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vent blog & gooner shit

[d3adtranny]

i think theres mice fucking about in my walls, but their scratches sounds like the sound of cockroaches rustling things and its triggering my fear of cockroaches soooo fucking bad. i just wanna listen to music in my room FUCK OFF

[d3adtranny]

"my child is perfectly fine!!" ma'am your child is dead

[captainvostok-deactivated202607]

claim your badge

[irlangelsdiary]

do you struggle with questioning if it was actually SA or abuse?

if you think it was abuse

it was abuse

if you wonder how someone could violate you like that

it was abuse

if you get uncomfortable flashbacks

you are a victim

if you get triggered by certain people things or phrases related to the event

you are a victim

if you often think about outing your perpetrator

you are a victim

[d3adtranny]

Maybe if i had worn something different she would've listened.

[fadedlilrat]

a comic about not being a person.

-Blurry

(Too tired to make ID)

[d3adtranny]

dysphoria so bad i dont even have it anymore. this rotting tube of flesh simply cannot be contorted into even a mimicry of my shape

[d3adtranny]

I wonder what being able to stay in bed for atleast a few days and my only expectation being 'survive' would do for my mental health lol. ah well, many such fantasies! :)

[d3adtranny]

Sitting in my bed in boy clothes, having not slept a single wink since 7pm yesterday, listening to alt rock on loop, coding a shitty HTML website. this is so gender-affirming

[d3adtranny]

yo i dont think those are xenogenders

also no i fucking wouldn't

[d3adtranny]

art of bill cipher as a pathetic femcel

[d3adtranny]

hey man could you maybe not call ford a zoophile

monsterfuckers and zoophiles are VERY different things

dude the only reason that man wouldn't fuck a regular animal is because that'd be too normal for him hes literally a zoophile in my canon (kin, fictive) thats mainly why i call him one anyways :p and 'monsterfuckers' (teratophiles) and zoophiles are NOT very different things. the only difference is preference. zoophilia is attraction to non-human animals.

--- all the flags in the post im assuming your referring to, were flags that ford is in my canon. thats just what he is, sorry not sorry ^^

[d3adtranny]

Whoops haha i accidentally made the mistake of looking at happy art of me and my source partner! haha!!! i can't take this anymore

[d3adtranny]

*character who's entire drive for plot is being wierd* what if he was WEIRDER!!!

posting this to this blog bcuz idk where else it fits

[d3adtranny]

this body been dead for a long time but one day someone else will take control of it and they'll get to see it live.

[d3adtranny]

I don't know how God thinks, but God, do you love me?

[d3adtranny]

It feels like i, uh, could never be empty. and aren't i lucky? To have so much, and everyone has so little. How i wish to be empty, to belong in a society where everyone is shaped like a brick. Uh, the bricks beckon me, to my place on the wall. They make it so easy. "go to school!" they say. "get a job!" they say. "don't do drugs!" they say. "show up for the holidays!" they say. "make my misery your responsibility." they say. But i am shaped like a star. Cursed with so much depth, that i dont fit in that hole. How can i explain that? If not by making noise and, curating moments that appeal to my.. astigmatic vision. Oh how i wish to be empty! My pinky finger grows numb from trying to find a comfortable position to explain the depths of the star-shaped brick. Oh how i wish, how i wish. To be empty.