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I realized I never updated! I did the MudRun!!! And it was SO FUN!!! It was also SO HARD!!! I can’t wait to train (starting when I start my new job in a few weeks) for the next!!! I also am getting back on growth hormone and I hope that helps my energy levels. I’m also going to try and calorie count again - with a higher focus on protein and fiber goals than calories.
I’ve decided to sign up for a mud run! I haven’t done one since I was a teenager so I’m excited to get back to it! It’s in August so I have a little over 2 months to train for it. It’s a non-competitive type run which is great for me lol. I plan on starting by walking around my neighborhood (playing Pokémon Go!) 3 nights a week and then adding in various movements to my nightly routines. Plus I’m going to add more movement activities to my class (I’m a toddler teacher) for added incentive! In a few weeks I’ll add some weight/resistance training as well! Could definitely use some motivation!
fatphobia and ableism is so insidious. You can look up like, food, and it'll say "eating a lot of food causes diabetes" and you're like oh dang what? I thought we didn't know the cause of diabetes. So you look up what causes diabetes and it says "we still don't know what causes diabetes" bruh they're just making shit up to give people eating disorders
it’s becoming clearer that “being fat makes you diabetic” is actually misapplied observation and like, backwards cause and effect. insulin resistance is the main factor in type 2 diabetes. it was thought being fat made you insulin resistant. turns out it’s the other way round; insulin resistance causes the body to store fat at a greater rate. like yes, once the weight is gained it can then contribute more to resistance and things can snowball, but the initiating factor is not being fat.
#type 1 is caused by no insulin production type 2 is caused by insulin resistance #and what causes the resistance or pancreatic damage is often uncertain #absolutely poor diet and lack of exercise can EXACERBATE EXISTING TYPE 2 DIABETES #but eating carbs and eating sugar will not give you diabetes; neither t1 or t2 #also keto is a fucking scam and a lie and puts people in the hospital on a regular basis
Also worth mentioning how hard it is to find good advice around healthy eating or exercise because almost all of the information available assumes your goal is to lose weight. So you'll find a hundred articles for how you can reduce calories, but nothing about how you can eat more vegetables while managing a budget and still feeling satiated. Because professionals assume your goal is to lose weight, not to feel better in your body. It's so incredibly frustrating.
repeating just because people need to hear this:
You don't GET Type 2 diabetes from being fat. Type 2 diabetes MAKES YOU put on fat. We had the causality backward
Also the lack of exercise equipment rated for larger people to use it safely, as well as how much harder it is to find adaptive information on how to do some exercises as a larger person.
I really want a gamified nutrition tracker! Like let me have a cute little creature and earn rewards for it when I hit my protein goal. I want to be able to make him dance when I hit my fiber target. Maybe if I hit my step goal my little creature will where a hat. I’m totally fine if it has a social element with it too. Like - my friends can see my creature and we could play games together on it. Idk there’s a lot of gamified activity trackers. But I just wanted a positive gamified NUTRITION focused tracker. I don’t want it to be shame-y in nature. Like I could see a company trying to make the creature fat when you go over your calorie goal and that would NOT be good. But I think a cute gamified nutrition tracker would be so nice! I’d even pay like $50/yr for that ngl.
"craving a food means your body needs something that food can offer" now what the fuck does my body need with an ice cream
it makes your brain happy! your body could use some joy too
no everyone shut up and listen. truths were said
in all seriousness, if you're craving ice cream, it's likely that your body needs fat and carbs. If ice cream isn't an option for whatever reason, you can try to feed yourself something else with a significant amount of fat and/or carbs. You may also be dehydrated if you're craving sweets.
That said, sometimes your body and brain do genuinely just need a pick me up.
The more frequently you practice intuitive eating like this, the better you'll get at figuring out what it is that your body is asking for.
Also, a great trick is to take a look at what you're craving, note the nutritional contents (fat, carbs, protein, plant matter/fiber) and try and figure out what else sounds tasty for your particular craving. This can give you more data points to go off of. For instance, if you're craving ice cream, but a sweet roll sounds just as good, it's probably carbs your body is asking you for. That said, if you're craving ice cream and a sweet roll doesn't sound good at all BUT a bagel with strawberry cream cheese or avocado toast DOES sound good, you know it's fat you're needing.
If all you're craving is ice cream and nothing else sounds worth the effort, you may just need a low effort mood boost, which is also totally valid! This can also help you even if you can't have ice cream, because now that you know what your body actually wants, you know there are more ways to fulfill that order than the way it asked you to!
