I'm Held Together By My Nightmares And My Fright

I’m Caitlin, it’s been a long time but I mean hell yeah man, why not come back? Who knows what I’ll post and when I’ll post but hell yeah.

[4a0000-deactivated20180901]

Are we all crying together on this warm Tuesday night in June

[thickness-protection-program]

[catchymemes]

[funnytwittertweets]

[bettyrightnow]

anxiety is so weird like why is my mental illness in my stomach

[charlesoberonn]

Your stomach is connected to the mental illness glob with lots of tiny soggy strings.

[thoughtportal]

[va-draws]

A moment of light during the siege

[valtsv]

nobody showed up to my public execution :/ what the fuck you guys :/

[valtsv]

fine. whatever. well they're beheading me with a sword and you're all going to miss it.

[valtsv]

contenders for funniest replies in the notes

[nieyao]

if you’re a fan of Shapes it is your lucky day

[nieyao]

your testimonials are increasing her power

[nieyao]

please she is growing too strong

[heywriters]

[yespolkadotkitty]

LOUDER

[narcicious]

I think the mentality of "why bother doing something if you're not good at it?" feeds directly into "if you're good at it why aren't you monetizing it?". At its core I really think its about commodifying every last shred of labor and experience.

[teacuphuman09]

THIS

[kedreeva]

Adding that this is literally a huge reason we don’t leave unsolicited criticism on things like fanworks- fanfiction, fanart, fan crafts etc. Because there’s a LOT of people out there who are just doing this for the fun of it. They’re doing it for the same reason people go on walks- to feel good. And receiving crit they didn’t ask for doesn’t feel good.

[twunkish-cleric]

I've unfortunately fallen trap to this mindset of "If it's an art, I have to be good at it" and I only very recently started to realize how bullshit that is. And I can personally tell you how this mindset absolutely destroys your mental health and all your happiness.

I shouldn't draw to be good at it, I should draw because I loved doing it as a kid as a coping mechanism. I shouldn't have to write just to be the next Tolkien, I should write because I like the idea of leaving something behind when I die and I find it fun.

The sooner you let go of the "it must be better" mindset, the happier you'll be. And I've ever found that releasing that expectation helps you enter the flow state easier.

But it's so engrained in so many people that you have to be good at what you enjoy doing that it's an incredibly difficult mindset to worm your way out of. I'm still trying to do that and it's still a daily struggle. But I'm still trying to make progress and I drew this today, which I really think summarizes this whole post:

[only-cat-memes]

Your daily dose of cat memes

[lazywonderlvnd]

this tweet sends me into fucking hysterics once a day

[ash-and-art]

"amab or afab" im alab experiment that went wrong

[josh-a-wott-deactivated20230522]

I'm tired of seeing poor granny getting bodied every meme

[retrogamingblog]

after a shitty day maybe some Animal Crossing will put me in a better mood...

nope just gettin put on blast by some forest creatures 

[unsettlingstories]

The Worst Party In Ten Thousand Years

I left my friend behind to talk to the weird guy at the party. When I realized how that choice would change my life, it was already too late.

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[bean-pd]

you know when you’re in like mental limbo like when you’re in between certain phases and you can’t exactly pinpoint how you are at the moment. you’re not exactly manic but not depressed and not calm and “normal” yet also not sad and empty. you’re just kinda…..existing. it doesn’t feel right but you can’t really pinpoint what’s wrong