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Halloween spooks 2018

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Refreshed

Hey, everyone! Guess what? Someone's finally back!

A lot has happened over the course of two years that I've been away from this site. I'll try to keep this reintroduction short to give you all guys a run through of what has happened in the past two years or so.

First off, I am now a registered nurse! Finally! After four freaking years of nursing school, I survived and hurdled one of the toughest licensure exams in the country! I spent the whole 2017 and half of 2018 focusing on my studies so much I somehow had to give a pause on my calligraphy career. I haven't written much, conducted a workshop, had commissions, as compared to what I achieved in the year 2016. Speaking of new years, I got to celebrate the unfolding of the year to 2018 at Boracay, Philippines. As always, it never fails to keep me awestruck as to how things go lit by then. But I would very much like to celebrate new years at New York -- yep, it's included in my bucket list!

I felt like the first half of 2018 flew by so fast because of our preparation for the board exam, to be honest. But yeah, a lot of deeply personal things caught up by the months of June, July, and August that I never thought would have happened, I never thought possible. By the time I flood post some stuff from the past, I'll try to explain things as best as I could, I promise.

Right now, I'm taking a break from every stressful thing for a year before the med life takes over me starting August 2019. I'm currently chasing my dreams through art, dance, and adventures I know would be very much limited when the next school year starts.

I hope I could give an update here as much as I did before. We'll see.

Ciao!

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Matcha 💚

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Everything about his brother reminds me of him

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Text Messages I Couldn't Send

How are you? Are you doing fine? What have you been up to?

Those were just some thoughts of mine that I never had the guts to tell you. I couldn't count the times of when I would pick up my phone and type a message and would never reached the end of it. As my fingers hover on the button that would mean a whole bunch of questions and a wide range of confusion, my mind is in a state of chaos of mixed decisions and whatnot. I know I'm not brave enough. My cowardice gets the better of me. I'm nowhere and everywhere in between my own raging thoughts.

I couldn't press send.

And one thing I know that's holding me back is because... I don't have the right to ask how you are, anymore.

When you have someone you once cared about so deeply, you cannot help but think about that person especially in times you least expect those thoughts to pop out. Out of the blue the longing will knock on your door and leave you wondering of the other side.

A part of me kept saying that friends, especially those who have had history together, care. I know I care. I still care and would always care but, I also know it would be awkward on your part as well as for me.

So what do I do? I do nothing. I let those thoughts eat me up all night until I drift off to a peaceful partially suspended consciousness. I wake up and would have gone to one of the three different paths; I would remember, forget, and choose to forget last nights musings.

I guess I will always wonder. I will be left wondering with the same questions inside my head over and over again. But no matter what had happened in the past, what has been happening in your present, I just want to know if you're okay.

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Vitalis Villas: Santorini in the Philippines

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To my greatest what if; my almost,

Remember those times we talked for hours knowing that for ourselves time doesn't really matter when we're spending it on each other? Those times you'd walk me home cause you worry about my safety more than your own? Those were the times. Instead of sulking on my own, I'd like to tranquilly reminisce and thank you. Thank you for the memories. The sweet ones. Where love made me soar up high and gave me the gentle feeling of contentment. Thank you for without you, I wouldn't be the person I am right now. Cliché as it may sound, but still true. I wouldn't be able to know myself better, for the things I truly want I didn't know back then. Thank you because without you I would never know the kind of love that is right for me. You have made me a stronger woman through teaching me how to love and let go. Letting go in a sense that is comforting and easy. I know it was the right way of doing it since letting go is supposed to be that way- with contentment and gentle light. I would laugh when one of the many memories will surface and smile with amusement for you and I were part of it. Our inside jokes and silly banters will remain. The bad habits and the mannerisms we know about each other I will always remember. You have been a part of my life. I could and would never deny that. The memories you left, both the good and bad, is something I would be forever grateful for. You left a great impact in my life for the influence you have and the effect it caused is something I could never truly describe. We crossed the same road together and in the time being, we realized we were headed to a different destination in mind. And if our paths ever cross again, I hope you are happy for the course you have chosen just as I am sure I am, too. I bless you on your journey in life and for the heaven-sent love that awaits you. I may not have been able to give you the true love fit for you but know for sure that life is giving you something bigger than what I am capable of. Many would say that we wasted our time on each other but it was not time wasted for we learned so much more based on the experience. Whoever said that two people who had history together could never be "just friends" have never experienced the kind and degree of friendship we have. Forever grateful, XY

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What a masterpiece

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Christmas letters, post cards, bookmarks, or someone to write on your Holiday giveaways? We got it! 📜 You can also learn calligraphy with us! We'll guide you through your journey! 🖋 Give us a message or contact us! HO HO HO! ☃️🎅🏼

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•A DAY IN MY SISTER’S LIFE•

Yesterday I went to Meoni’s school at UP Diliman since I’m on my semestral break and had nothing to do at her place. I was so excited since it was my first time going with her. I got to sit in on her first class, Economics, which I wasn’t really fond of. (You owe me sis. Big time! 1 hour of my life! Loljk!) I guess it’s because I’m more on the medical type and anything related to that. We went around the campus then later on decided to have lunch at UP Town Center. Sadly, she still had her class at 1 pm and we decided that I’ll be left at the mall to roam around and window shop. It was a nice experience, really. Being left on your own to discover new things… Since I’m more of the artsy one among the two of us, I enjoyed spending my time at Papemelroti buying artsy stuff. I had to satiate my cravings for anything matcha flavored! I went around for matcha ice cream and matcha churros. Heaven.

After long hours of walking around the entire length of the mall, I settled on at the Kit Kat bench which I found nice because I enjoyed watching people and observing them.

Then came her dismissal, and yeah, we were set for home.

-N.

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Sunset and silhouette dreams

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This lovely Korean restaurant, 2 Story Kitchen, is found at Door #65B, 697 Eastblock BLDG. A, Villamonte, Circumferencial Road, Bacolod City, Philippines. The ambiance is very nice and relaxing with dainty details of their own style. I love how every little figure fits into one another, making the place light and refreshing. The lighting is also good, which makes it an A+ for those who want to capture every space and post on their own social media accounts (Haha). It has a very accommodating service with legit Korean songs on the background as well. The food is quite expensive but worth every peso you spend. Their signature spices are not what you encounter in regular Korean restaurants out there. Believe me, my brother and I have been Korean resto-hopping since 2013. So if you want to try out something new in the Korean food department, I suggest you start saving up and enjoy with your happy tummy. Overall, I'd give this experience a 9 out 10 since there is always a room for improvement. What are you waiting for? Go head out and try something new!

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Written in walnut ink.