It's Just Me

Just a girl who wants to do something with her life | she/her | 23 |

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sad about the cancellation so here's a stupid poem or whatever

i think my friends and family roll their eyes at my love for wylan

a silly character in a silly show based on a silly book

how could he possibly materialize any kind of meaning in the real world?

when i write about wylan i write about my father

a moment in time where i feel stuck and worthless and yearn to feel the grounding sensation of a heavy weight and music blasting in my headphones

i apply my messy complicated guilty feelings onto the page

on the nights where i need to remind myself his words are an underrepresentation of who i am

wylan stands in my place, if only for a moment

my experiences become his, and vice versa

when i write about wylan i write about my anxiety

because its okay to be the only one in the room who’s different

its okay to collapse on the ground in the middle of a road and not made to feel small because of it

our loved ones will not love us less if we show weakness

i'm not sure i’m there yet

anyone should be able to find people who see our shortcomings

but do not equate them to our worth

to find people who see our strengths even before we do

i'm not sure if my friends and family have made a connection to what wylan means to me

they may not understand that my passion and long rants about him are me screaming to be understood in a way i can’t always describe myself

and i have a feeling i'm not the only one

Thank you Jack Wolfe for bringing even a fraction of this onto the screen, everything you did showed everyone watching wylan was always safe with you <3

#SaveSixofCrows

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Song: HOPE - NF

Never posted an edit before I have no idea what I’m doing but that episode broke me

Flash Warning and TW: implied suic!de 

Take care of yourselves y’all 

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remember when VOLUME 1 Ruby told Jaune that he’s not allowed to be a failure because he’s a leader now and as leaders they need to put their teammates first and themselves second?

because i do.

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i do find it interesting that ruby stepping back from crescent rose was INCREDIBLY concerning for everybody, but as soon as the town floods and Jaune screams out every single member of WBY goes to comfort him. because his pain is louder than ruby’s. like they literally immediately disregarded ruby’s incoming breakdown and concerning behaviour. They try to make jaune feel better by pretty much asking ruby to say something inspirational or optimistic. but she can’t because she literally just had a panic attack mid battle and refuses to use her very cherished weapon

im not saying this to hate on WBY because I know they’re going through it as well, I just thought this was interesting writing

I will be a Ruby defender until the day i die

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this is what i like to call...

me being bad at paying attention to obvious clues

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MINOR RWBY VOLUME 9 SPOILERS

so like. what was little’s role. they have no previous memories and still don’t know their job or role yet. is it possible they were with alyx and louis and then failed to do something so they were reborn? im expecting little to play a bigger role (ha see what i did there)

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To everyone saying that the dialogue in heartstopper is cringey and bad has it ever occured to you that maybe, MAYBE it's because teenagers are cringey?

Like yes charlie texting nick "thanks for being my supportive straight friend" is cringe but also I once texted my crush "bi facts" in response to her saying "straight facts" 0.2 seconds after she rejected me.

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Kinda old but found this in my drafts and felt the need to post it cause it made me laugh

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So like very curious about the whole old man five thing.

I have a feeling in season 4 that five actually does create the commission (somehow) and that would help explain his old selfs involvement? Like we see his thought process into creating it.

Like "look what happened to the timelines after we messed them up" "OH I hAVe An iDeA"

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I would love a moment in season 4 where they all like get matching umbrella tattoos (cause I'm pretty sure all their tattoos disappeared in the new timeline). But like this time it's more of like a bonding activity instead of branding. Or like they all get something unique to them but that's still a collective? Like something to do with their powers or something (since theyre gone)

I just want family bonding activities.

Edit: season 4 lmao not season 3

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So it occurred to me a few days ago that Sloane wasn't with the umbrellas because it was Allison who had control over what was in this new timeline. Like did she just erase Sloane from existence? Or is she just chilling somewhere else. Or is ALLISON in a completely different timeline? I'm confused as to why they like "spawned" in different places

Honestly I don't think my brain even caught up with whatever season 3 was yet tbh

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Heartstopper

I only read heartstopper about a week before the show came out but my god am I glad I did. I'm in my 20s now and I'm also bisexual, and very few times IF ANY have I seen a coming of age story of someone figuring out they're bisexual.

Yes we've gotten some nice rep in recent years, ie Rosa Diaz, jesper Fahey, Nina zenik, etc. But we dont really get to see that awkward young teen "figuring it out" stage in their lives, which I do love but there's still alot of young people still figuring it out. We’ve gotten some nice rep for lgbt youth, and I’m happy we’re getting more. 

I started questioning when I was 13 and didnt label myself until I was 16 and had a serious crush on a girl for the first time. Which is a fun story for another time. 

I was lucky enough that I had people in my life who made it known they would accept me if I was queer, thus I never actually came out, one day I just told my mom I had a crush on a girl and she was like “whats her name”.

But that's not everyone's reality, and we don't have alot of rep on tv to show people that ITS OKAY to be something that's not straight, and that there's more labels and that you don't have to be attracted to just one gender (or attracted to anyone at all).

Nick Nelson might be the first time I saw anything close to my own experience exploring sexuality in media. I still had crushes on the opposite gender, but I also had crushes on the same gender. 

