Orpheus / Mono

They/he This is just a place for me to vent because I have problems opening up and appearing vulnerable

[orpheusthemono]

would it be weird if i emailed the psychiatry department at 11:38pm saying 'hey it's been like 14 weeks since my assessment can i have an appointment yet' because fuck me, the disorder is disordering rn

[orpheusthemono]

DID: affects like 2% of the population Multiple people I know: hey so I have memory issues and experience Different States of Being. Validate me. Like, why am I being baited into telling you that you have symptoms of being a system or you could be one. Because you're VERY MUCH more then likely NOT, just from the plain fact of statistics alone? Tf?

[orpheusthemono]

fawn

fawn: any interesting family stories?

I don't think so? The only thing that comes to mind is my mum accidentally almost killing a bunch of people at her 9th birthday party because like 7 people got meningitis including my aunt who was about 6m old at the time. It went in the local newspaper. Everyone, including my aunt, was fine

[orpheusthemono]

teal

teal: have a job?

Yes. I work with disabled children and young adults. It's a lovely job. It can be very stressful or tiring or draining. I actually had to go to the ER recently for a bite lol. But I love my job so so much

[orpheusthemono]

coral

coral: an animal you wish hadn't gone extinct

I just think he's cute :)

[orpheusthemono]

yellow

yellow: name of an artist you think is underappreciated

Siobhan Miller! She's a Scottish singer. I love the Ramblin' Rover best but The Banks of Newfoundland is close second

[orpheusthemono]

lavender

lavender: relationship status?

I'm single. I had a phase of wanting a partner, but I got ghosted by someone who seemed nice so I gave up on the idea.

I don't think I'd be a very good partner anyway.

[miscgoth-deactivated20230115]

Color Asks

red: describe your favorite shirt

orange: if you could, would you change your eye color? why? to what color, if so?

yellow: name of an artist you think is underappreciated

green: do you have a favourite flower?

blue: preferred type of weather?

purple: a poem you think describes your closest friend

magenta: do you keep your fingernails long or short?

turquoise: favorite sea animal?

fuchsia: favorite land animal?

cyan: are you religious? spiritual?

sea green: can you fold a fitted sheet?

violet: are you a part of the lgbt+ community?

amber: what's saved as your phone's lockscreen?

aqua: do you thrift?

pink: what's your natural hair color?

beige: have any pets? what're their names?

black: would you ever try going vegetarian or vegan?

coral: an animal you wish hadn't gone extinct

grey: how many languages do you speak? do you want to learn any more?

maroon: do you care for clothing brands?

rose: favourite scent on a person? 

charcoal: have you ever been camping?

claret: do you play an instrument? do you want to learn to play any?

copper: gold or silver jewelry?

cream: any piercings or tattoos? do you want any?

salmon: how many pairs of sunglasses do you own?

ebony: would you ever want to play a game on television? (jeopardy, family fued, etc)

indigo: have you ever lived on a farm?

emerald: if you had the option, would you choose to move and live in another country? which one?

lavender: relationship status?

erin: what was/is your best school subject?

mauve: any unpopular opinions?

fulvous: another name you think would suit you

coconut: a subject you enjoy learning about

frost: a -core you enjoy

porcelain: an tv show you used to love

fawn: any interesting family stories?

gold: do you wear your socks mismatched?

honey: your thoughts on magic- does it exist?

rust: form of art you enjoy doing?

ginger: any sideblogs?

cherry: YouTubers you enjoy watching?

wine: do you have a 'type'

mahogany: your sun, moon, and rising signs

blood: twin beds, queen, or king?

hot pink: did you/do you had/have strong feelings against the color pink?

plum: a food you've never tried

lilac: dogs, cats, or fish?

amethyst: do you collect anything?

mulberry: earbuds or headphones?

azure: jean jackets?

teal: have a job?

denim: kill the spider or take it outside?

sapphire: do you think you can sing well?

mint: favourite flavour of gum?

