ THIS IF YOU HAVE NOT FINISHED READING 'SIEGE AND STORM'. CONTROVERSIAL OPINIONS INCLUDED, NOT INTENDED TO HURT ANYONE, DO NOT HATE IF YOU DO NOT AGREE WITH ME. THESE ARE JUST PERSONAL OPINIONS. (Book 2 of the Shadow and Bone Trilogy) If you do, do not blame me for spoiling the book. If you have only watched the TV show, you might want to skip this as well, anyways, *cough*, let me begin!

FIRST OF ALL; the beginning from around the start to page 300-ish was literally so boring. Except for Nikolai of course, Nikolai is king. Also, I am not anti-Malina, but come on, some of the scenes made me cringe so hard. You got to admit, some of the Malina scenes were cringy and unoriginal.

Also, why was Mal so insecure about his relationship with Alina? Why doesn't he trust Alina enough to know that she would never cheat on him with Nikolai? (though if I were her, I would 100% choose Nikolai, not gonna lie) Mal obviously feels threatened by Nikolai (why wouldn't he? Not to hate on him) even though Mal and Nikolai's alter persona Sturmhond were literally friends. Mal obviously doesn't trust Alina, which to me is a red flag.

ANOTHER RED FLAG (in my opinion, don't hate) was the fact that he started drinking SO BADLY and STARTED SEEING ZOYA, though I have to admit that he and Alina weren't really a thing at that point, but still.

Alina has also really started to annoy me, starting at the point when she threatened Zoya. Yes, Zoya was rude to her, but why don't you believe Zoya when she said that she lost LITERAL FAMILY because of the Darkling. Why did Alina question her? She could see that Zoya was about to cry, but still decided to throw her off. I sided with Mal when he said that Alina was threatening Zoya and SHE LIKED IT. THE FRICK ALINA?

Alina is powerful, and a great main character, but she's starting to be arrogant. Seriously. (I know I was pretty arrogant as a kid, hell, I thought I was smart when I was 9 because I knew what the word 'vital' meant) But it was obvious that Zoya was super hurt, and though Alina did regret some things she said, why didn't she feel a lot empathy for her, even if Zoya was rude to me, I wouldn't continue to threaten her to leave the only home she has left. Losing family is super painful, and though I'm rude sometimes, I would never be rude someone who had just lost an aunt and a niece in a betrayal of someone she trusted (AKA the toxic Darkling, I LIKED YOU, BUT YOU CROSSED THE LINE DUDE)

Anyway, after those 300 boring pages of the Darkling teleporting like a superhero and being a legit stalker (Except for Nikolai, I love you Nikolai) THE DARKLING FREAKING ATTACKS THE LITTLE PALACE (Yes, I read spoilers about this. Yes, I was still surprised. Yes, I feel the same as when I read the Hunger Games for the first time, it's that painful)

BUT THE THING THAT ANNOYED ME THE MOST WAS WHEN ALINA WAS ALL LIKE:

'oooh Mal, i love you so much, i've always loved, *kiss here*, *kiss your jawline like a weirdo*, i kiss this, i kiss that. i've loved you forever'

AND THEN SHE'S LIKE:

'ooh darkling, let me kiss you and play with your hair, yasssssss. you're my king aleksander.' (WAIT A MINUTE, I'M CONTINUING TO READ THAT PAGE BECAUSE I PUT IT DOWN AFTER SHE KISSED THE DARKLING TO CALM MYSELF, AND WHAT THE FRICK IS HAPPENING. WHY IS THIS BOOK SO CONFUSING)

BUT DAVID HELPING GENYA WAS SO FREAKING SWEET. GENYA IS A LITERAL QUEEN.

I guess I have a problem with literally hating every single main character (Except Percy Jackson, perhaps I'm biased because PJO was the first fandom I was ever part of) like Katniss (She's a little negative and pessimistic no offense) and many protagonists from lesser-known novels. BUT ALINA, YOU GET ON MY NERVES. No offense once again. I can't name all the times she annoyed me, but trust me, there are lots.