The "am I gay" quiz followed by only having a “62% homosexual”, and questions being tailored to either "one or the other". Plus the realization of the reality of living as a queer person. This seemed to be a universally experience, as if google could answer these questions for us. 

I am also SO happy that the people in Nick's life never made it seem like he couldnt be bisexual or that he had to "pick a side". They let him take his time, and never rushes his process in figuring it out. It took me 3 years before I felt right labelling myself. It’s a journey, and sometimes it takes time. 

Personally I refused to tell anyone I was even questioning until I knew FOR SURE that I was bi, because I didn't want people to think I was attention seeking if it turned out I was actually straight. I thought if I didn't have an explicit crush on a girl than I wasn't actually bi. Which was dumb because I was 14 and hadn't ever even been in a relationship with ANYONE before. Honestly to do this day I question my own validity as a queer person.

So, in conclusion I am thankful for Nick Nelson and I am thankful for heartstopper, and while I only found out about it once it became a Netflix show, and while I wish I had it when I was 13 and confused, I am so happy it exists, especially for younger kids

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Honestly when the inevitable Hawkmoth reveal happens I don't want it to be super angsty (mostly cause I don't like seeing Adrien sad).

I want Adrien to feel relieved.

Gabriel is a terrible father. He neglects his son, refuses to listen to what Adrien wants and forces him to take part in extracurricular activities that he probably wants no part in.

But he's still Adrien father. Meaning that Adrien probably makes excuses for his father's behaviour because he refuses to accept that his father might not care about him (which we know he does buts he's got a fucked up way of showing it).

But if Adrien were to learn that his father is a baddie (not the good kind) it would be easy for him to paint his father as the villain. He would have an excuse to hate his father or to turn against him.

Am I projecting here? Probably. Is it likely that's how he'll react? Probably not. But hey a girl can theorize.

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I said it for the marichat shippers but I'll repeat it for every person in the fandom rn. STOP GETTING CLOWNED. Y'ALL KNEW THERE WASN'T GONNA BE AN IDENTITY REVEAL AND YET YOU STILL BELIEVED. FOOLS. HAVE YOU LEARNED NOTHING FROM THE PREVIOUS 3 SEASONS???

don't insult me I am a fool just like you how is it possible that I never learn

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The clown makeup doesn't come off.

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Okay a little calmer now.

I for real though the "I am ladybug" voice from the trailers was a fake out.

I am SO happy it wasn't.

Our girl needs some support from a human and not a magical creatures who is a billion years old (still gotta love tikki tho)

Gotta say in my time in this fandom a moment from an episode has never made me feel as on edge or hyped as this one. Congrats.

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NO ONE TOUCH ME. NO ONE TALK TO ME.

Y'all I'm literally shaking wtf.

I've been in this fandom for 5 years I am so fricken happy right now

Excuse me while I watch furious Fu KNOWING alya knows even tho she's not in the episode at all

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Friendly reminder that Marinette Dupain Cheng is a human child

Yes she can be selfish. Yes she says things that sometimes hurt people. But what makes her the perfect Ladybug is her ability to recognize and apologize for those mistakes.

The difference between Marinette and people like chloe and Lila is that Marinette wants what's best for others, even if she doesn't always know what that is right away.

If Marinette was a perfect person from the beginning there wouldn't be anything to develop with her character.

A real hero is someone who can acknowledge when they've done wrong, and works to become a better person.

Her crush on Adrien is a little creepy at times but honestly it's a good reminder that Marinette is still a young girl with a lot of emotions. Her choices are often blinded by her love for Adrien.

But what was great about the most recent episode is that we're seeing that's not quite the case anymore. After the whole ordeal with Luka, Marinette said herself she can't have a boyfriend and she has to focus on her role as the Guardian of the Miraculous.

Her downfall with Luka had nothing to do with Adrien despite what her friends and Luka himself may believe (although Luka seems to know she's hiding something that ISNT her love for Adrien and Marinette was always pretty open with Luka about that).

In conclusion Marinette was the perfect choice for Ladybug. Marinette shows remorse and guilt when she's hurt someone's feelings and she always apologizes or tries to make it better. She isn't perfect and will continue to make mistakes, but that's what makes her a good hero, the ability to learn from her mistakes. (Which will continue to happen because she is still a young child continuing to explore the world around her).

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If I see one more person defending ironwood I'm gonna lose it.

If this last chapter hasn't made it clear. Ironwood has completely lost it. Instead of either feeling guilty or mourning the lost of a few (teenage) lives, he's rather mad that he lost bargaining chips. He does not care about human lives. He never has.

Hes trying to win a war he doesn't understand. He's so focused on defeating salem that he doesn't realize how many lives its costing. Even if he does win,

Who's left?

I know making choices like that is hard and you have to make sacrifices but it's clear he isn't even trying to save lives. He's actively stopping huntsman and huntresses from evacuating Mantle. And for what? Team RWBY and JNOR aren't Ironwoods soldiers so why he is actively stopping them from helping? Why is he putting all responsibility for defeating salem on a bunch of teenagers when he has his own team of people?

Feel free to disagree. I personally love seeing people's perspectives on the situation (even tho I said I said I would lose it if people defend him)