pecan: shuffle your playlist, what's the first song that comes up?

penny: icecream or cake

ash: can you do your own makeup?

jade: ever written fanfiction?

grape: how many blogs do you follow?

umber: do you brush your teeth before you eat?

chestnut: type of phone you have

prussian blue: what's your first choice at the vending machine

aquamarine: beach or pool

brass: least favorite food condiment

mustard: how much sugar in your tea/coffee?

silver: ever broken a bone?

rose quartz: rings or necklaces

onyx: do you still play Minecraft?

burgundy: ever ridden a motorcycle?

scarlet: favorite holiday

apricot: opinion on 3 in 1 body wash/hair wash 

platinum: do you follow politics?

magnolia: your Instagram handle?

[orpheusthemono]

It’s rough again and I don’t even know why

[orpheusthemono]

Wow it’s been a while since I posted here. I’ve been… ok? I think?

[orpheusthemono]

And just like that I accidentally made myself sad again…

[orpheusthemono]

I’m so pissed off rn

I have a crush (?) on one of the guys in my (small) group of college friends who we’ll call D. And the other guy in the group knows this as he’s one of my very close friends and we tell each other loads. We’ll call that one R. R has also relayed the information to me that D has said he doesn’t want a relationship right now because college is a lot and he doesn’t want the added stress, which I fully understand and I even agree that a relationship would have been bad then and I still don’t think it would be a great idea. But I still like him regardless.

So R sent me a video saying that D had sent it to him with the caption ‘me to Mono’. I didn’t want to watch it. I thought I had gotten over D but that one sentence and I knew I wasn’t. I felt genuinely nervous to see it. Not a feeling I get too often.

So I open it and it says ‘I’m this close to doing this to you next time I sit next to you’ then the video is a kid opens his sisters (?) hoodie to reveal a tank top (and her boobs) and he says woah. The kid is quite small, it’s not like creepy or whatever it’s one of those funny kid moments.

I was happy. Like genuinely happy. It must mean he’s attracted to me, which is a start! Things have been so stressful lately and that made me smile. I even told my other friend group who happily started an M x D ship is sailing joke.

Until I mention to R ‘I might message him saying go ahead’ (this was /j). But then he said that by the way, D never sent him the video. It was something he saw on his Tik Tok page and he thought it would be funny? I don’t even fucking know what he thought.

And then he said that tone indicators where to blame???? What????

I’m so pissed off at him for doing that. It was a mean prank that really fucked with my feelings and I don’t appreciate that at all. Especially since everyone knows that sudden stress is the highest cause of my seizures. I’m just… ARGHHHHGGHG

WHAT WAS THE REASON?!

Anyway idk I just needed to get that off my chest because I’m mad and actually a bit upset if I’m honest. That he was that blind to think the joke was in even slightly good taste, and that the fact that D probably has no feelings towards me regardless.

I have a training day for work tomorrow and this was not a feeling that I needed.

I’m going to bed.

[orpheusthemono]

There’s a false widow spider in my window and every time I even look at my window I start ticcing really bad and I’m home alone and all my other friends are either busy or in class I hate it here

[luckydreaming]

Are fedoras really that bad?

YES YES THEY ARE

[onceuponakhaleesi]

voidethered:

ask-omnipony:

I don’t really believe this mumbo jumbo

I mean it’s a goddamn hat.

Right..?

The white rose, it symbolizes the unique beauty of all the women who wish not to be with a nice guy such as myse-

I wonder if this works with other kinds of hat…

Nothing ventured, nothing gained…

WHEEEN THE MOON HITS YOUR EYE LIKE A BIG PIZZA PIE THAT’S AMORREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Men of Tumblr are my favorite kind of people…

[jamesbleach]

wait, does that mean?

oh boy…….

[usedtobehmc]

Luckily, this nonsense doesn’t work on girls.

Observe…

[rootbeergoddess-deactivated2017]

IT’S GOTTEN BETTER!