AND YES, I STARTED GASPING WHEN NIKOLAI AND ZOYA HAD THEIR FIRST INTERACTION. YES, I KNOW ABOUT ZOYALAI EVEN THOUGH I HAVEN'T EVEN READ RULE OF WOLVES YET. I haven't even read up to the part where Zoyalai is canon, but I've read enough of Nikolai's Grishaverse Fandom Page to know that Zoyalai is literally perfect. Come one, sort of a reckless little idiot and a stern-minded ambitious queen, PERFECT MATCH. OH MY GODS, I'M FANGIRLING OVER A THING I HAVEN'T EVEN READ THAT MUCH OF.

I think Zoya was saying something and Nikolai said something to her during a war meeting and IT WAS SO EXCITING FOR ME EVEN THOUGH THAT WAS THE ONLY INTERACTION THEY HAVE. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.

But whenever the Grishaverse fandom mentions how toxic the Darkling is (I've just realized after reading Siege and Storm and watching the SAB TV show) they're just like:

'Mal is boring and has no personality'. GURL, THAT'S TRUE AT SOME POINTS, MAL INFURIATES ME MOST OF THE TIME, I did ship Darklina at some point, but come on, it's still pretty toxic, but it was good for a short-term relationship, but long-term....eh, nope. I've come to the point where I have to accept the fact that everyone has different opinions, so if you ship Darklina, ship it. But also realize that the Darkling was super toxic, especially when he killed the innocent people of Novokribirsk. Otherwise, I'll read some Darklina wattpad fan-fics on Wattpad. It's nice to be neutral.

Anyways, I've suddenly realized that people are getting bored of my rant because this is so freaking long, thank you for baring with me. I await the toxic and hate comments for my controversial opinions

Countess of Cats

Inferni - OUT!

[broimjustagirl]

Yes, I am obsessed with this cast. Am I sorry? No. (And yes, I did stalk the whole entire cast's Instagram and Twitter accounts)

I can't be the only one who cried while watching Shadow and Bone, right? When that one shot of Ketterdam came in the first episode, the tears streamed down my face, and when Kaz and Inej made their appearance. Though I was very scared when Inej was called by Tante Heleen (Disgusting Rat) because I thought Inej was going to do some things especially because my dad was next to me, and it would get very awkward if anything like that happened.

But THANK GOD Inej was sent to kill that weird 'Grisha-Saver-Thing-Train-Dude'/The Conductor. *Phew*

The Helnik was too much for me. Especially when I know what happened to them in the end of Crooked Kingdom

I'll need therapy for that.

I also cried (Yes. I am an emotional and sensitive person) when Alina finished her performance at the Winter Fete, and everyone was like, "OH MY GOSH, *whisper* Sankta Alina"

And when Inej smiled and said "Sankta Alina" I. LOST. IT.

ALSO, THE CONVERSATIONS BETWEEN INEJ AND KAZ? IT WAS EVEN BETTER THAN I EXPECTED. Kaz low-key called Inej a SAINT, but the Malina made me lean into the Malina ship as I was neutral before and thought that the whole fighting between Darklina and Malina was stupid. "YOU ARE MY TRUE NORTH" - GURL-, I LOST IT. THAT'S SO SWEET.

I disliked Malina a lot because I thought their 'romance' ruined their friendship which was so sweet and strong, which is why I hate 'friends to lovers' tropes, because the friendship is ALWAYS RUINED.

Also, Jesper had a lot of fun, didn't he, eh 😏😏😏

(And yes, I did refer to the Darkling as Prince Caspian while I made comments through out the show, which is probably why my dad stopped watching it with me after episode 2)

ALSO, I read so many Tumblr posts, SO WHEN KAZ AND PRINCE CASPIAN, oh sorry *cough* THE DARKLING MET, AND ALMOST FOUGHT, I WAS LIKE, 'OH MY GOD, I'VE BEEN ON TUMBLR TOO LONG FOR THIS.'

AND WHEN INEJ MADE HER FIRST KILL WITH THAT INFERNI DUDE? ALSO ON TUMBLR. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.

Thank you for baring with me people. Countess of Cats - OUT!

No Mourners.

No Funerals.