Someone give me the motivation to go to the gym after work and remind me i don't have to do a whole hour.
always bothers me when "improvements" to unhealthy diets are all about taking tasty things away rather than ADDING new things. like. add new tastes and new flavours and MORE NUTRIENTS and vitamins
there was some awful show on for encouraging middle class mothers to take their eating disorders out on their children and it was like "oh well, this snack doesn't taste as good as my usual one, but it's healthier"
so get one that??? actually tastes as good?
like this thing of. you know this food that you like and enjoy eating? why don't you toss all that out and eat stuff you don't enjoy as much or want to eat?
that's unhinged to me.
like i just think the process of discovering newer, healthier foods should be ADDITIVE, where you're exploring new tastes alongside your usual ones, slowly broadening your palate and your preferences, rather than punishing yourself for "unhealthy" food
(CW eating disorders)
god i feel so strongly about this bc i could not figure out how to strike a balance between “eating foods that make me feel good” and “not relapsing back into disordered eating habits” until i switched my mindset from “i need to remove unhealthy foods from my diet” to “i need to figure out which foods makes me feel good and add them to my diet”
examples:
moving from “i want a snack. chips sound really good, but i can’t eat chips because they’re unhealthy, so i guess i just won’t eat anything” to “i want a snack. chips sound really good, so i’m gonna eat some, but because i haven’t had any fruits or veggies today, i’m gonna eat some grapes with them”
moving from “i’m craving a burger and fries from mcdonald’s, but that’s unhealthy, so i’m just gonna eat some plain brown rice and grilled chicken even though those don’t sound good” to “im craving mcdonald’s, but last time i ate that it upset my stomach, so i don’t think eating it would make me feel good. but i think what my craving is telling me is that i need carbs and protein, so how about i make some steak and mashed potatoes for dinner?”
moving from “i’m in too much pain to cook tonight, but frozen food is unhealthy, so i just won’t eat anything” to “im in too much pain to cook tonight, so im gonna eat a frozen meal, but im gonna add some pre-cooked chicken and frozen spinach to it because i think the protein and veggies will make my body feel good”
and honestly this has been so much better for me and i feel so much better both physically and mentally than when i was just focused on “i can’t eat anything that’s Unhealthy”
I've also found that if I'm DESPERATELY craving sugar or want to eat ALL THE CARBS RIGHT NOW, it's almost always because I haven't eaten enough that day, or haven't eaten recently enough, and my body is trying to get me to pay attention to the fact I need some energy ASAP.
So it can be useful for me to go "well, I just realized I haven't eaten in six hours, so how about I make a sandwich and see how I feel, and then I can ALSO have some cookies if I still want some" instead of just having the cookies and feeling bad and headachey later because I didn't have any protein or anything with it. Sometimes I still want a cookie, and sometime I don't, but I don't get that gross sugar bonk feeling.
I’m actually working with a certified dietician now and she told me, like nobody else had bothered to, that my carb cravings are literally my brain, the organ, craving fuel.
Brains, she said, run on glucose specifically and literally cannot substitute anything else. I want cookies with frosting because I have a job that requires constant mental attention and my brain is craving a fast energy boost.
As long as I don’t eat, like, a whole sleeve of Samoas and I add some protein to balance it out, I should be fine.
Hey, if you're wanting to make some changes to how you eat, remember- it's much easier, healthier, and more sustainable to ADD foods that make you feel good than it is to REMOVE foods.
If you feel like you don't drink enough non-sugary fluids, it makes more sense to try drinking more tea and sparkling water than it does to just avoid soda. You gotta add in the good (and remember, that the only value food has is how it makes YOU feel. Food is morally nuetral and should be enjoyed.)
Try:
Adding a handful of easy produce to lunch and dinner- baby carrots or cherry tomatoes, something 0 prep. And yes, you are allowed to dip it in dressing! (The fats can make it easier for your body to absorb the vitamins in the veggies)
Adding a cheese stick or yogurt to breakfast. The protein is good and can help you wake up faster.
Adding some roasted nuts to your afternoon snack. (ADD, not replace.) That variety and little protein boost will do you good!
Have a glass of tea, sparkling water, or juice each time you have food. Let's be honest- you aren't hydrated enough. Go buy yourself some Kool Aide mix if that'll make you drink more water! Really!
If you struggle with binge eating sugary foods and it makes you feel yuck when the sugar crash comes- eat 1 or 2 pieces of chocolate with lunch and dinner. Every day. Really. Make it not a big deal. Make it not special. Make it something you can expect, instead of crave. Let yourself enjoy it without guilt.
Remember- food is a gift. It should bring you joy, not stress. Trust your body. Enjoy the cookie. Drink something tasty.
I'm not a dietician, so take this with a grain of salt. (Ha)
But, if it were me, I would add a handful of chips to lunch and/or dinner. (Or like, one of those snack size little bags if you're bad at self portioning like me.) Make it something your body can expect, not a guilty pleasure. You like chips! Enjoy the chips! Spread the chip enjoyment out.
