Idk Anymore…

I’m going on hiatus from posting until I learn how to make decent art

[cosmicnyxwashere]

This was supposed to be posted for Valentine’s Day, but since I’m going on hiatus, I will post it now.

Just a drawing with my sona and all my f/os.

Below there’s also a version with Y/N for my fellow DCA enjoyers (it’s gender neutral Y/N, so everyone can picture themselves in this drawing and because I hate gendered Y/Ns).

I wish I could’ve posted this in better circumstances, but I still feel like crap even after making that last post and my mental health has been getting worse in general, so I think it’s the best solution to leave for a while and go on hiatus, Idk when I will return, but hopefully when I can finally make decent art that doesn’t make me feel incompetent or like a failure when I look at it.

That’s all, sorry for all this gloominess on a post that’s supposed to be happy…

[cosmicnyxwashere]

TW heavy Vent:

The urge to delete all my socials and quit art school because no matter what I do, it’s never good enough.

“You’re talented” they said, it’s a lie, because everything I created is mediocre at best.

I hate everything I make and even if I somehow manage to become an artist for a living, it won’t matter because ai will replace me and I’ll die under a bridge because I’m too disabled to do other normal jobs.

I don’t know what to do or think anymore.

[cosmicnyxwashere]

Imma post this before going to sleep because I don’t have a schedule for when to post things (I should probably make one but I’m lazy)

This is my DCA sona, Nyx, this sona in particular will be used when shipping myself with the DCAs (or for any other scenario inserting myself with the DCAs)

Below the image there are a few more info about them.

I have an AU for them but right now it’s still a wip, so you’ll only get a few informations about my OCs and the DCAs.

Nyx was designed to be a theater attendant, they’re a cat animatronic (the cat ears are under the hat), they love the Daycare Attendants a lot (ofc) and keep a few trinkets on them, one that represents each of the DCAs (let’s see if you can spot them all), they’re in a poly relationship with the DCAs whom have their own separate bodies at some point, in the AU the DCAs also date each others, so if you ship Sun and Moon (or even Eclipse) together, then you’re in for a treat :3

That’s all for now, I hope I don’t get judged for this ;-;

Edit: changed the ref sheet slightly because I didn’t like it that much.

[cosmicnyxwashere]

Finally finished the animation, sorry if it looks trashy, I haven’t animated in a while and I’m still struggling to use Alight Motion :’)

Also, you get early access to this because I still need to figure out when to post this on YouTube-

And if you’re curious about the AU, you can find the story here.

I guess that’s all, now I’m going to go work on the next part of said AU :3

[cosmicnyxwashere]

Soo, a while back I had a dream where I was dating Moon and decided to draw some of the scenes from that dream with my sona (it was originally with my old one, but I changed it to the current one because yes), but it took me a long time to finish because at some point I forgot about these drawings, so some of them still have the old line art-

Yep, this is very self indulgent…if I don’t get any hate for this then maybe I’ll make more drawings with my sona being shipped with Moon or the other DCAs

[cosmicnyxwashere]

HAPPY NEW YEAR! :D

I’m a bit early, I figured I’d post this at the usual time I post my stuff, since tonight I’ll probably celebrate the new year with my family and won’t be able to post anything during that time.

And to celebrate the new year here I decided to make a lil art piece with my old sona (the one I mostly used this year) and the two DCA AUs I worked on this year :3

It’s a shame that Mechanical Madness only had one part, but I promise that this next year I’ll work on it more (I have something special planned for this AU but I don’t want to spoil the surprise for now).

I also have other projects planned for this next year, but like I said, I don’t want to spoil anything for now-

Anyway, before I conclude this post, I decided to put here the speedpaint for the drawing as well, so enjoy!

[cosmicnyxwashere]

If I had a nickel for every time I started fixating on a video game character that is a humanoid entity, has horrifying abilities/powers and that is also obsessed with the player, I would have two nickels, which isn’t a lot but it’s weird that it happened twice-

Also for context, the guy in the first image is John Doe (from the game “JOHN DOE”) and the other one is Lenny/The Obsessed (from the Minecraft mod “The Obsessed”)

[cosmicnyxwashere]

Not an ask but I just wanna say I really really like your art!! I saw your eclipse blog and loved your style a lot and the other drawings and comics you did

Aww tysm!! It really means a lot to me! ^w^💜

[cityrun]

thinking about my characters nobody knows because i never ever talk about them

[cosmicnyxwashere]

So I came up with this AU while I was half asleep and decided to make some quick doodles for it (with a different style because I hate consistency-)

For now I’m calling this the “Stalker AU” because I can’t think of any other names that work better, the AU revolves around Moon being smitten for Y/N and following them at night, taking pictures (nothing inappropriate dw, even though this doesn’t make it any better), collecting stuff and leaving small gifts, the reason why he resorts to this instead of approaching them like a normal person is because he doesn’t want to scare them off, since he has this reputation as the “big scary Moon robot” that had a virus which made him harm people (the virus is now gone and the Pizzaplex was shut down and abandoned instead of being set on fire like in canon).

