Paradoxicalfeeling

relatable and general posts

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A futile attempt at staying connected

We’ve been raised to believe that higher importance increases closure between two individuals. But is that really so? Or do we just get in a supposed agreement to stay in each other’s lives just because we have for so long despite not feeling the same about each other anymore? Do you ever find yourself in company of an old friend and feeling the compulsion to walk away without another word because small talk can only last for so long and you have no curiosity left about the other’s life ? Isn’t it a futile attempt to stay connected to avoid ending up alone despite already feeling lonely/uninterested in other’s company?

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“What breaks my heart is the realisation that I just want you and only you,because I’m not made for you”

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At first, craving for your attention was an addiction,then it turned into tolerance but now... it’s nothing more than a choice for me;I’ve learnt to choose better things over it.

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Just daily habits

While taking my clothes off,I sometimes pretend to be Spider-Man trying to get rid of venom symbiote that’s latched itself to my body.

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“Sometimes,it’s hard to tell if I’m sober or not,even without having taken any intoxicant at all”

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The first song you listen to at the beginning of each new day plays a big role in deciding your mood for that day. Please pick the soundtrack very carefully.

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You know that we both share the strong liking for that one specific song about love listening to which we imagine ourselves with our "somebody special".I know who is yours but you don't know that you're mine.

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Every night when I lay down and close my eyes,I imagine an alternate reality where you're just as much in love with me as I am. Just feeling that emotional closeness gives me the strength to hold back the tears in my eyes everytime I see you with another guy.

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Everytime you say that you'll find that special one for me, my heart aches within because you don't know that you've been that special one for me all this time.

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Survival

Strength and speed have become a common basis for competition in today's world. It's not a bad thing,but in my personal opinion, the original purpose has faded.

Being physically strong and fast used to be the only chance of anyone's survival back in ancient and medieval ages. That way we could hunt for food. But later,as you already know, planting of crops began and one thing led to another and today we have reached the stage when most of us have adequate food resources to survive on and thus, the need for survival minimized to the extent that now it's noticable only in the times of war or natural calamity. Because of the above reasons, we have become soft. It's not our fault though. It's natural to grow soft in times of peace but there's never really peace in the world,is there?

We call it peace because we aren't being bombarded with bombs like it happened in the wars just a few decades ago. But every other day, we hear of thieves or rapists or killers attacking people,or some people fighting against each other to their deaths. Most of the times,the victims are those who couldn't protect themselves because either they couldn't bring down the attacker themselves,or they couldn't escape in time. This is the result of growing softer over the years. I understand that not everyone has the privilege to be strong but then neither did our ancestors. If they could do it, then so can we. It's a matter of will and need.

Many of us are becoming conscious about their health and fitness nowdays and that's a good thing. But it's almost never to protect ourselves or people we love, but to either impress our love interests,or to win in a competition of any kind. And it goes for men and women alike now that women have begun making efforts and succeeding in almost every field like men.

It's pretty obvious that not all of us can learn martial arts, or any other form of fighting, but can't we just reach that level of fitness to protect ourselves? If we aren't strong enough to protect ourselves,then trying to protect anyone else is already next to impossible.

My point is that we still need to develop that survival Instinct in us that we had in the old days. If you watch the news regularly, you probably already realize that it's still a necessity. The level of incidents are just rising every other week. It's about time we get out of our houses and trained ourselves. Our brave soldiers are protecting us day and night from external attacks. So we can definitely train ourselves enough too,can't we?

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“One day it just clicks… You realise what is important and what isn’t, you learn to care less about what other people think of you and care more about what you think of yourself. You realise how far you have come and you remember thinking that things were such a mess they’d never recover and then you smile. You smile because your truly proud of the person you have fought to become.”

— Unknown

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Just introvert things

As an introvert, their nature itself could, god forbid, leave a person hanging if they're in some serious trouble. That's because one of the things that introverts are afraid of, is someone calling them on their phone. So they just wish that whoever is calling them would hang up. This is a bad thing for someone who's trying to contact them for help. Because introverts will just be hesitant to pick up.

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Losing yourself

To abandon someone is debatable so long as it's not yourself.

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“I hate solitude, but I am afraid of intimacy. The substance of my life is a private conversation with myself which to turn into a dialogue would be equivalent to self-destruction.”

— Iris Murdoch, Under the Net (via books-n-quotes)

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“I want to inspire people. I want people to look at me and say “because of you I didn’t give up.””

— Unknown

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"I'm sorry, I forgot what I was gonna say",he said, smiling and scratching his head in embarrassment."It's okay",she said while staring down,"that's what happens everytime I look into your eyes."