My Screaming Into The Void

23 year old trans girlthing she/it pfp by @liliana-teh-sluppy

[exhaustedcatgirl]

Was mentallyexhaustedcatgirl and got banned for ?????

Im honestly not sure

Looking for my moots

[hatie]

[hatie]

[daylights-rain]

puppygirls will be like "I got that dog in me" like. yeah I know. your sister is gonna be stuck there until it deflates

[daylights-rain]

you would know, huh? tumblr user LittleKoboldSister?

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

minor nuisance about being an atheist is when you or a loved one is sick, you can't say "keep us in your prayers." maybe "keep us in your thoughts" is better but it has a major meh factor. the best i can come up with is "KEEP OUR MISERIES IN MIND"

[segamascott]

[supreme-leader-stoat]

This is true but I'm gonna be controversial for a second and say that I feel bad for jocks who get hit with The Injury™️too. The Injury™️ fucking sucks, man. Having something that everyone praised you for when you were young suddenly betray you and having to grapple with both a sudden loss of ability (whether it's something that can be recovered from or not) and figure out what your future looks like now that the one you had imagined for yourself (whether it was actually realistic or not) feels like it's been snatched away is brutal.

[lizardho]

Ok, so, bottom surgery recovery is going ~splendidly~ tbh, I’ve been off opioids basically all week, she’s healing well, she even looks pretty which at under the one-month mark is making me feel pretty optimistic. The only problems it’s giving me are that sometimes if I see something really gross it makes my body feel like it’s trying to suck itself inward from my vagina, like a black hole generated by the power of “ew ew ew,” and that healing is really tiring so I’m like…always sleepy. But tbh most of bottom surgery recovery has been peaceful, I’ve had a lot of time to do some self-reflection (which I hate, doing my own therapy as a patient suuuuuucks), BUT, I do have one funny story:

Right as I wake up there’s a nurse there who hustles over and says he’s glad he saw me wake up and tells me he’s giving me some pain meds and then he gives me IV Fentanyl and so I go from like “Ow ow ow ow awake awake awake” to “ooooooh fuck I’m floating on clouds made of rainbows” in like 6 seconds and so I was pretty out of it. The hospital had all the recently-post op patients all in one big-ass room, and they see patients for ALL sorts of surgeries, so I was next to an old guy who got his knee replaced on one side and some young 30-something dude with some kind of mechanism on his leg. So I asked him what happened since I was high as fuck and feeling kind as a result, and he said he broke his leg hiking off-trail when his leg went down a literal rabbit hole and snapped his shinbone. I say something like “damn dude that blowssssss” while giggling because I’m high as FUCK on actual fentanyl and he’s like “Yeah, for real, I’m feeling great right now though! What about you? What are you in here for?”

And I fully was not thinking like a person, I was thinking like a fentanyl-addled tgirl so I just go “Oh, haha, they cut my dick off!”

And he just kinda stops and is like “Hah-WAIT what? Why?” and I was trying to think of an acceptable answer to tell this cis guy because it’s dawning on me through my drug-induced haze that not everybody wants their penis gone and before I can think of a response two nurses just came up and…wheeled him away. Idk where to, and I don’t think he did either, because he kept looking back at me and frantically asking the nurses where they were taking him and I never gave him an adequate response so he probably thought he was gonna get that “Transgender for Everyone” shit before he was probably actually delivered to whoever his ride home was.

[emeraldspiral]

Fuck yeah! Eat shit!

[lastoneout]

Do you know how much of a vile shithead you have to be to have leftists and liberals cheering at the results of a republican primary??

[sycamorality]

op disabled reblogs but i really wanted this post on my blog again

[sleepystephbot]

Here’s a little gif I made a bit ago I never thought to post. Hopefully it isn’t too bright.

@cyberslutlexi​ = A v. good drone. beep boop! (All credits to her for the original photo I based this off of)

[vsingers]

since when did snapple start dabbling in elemental elixirs

[a-book-of-creatures]

I love how they went for the four classical elements but realized they can’t call a sweet flavored beverage Water

[k1ntsug1-r0b0t-g1rl]

parents are so fucking entitled

[k1ntsug1-r0b0t-g1rl]

parents will throw a fucking tantrum about how you have to respect their views while having disrespected you your entire life for no reason other than believing they had the right to control you

[k1ntsug1-r0b0t-g1rl]

we need youth liberation right fucking now

[tboy-cock]

i think the reason trfs both cite the oppression of trans women as "proof" that trans men aren't oppressed, and get up in arms when trans men talk about the oppression they face for being trans men because "so youre saying that trans women arent oppressed? so you're saying that trans women oppress trans men?" is because they literally somehow came to the conclusion that the existence of one groups oppression means that another groups oppression doesnt exist so they see trans men being oppressed as an effort to invalidate the lived experiences of trans women and not just another marginalized group experiencing oppression completely unrelated to them and their identity

[eggnogo]

first iteration of the creature

[probuccalfat]

why do so many freaks go right to “there should be exams or tests before you have kids” when the real solution is better social services, robust infant and child development education that is accessible both financially and schedule/distance accommodating, and resources throughout any stage of a child’s life. genuine question like did you think about any social development before going straight to eugenics

[anti-parent]

it's especially concerning to me when it's academics advocating for this shit in peer-reviewed journals. everyone get more family abolitionist now

[lastoneout]

It's also because the average person actually believes eugenics is true.

[sex-hiccups]

All I'm saying is that I wasn't supposed to still be here. I didn't think I'd see 21. I was quite sure of it, in fact.

Now, I turn 31 in about a week.

I sing in my car at night to the angsty mixed CDs I made as a teenager, but now with a voice that I can feel rumble in my chest precisely where that heavy feeling used to sit like a bag of concrete.

My beard tickles as it blows in the wind, and my lungs are so full because they are no longer bound.

I sing, and I drive home after kissing someone goodnight who sees every part of all that I am and all I am not and does not flinch.

I go to bed sober.

And everything is not okay. But everything is better.

And I wasn't supposed to be here anymore, after I tried putting myself back in the closet very literally and permanently that October over 10 years ago.

But sometimes belts break. Knots give way.

And now here I am.

Driving and singing, as loud as I can.

Young trans guys, it is absolutely imperative that you stay alive.

Stay alive.

[jumpingwjoy]

mouse-dog kris and their cat sibling theory (half joking but low-key /srs) 🐭🪤