I didn’t make any drawings of Sun, but he’s also in the AU, him and Moon are the same person and Sun doesn’t condone what his Moon counterpart is doing but he also has feelings for Y/N (not as intense as Moon’s though), also both them and the other animatronics often leave the Pizzaplex either to explore or find resources to keep themselves functioning, but every time they have to disguise themselves as humans (by covering most of their bodies with clothes) to not get in trouble or scare people away since in this AU all the animatronics don’t have good reputation after what happened with the virus, but Moon has it worse since he was already considered creepy.

So let me know what you think of this AU, if I should expand on it or if I should abandon it, idk, I guess it’s a bit controversial? But at the same time there’s plenty of Yandere AUs so I don’t know if it’s a good idea or not to expand on something like this ;-;

It sounds cool (the concept) but at the same time I don’t want to romanticize it :’/

But if you do think I should do more with this AU then I’ll make more drawings with more informations as well.

[cosmicnyxwashere]

YOUR ART IS SOO CREATIVE I LOVE IT!!

Almost forgot to reply but TYSM!! It really means a lot to me ^o^💜 💕

[cosmicnyxwashere]

Here’s an attempt at drawing my wife (Moon) in my more realistic art style. ;v;

He looks a bit different from the canon design because this is my own version.

I also made a video with the speedpaint since this drawing isn’t like my usual ones \/

[theeclipsedmoonau]

“Testing, testing...is it working…?”

“It is.”

“Hello everyone! It’s so nice to meet you all, my name is Luny and together with my ,*ahem* assistant, Eclipse, are now hosting this ask blog!! We (mostly me) can’t wait to hear your questions! :D

*whispers* “was that good enough for my first post...?”

*mutters* “I guess it was decent.”

[ASK BLOG OPEN!]

(Luny and Eclipse are now available for questions)

[cosmicnyxwashere]

It’s finally here :3

[cosmicnyxwashere]

Since my motivation is coming back in full force I decided to share the ref sheets of the two DCA OCs for my new AU (the one that will have its own blog)

Meet Luny and Eclipse! :D

I don’t know when, but in the following days I’ll announce the new blog, it’s going to be an ask blog so I won’t share many informations about these two, all I’m going to say for now is just DON’T ship them.

Also this isn’t related to TSAMS, while it used to be a Sun and Moon Show AU, I’m no longer part of that fandom and I don’t want my works associated with it anymore.

That’s all, see you soon :>

[cosmicnyxwashere]

You got to give yourself more grace my friend! Sometimes the timing isn't right, our energy is going to surviving, or our passions take us elsewhere, that's ok and normal! You put a lot of work into your au and that's amazing! It still exists and has others who love it too. You did it! You made an au - not making a comic or fanfic doesn't negate that or take it away from you.

Try to unlearn guilt and shame about things that don't cause harm.

You're more than allowed to be sad the

I’m not sure what to write here other than “thank you”, while I still feel a bit guilty about it, reading this helped me feel a bit better and also helped me remember the reason why I started that comic in the first place was for fun and to practice, so I don’t have to finish it immediately (even though that perfectionist part of me is screaming to do it, despite still not feeling like drawing-).

But now that I had some time to think, I decided I’m not going to abandon my comic, once I feel better and motivated again I’m going to continue it, because I hate not keeping my promises, but how long that will take I don’t know, it depends on when my motivation will come back and I won’t try to force it this time.

I’ll leave this here so I can remember this anytime I start feeling like that again and so other people with the same struggle as me can see this message.

Once again, thank you, it might seem like nothing but I really needed to hear/read that ^^💜

[cosmicnyxwashere]

An old drawing + small vent under the drawing.

I was supposed to post this for Mermay but completely forgot about it until now-

The drawing is also about a mer AU that I have and yes, the purple haired person is Neptune :>

I don’t really feel like going into detail about the AU because at this point I’m not even sure I’ll ever draw or write down the story of it, considering that for the past few months I completely lost the will to draw (aside from a few doodles but even then I had to force myself to do it) and sadly that also counts for Mechanical Madness, I feel like all the excitement and motivation is completely gone, which is really a shame because I made so many posts about it and now all you got from it is just a few comic panels…

I really feel ashamed that I can’t bring myself to continue what I started, it’s not the first time it happened and every time I feel like I’ve been making fake promises only to abandon what I started and doing something new…then the cycle repeats.

Maybe I’ll go back to being on hiatus, it depends on how I feel once I get back home, since I’ve been on vacation for these few months.

[cosmicnyxwashere]

Mechanical Madness part 1 is finally here…

I was going to post it on AO3 originally but I gave up because I was THIS close to punching the screen (seriously, how the hell do you even upload images on there?!)

I also had to redo the comic pages several times because my brain kept telling me it wasn’t good enough…

I have so many more things to say, but at this point I’m just mentally exhausted, so just take these pages and enjoy 🥲

Sorry if it’s not good enough, I’ll try to do better for the next part (that hopefully won’t take as long as this one did).