[coffeeandcursewords]

This post is immaculate

[mobians-and-chaos-blog]

It can’t be true.

And it can’t possibly work on motorcycle helmets.

I must test it.

Nothing happening so far…

[strampunch]

HOLY SHIT IT WORKS

[pokemon-chick-1personalblog-blog]

What in the world?

Oh why not? This should be interesting.

Here we go!

Were all mad here in Underland!

What the hell! Never Again!

… Actually …

One more time.

[combthecombel]

Alright, I gotta try this!

Can’t be that bad!

….

…oh my god…

[verityglasses]

ask-gmodsfmrocks:

LOL

This just gets better and better

[fairytail-angel]

This is one of my favourite things to look at

[strampunch]

holy shit this stuff is back

[livia-jones]

The Gravity Falls one though

[nightowlhowell]

i wonder if it works for flower crowns?

here goes nothin-

w HAT THE

DID I JUST-

WHAT THE FUCK

[artfulhobbes]

Okay Clearly something is up.

Hmm… I wonder

I’m sure nothing could possibly…

HOLY SHIT

[clolymoly-deactivated20190507]

IT GOT BETTER

[nukewolf]

I HAVE BEEN SEARCHING SO LONG FOR THIS POST OH MY GOD!!!

[cm8x-insanity]

I wonder what happens when you wear 8 of these at once…

[roses-in-fire]

Never not reblog

[ryrobsessed]

IT’S ON MY DASH. ACTUALLY ON MY DASH.

[cate-geo]

Oh my God, there are so many new ones

[dvonmc]

Friggin, yis

[wildishmazz]

Always reblog.

[the-last-teabender]

IT HAS EVOLVED

[evilblackcat13]

The legend marches on…

[thefingerfuckingfemalefury]

BEWARE THE MAGIC OF HATS

[bittythemagpiedragon-blog]

JDNXHSBSBF

[hotshotriot]

I T ‘ S  B A C K 

[99-cent-arizona-tea]

a classic meme from when the world was less of a tire fire

[teeble-spoon]

ITS ON MY BLOG YESSSS

[fandombandomrandom42]

THIS IS WONDERFUL.

[i-srsly-need-to-stop-deactivate]

time to bring back outdated memes…

what could possibly go wrong?

eww, it smells like fuckboi

welp, down this rabbit hole we go…

nothing’s happeni-

WTF-

[ofcosmicflux-deactivated2019013]

Oh boy, this meme

I wonder if this would work with a wolf hat.

May as well try it.

Please don’t be awful, please don’t be awful, please don’t b-

get wet 4 furry

[saucy-majora-deactivated2021062]

This is obviously fake

Look, I’ll prove it

Y’all are just acting

Watch and learn

WTFFFFFF

[knowledgemimic]

Should…… should I…….

[breathingcolorsblog]

DO IT!

[knowledgemimic]

Whelp guess I gotta put on the hat now

Can’t be that bad, I mean what’s the worst a squid hat can do to m-

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[worldheritagepostorganization]

World Heritage Post

[orpheusthemono]

This is it. The best thread on this damn website. We found it.

[orpheusthemono]

Hmm I’ve not posted anything for a while.

Not much to say really.

Things have been ok. I got to see my family. Nothing has been too bad.

How are all of you?

[orpheusthemono]

I met my college councillor today. I can’t tell if I liked her or not.

She seems very down to earth and was very honest with me about what she felt she could and could do for me, but explained it all well.

At first I almost felt offended cus it felt like she was being condescending at times. But then I realised that I absolutely understood everything she told me. So I guess I was just being defensive and reading her wrong.

Anyways after we’re back to college after Easter I gotta hand in a form for her and then hopefully in a few weeks I’ll be seeing her more :)

Yeah. I think I like her.

[orpheusthemono]

Just realised that getting so angry and frustrated that I almost cry and every little noise makes me want to scream and/or punch something all while struggling to breath because it’s all too much is NOT normal

It’s a meltdown!

Aka another bit of proof that I may also be autistic