Also... you might be a little electrolyte deficient and/or dehydrated if you're craving salt a lot. I'd try supplementing some magnesium and/or adding some kind of "sports" flavoring to some drinks (like Mio sport, or Gatorade, or even pedialyte.) The body NEEDS salt/electrolytes. Trust your body.
it’s so frustrating having to specify that my anxiety about working out has practically NOTHING to do with “what other people think”. It’s more like I’m scared I’ll go into sensory overload and feel like a failure. Does anyone else deal with this? Because I can’t ever find tips for dealing with this specific brand of gym anxiety. It’s always the social anxiety side. Which is totally valid and all, but so feel like my side isn’t prevalent enough to get support…
Not me trying to figure out how to fit in going to the gym into my schedule of 18cr hrs + 10hr(+)/wk + HW + clubs + self care. Because I feel gross and miss rugby but don’t have time for it.
Hey y’all! It’s been a WHILE since I’ve updated here so let me break down the events.
January 2020 - officially diagnosed with Cushing’s Disease of Pituitary Source (with suspicion that I have had it for over a decade - I was 22 at time of DX)
Feb 28 2020 - Surgery #1 - failed to lower cortisol.
March 5(?) 2020 - Surgery #2 - success!
Spring 2020 - began to be feel more active then it quickly stops as I got very sick anytime I was active.
Summer/Fall/Winter 2020 - ALL THE TESTS
Winter 2021 - Growth Hormone (IGF1) repeatedly low. Needed to schedule a specific test.
Spring 2021 - Insurance = stupid
May 2021 - Officially Diagnosed with Growth Hormone Deficiency and prescribed replacement medication.
June 2021 - moved to an apartment complex with pool + gym
Today! June 15, 2021 - was able to post the following on Facebook
“I’m super proud of myself so allow me a moment to brag! It may seem small but today I went to the gym at my apartments for a second time this week! I did 10minutes on the treadmill both times (3.0mph) and the first time I did the last minute at a jog at 4.5mph which was already HUGE for me because it’s been so long since i’ve been healthy enough to work out (darn broken pituitary gland lol) and today I did TWO minutes!! Not consecutive- not yet… but STILL!! It’s a huge step!! I did weights both times too with is also huge due to the muscle atrophy I had when my Growth Hormone was gone 😁😁😁 I know it’s small, especially for people into fitness - but I’m SUPER proud of myself and SO happy I could almost cry at the progress I’ve been making since my Surgery and medication!
I was never able to run before without feeling like I was dying - I hypothesize it has something to due with cortisol and that I already made way too much - but NOW?! It feels free! I’m seriously about to shed tears because even though I’ve only lost a few pounds… I feel like it’s finally in my grasp to be the fit person i’ve always wanted to be!”
TLDR; I’m FINALLY where I can workout and feel GOOD during and after the workouts!! This is HUGE for me! I’m so proud of myself!!
it's 2022. donald trump has died in disgrace days after being impeached and jailed. my chemical romance's new album is coming out the same day as the new spiderverse movie. the lizzo and janelle monaé collab song is blowing up the radio. lil nas x has a verse in it. you and your partner have time and energy for dates after work after jeff bezos' assets have been seized and distributed to the public in the wake of his arrest for keeping employees in unsafe working conditions.
oh what a life
Like to charge, reblog to cast.
Everyone has been vaccinated for free and the virus hasn’t caused a single death in months.
Those dates you go on with your partner? They’re in public. Unmasked. Your server smiles at you. Everyone feels safe.
You can hug your friends.
You can see a movie. The people in the movie are gay people of color and they kiss and live happily ever after.
And so will you.
LIKE TO CHARGE, REBLOG TO CAST
ITS WORKING
Update: it’s been a while
So. In January 2020 I was officially diagnosed with Cushing’s Disease.
I had surgery on my pituitary gland on Feb28. It was not successful. So I had a second surgery on March 5. As a result I now only have 2/3 of my pituitary gland. It appears to have been successful but my doctors are not sure yet. I will have more testing on or around May 20.
But. Basically. This rate disease makes it impossible to lose weight (the excess amounts of cortisol put the body into a constant fight or flight mode and the body clings to every bit of fat it can.) No matter what I would try, I wouldn’t lose weight. If I tried too hard I would gain. Now. Post surgery I am FINALLY starting to lose a little weight. As you can see in the picture. (I know it says surgery 3/9 but messed up with making the image. That was my release day. The surgery was on 3/5/2020)
As a result of the surgery I’ve gained a LOT of true energy and I’ve started working out again! (It was getting really bad to wear I couldn’t workout before surgery)
I’ve been walking 2mi, 3 days a week, at least. As well ask trying to incorporate other activities.
