FireSideHampter

vent account. about chronic illness,pain,nausea,fatigue,pcos, and endo. and a bunch of mental illness.

[firesidehampter]

The am hours where I plead to God for help and relief from suffering through sobs, hyperventilating, and screams.

But most of the time, I dont even remember what I prayed for because I was so beside myself, on sleep meds, with chronic brain fog as the cherry on top.

Always hoping I didn't pray for the wrong thing. Or something that could be interpreted wrong.

[firesidehampter]

AHHHHHHHHHHHH

[zhenya-grey]

Me all the time.

[firesidehampter]

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh&ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Tis reflection hours and it is not going great mentally

[brdrlneprsnltydsrdr]

[sa-dnesss]

Can’t sleep. Can’t wake up. Can’t remember the last time I felt like myself. My thoughts are loud but my mind is empty. Food doesn’t taste the same anymore. Conversations feel far away, like I’m watching my own life happen without me. I’m tired in a way sleep doesn’t fix. Days blur together until weeks disappear. It’s Monday, then somehow it’s Sunday again. Everyone else keeps moving forward, and I’m standing still, pretending I’m okay while quietly losing pieces of myself I don’t know how to get back.

[sailermoon]

having unwashed hair will have you believing shit like i can’t be saved

[firesidehampter]

Chronic fatigue and insomnia be kicking my booty. And one of my sleepy time meds just decided not to work anymore after 10+ years. It is making everything ten times worse. Like why nowwwwww.

Not that it worked that well anyway but at least it knocked me out for a little bit you know? Still always deal with major fatigue and insomnia anyway but at least it kinda helped while others didn't.

And freaking out about it lol.

[firesidehampter]

Its that time of the night where I cry my eyes out over literally everything or anything I can remember and Beg God for relief. I am so so so just beyond fatigued at this point in my life.

I dream of days where rest and sleep actually do something. I Beg for it.

I pray for all who feel the same and for those who also think there is one way out. Check on and pray for your chronically friends. 🙏🙏🙏💖💖💖

[firesidehampter]

Love crying my eyes out all night super fun amazing time 🥲💖💖💖

[firesidehampter]

Bro I am in agony lolll

Also fun fact i have learned if you have the cold or flu and are congested that actually put pressure on your upper teeth because you sinuses are like right there :''DD

and lowkey the dull ache for days has been insane on top of other issues. I can take stuff to take the edge off of the teeth pain/pressure but still not amazing.

And it is really just making all my other chronic issues/illnesses, diseases, and syndromes so much worseeee.

I already have problems with sleeping so now im just like

>:'((( and <:'((( all night (more so anyway)

Sorry for the rant but omgosh I am losing my marbles ya'll.

[fibro-memes]

[multifariousmayhem]

i think if you are chronically ill you should have a free pass and not get colds

cause i feel like im dying

[firesidehampter]

Re blogging this again because oh my gosh yes. I am absolutely dying and it makes all the other stuff im dealing with so much worse 😭❤️‍🩹

[firesidehampter]

Its that time of the night where I cry my eyes out over literally everything or anything I can remember and Beg God for relief. I am so so so just beyond fatigued at this point in my life.

I dream of days where rest and sleep actually do something. I Beg for it.

I pray for all who feel the same and for those who also think there is one way out. Check on and pray for your chronically friends. 🙏🙏🙏💖💖💖

[im-out-of-it]

chronic illnesses are a full time job. chronic illnesses are a full time job. chronic illnesses are a full time job. except there are no breaks. just because you think a chronically ill + disabled person “seems” to be doing better, they are STILL dealing with pain. it may not seem noticeable to you but I can bet you that they are in pain. there is always a chronic condition to take care of. there is always some new or old symptom that comes in after waiting for a place in line. THERE IS ALWAYS SOME KIND OF PAIN, SYMPTOM, HELL THAT WE GO THROUGH. I can assure you that a chronically ill person doesn’t even remember or knows how it feels to be completely pain free but we would do anything for just a second of it. this is a 24/7, no breaks, full time job that we didn’t fucking ask for

[introvertsnation]

@introvertsnation

[weltenwellen]

Ellen Bass, “The Thing Is”, Poetry of Presence: An Anthology of Mindfulness Poems

[multifariousmayhem]

i think if you are chronically ill you should have a free pass and not get colds

cause i feel like im dying