Tomorrow I plan on going for a walk after waking up and then mowing my yard.
(Also I’ve always been a good eater, but now I’ve lost just about all my cravings for junk food so that’s a major bonus!)
is this a fucking joke?
1) “I was forced into a situation by things outside of my control into a world where I don’t know the basic customs”
2) “I have battled with my self identity for so long and I have finally figured out who I am”
3) “there are some things I simply cannot do because of the way my body/mind works”
4) “My skin color is out of my control and people try to hurt me for it”
5) “I can’t choose who I love, but I’m in love and don’t want to be killed over it”
6) “My brain does not act the way it should and while I am trying to get better it is still sick - I don’t have a choice”
7) “I am in a position that I created entirely myself through my own choices and want sympathy for it.”
Hmmmm.... I wonder why they’d be treated differently.
Omg! I’m back!
Hey! So I’m working with a doctor to maybe get WLS , they say I’m an excellent candidate due to my family and personal history. right now I’m on 6mo supervised weight loss and then I’ll make my final decision!
Ive been working on getting more active and eating small portions.
Ive also lost over 10lbs since the beginning of October! So yay!!!
ANSWERS!!! FINALLY!!
I am FINALLY getting answers to all my health issues!!!
Cushing’s Syndrome!!!
Ill talk about it more in a bit, I’m at work right now
how to be vegan while poor and living with executive dysfunction
so i’ve been vegan since i was 13 (12 yrs ago) and since i was younger i’ve struggled with my autism (particularly sensory issues with food), adhd, eating disorders, chronic depression and poverty. these are some ways i’ve found to manage those and stay relatively healthy.
so first step, for all my meals i try to include at least 1 source of carbs and protein, and 2 types of produce. this is about as balanced as i can usually get, but it fills me up and every couple years i get blood work and they say i’m super healthy so must be doing something right.
now to break those down. these are my most common picks:
carbs: bread, bagels, pasta, rice, quinoa, potatoes, tortillas/wraps granola, oatmeal, couscous, bulgur, farro, amaranth, etc
protein: tofu, beans (black, kidney, cannellini, pinto), legumes (lentils, chickpeas/hummus, peas), nuts (almonds, cashews, peanuts (also nut milks)), seeds (pumpkin, sunflower, chia), tvp, seitan, etc
produce: (this could be literally any type of produce, so i’ll just name my staples) mushrooms, broccoli, tomatoes, spinach, kale, arugula, carrots, cabbage, leeks, bananas, apples, etc
with these, there’s endless combinations for meals:
breakfast: smoothies (pb, banana, milk, greens, chia seeds), granola (any fruit, milk, nuts or seeds or pb), oatmeal (p much same as granola), toast (pb&j with fruit)
lunch/dinner: salad (greens, tofu/nuts, almost any veggies, dressing), toast (tofu, greens/cabbage, tomato, nooch, pepper), tofu scramble (marinate tofu with kala namak, tumeric, paprika, mustard, water, black pepper) grilled or baked veggies, sandwiches, soups, burritos, tacos, wraps, noodles, rice dishes, stir fry (you can throw almost any combo of whatever you like/have on hand into these, just stick to the above formula)
easy sauces: salad dressing (coconut milk, nooch, blk pepper, paprika, mustard, and soy sauce, (also works as a cheesy sauce if you up the nooch) or just oil, vinegar, s/p works honestly), peanut sauce (pb, soy sauce/hoisin, red pepper), tomato sauce (tomato paste, garlic, onion, italian seasoning, paprika, red pepper, s/p), stir fry (soy sauce, garlic, onion/leeks, red pepper, paprika, black pepper), soup broth (soy sauce, mirin, water, leeks, garlic, miso). curry paste (not powder) and coconut milk are also good for stir frys or soup bases
tips to saving money: whenever possible buy in bulk (freeze produce), buy seasonally, buy from farmer’s markets, asian or latin grocery stores. buy canned or frozen produce and dried beans. i also shoplift quite a bit lol and i have friends who dumpster dive, but i don’t have firsthand experience with that
tips to saving time: kinda obvious, but make in bulk and freeze or otherwise store to eat like a week’s worth at a time
that’s all i can think of… at my tightest, i’ve lived off about $10-15 a week. and i usually spend no more than 30 minutes making food, if that. if i get really bad, i’ll literally just eat cans of chickpeas or a handful of spinach and a few bites of tofu straight out of the package. both topped off with a multivitamin i stole. wouldn’t recommend except for in desperate times.
another cool thing about eating veggies is if you aren’t too particular, it doesn’t even matter how long you cook them. you can just munch into them raw even and save more time
