Long May Chaos Reign

Av, she/they, 18+ Blog. Bonafide reblogger of many things, and reader of just so much fanfiction. I'm horrendous at tagging in general, proceed at your own risk. Currently obsessed with: Hades 2. Art Blog: @IsleOfAvalonArt

[rainbownomja]

Runaway Dream Redux Chapter 1 on Ao3

Title: Runway Dream Redux

Rating: Mature

Tags: Angst with a Happy Ending, Domestic Violence, Emotional/Psychological Abuse, Physical Abuse, Past Suicidal Ideation, Player has PTSD, Mental Health Issues, Grief/Mourning, Dysfunctional Family, Found Family, Friends to Lovers, Hurt/Comfort, Slow Burn, Trauma Recovery, Demetrius Critical, Robin Critical

Summary: Satsuma fled from ZuZu City with one goal: staying alive. Once she got to Pelican Town, her plan was to stay out of sight and out of mind of the people that lived there. In some ways that plan would've worked, most people were hellbent on involving her in the ways they saw fit and when she was incapable of meeting those expectations they often lost interest.

But Sebastian is unlike most of the others in ZuZu City. He is much too observant for his own good and more than willing to deconstruct Satsuma's carefully maintained walls with the seemingly endless patience he has for her and her alone. Maybe that's because Sebastian has been stuck in place for so long that he yearns for a change that his mind won't allow him to reach for on his own. Maybe it's just that Satsuma meets him halfway. Regardless, his heart has other plans and he won't remain isolated for much longer.

Satsuma brings with her the possibility of change for many in Pelican Town. The question is, how willing is she to bring that change for herself despite the risks?

Runaway Dream Redux on AO3

[mariacallous]

[sprinkledsalt]

I am once again posting this excerpt from Why Does He Do That?

"MYTH #4: He holds in his feelings too much, and they build up until he bursts. He needs to get in touch with his emotions and learn to express them to prevent those explosive episodes. My colleagues and I refer to this belief as 'The Boiler Theory of Men.' The idea is that a person can only tolerate so much accumulated pain and frustration. If it doesn’t get vented periodically— kind of like a pressure cooker—then there’s bound to be a serious accident. This myth has the ring of truth to it because we are all aware of how many men keep too much emotion pent up inside. Since most abusers are male, it seems to add up. But it doesn’t, and here’s why: Most of my clients are not unusually repressed. In fact, many of them express their feelings more than some nonabusive men. Rather than trapping everything inside, they actually tend to do the opposite: They have an exaggerated idea of how important their feelings are, and they talk about their feelings—and act them out—all the time, until their partners and children are exhausted from hearing about it all. An abuser’s emotions are as likely to be too big as too small. They can fill up the whole house. When he feels bad, he thinks that life should stop for everyone else in the family until someone fixes his discomfort. His partner’s life crises, the children’s sicknesses, meals, birthdays—nothing else matters as much as his feelings. It is not his feelings the abuser is too distant from; it is his partner’s feelings and his children’s feelings. Those are the emotions that he knows so little about and that he needs to 'get in touch with.' My job as an abuse counselor often involves steering the discussion away from how my clients feel and toward how they think (including their attitudes toward their partners ’ feelings). My clients keep trying to drive the ball back into the court that is familiar and comfortable to them, where their inner world is the only thing that matters. For decades, many therapists have been attempting to help abusive men change by guiding them in identifying and expressing feelings. Alas, this well-meaning but misguided approach actually feeds the abuser’s selfish focus on himself, which is an important force driving his abusiveness. Part of why you may be tempted to accept 'The Boiler Theory of Men' is that you may observe that your partner follows a pattern where he becomes increasingly withdrawn, says less and less, seems to be bubbling gradually from a simmer to a boil, and then erupts in a geyser of yelling, put-downs, and ugliness. It looks like an emotional explosion, so naturally you assume that it is. But the mounting tension, the pressure- cooker buildup of his feelings, is actually being driven by his lack of empathy for your feelings, and by a set of attitudes that we will examine later. And he explodes when he gives himself permission to do so."

[one-bite-is-undercover]

This book is a top recommendation of mine, as a therapist.

[allthingswhumpyandangsty]

[phantomrose96]

Coworker (60) was cursing under his breath to himself trying to get something to work on his computer. Other coworker (25) asked, "Are you winning son?" which went unanswered for quite a while, until finally coworker (60) very quietly went "..........'son'?"

[swoony-spoonie]

When the brain fog kicks in..

[fangs-4-fags]

This world is so beautiful. People are shipping Ryan gosling and markiplier. Because they were both in space movies you see

[fangs-4-fags]

Tumblr users love to do things like this. I DO NOT mean this in a mocking way to be completely clear. I think it's cute. It reminds me of back in the day when people shipped jack frost and elsa cause they both have ice powers.

[fangs-4-fags]

Or like the superwholock thing. Tumblr users like to go "I like this thing AND that thing.. What if my FAVORITE CHARACTERS met each other? Would that be cool or WHAT!" And the thing is it's absolutely adorable

[fangs-4-fags]

You can say it's cringe or bad or missing the point of the movie all you want but I don't care. Yeah man, I bet it would be really cute if there was a happy ending and the blood murder man (in space) got saved by the dorky science teacher (in space) and they had yaoi moments. I'm so glad you're having fun

[men-of-actual-play]

[i-like-dropout]

fantasies about vampires coming to your town to fall in love with you and make hot vampire sex to you: old, outdated, boring

fantasies about vampires coming to your town to improve the public infrastructure, destroy the rich families milking you for money, and perhaps also making hot vampire sex to you (or helping you make hotter sex with your partner of many years): rejuvenating, what we need in this day and age, modern

[rainbownomja]

I’m catching up on City Council of Darkness (I.e starting it) holy SHIT we went from 0-1,000 so quickly. Cleaning this mess up is gonna be a time

[shadowen]

This is an anti-despair checkpoint! You must share something you're looking forward to before scrolling on.

[buffysummers]

Rupert Giles + 🔥 🔥 🔥 [requested by Anonymous]

[tygermama]

Some of my fav Giles moments are the ones where the people around him start to realize he’s not a nice man, he’s a dangerous man who chooses to be kind

[animentality]

[thesylverlining]

Anthony Head: Buffy and Ted Lasso actor dies at 72

The British actor, who also appeared in Merlin and Little Britain, died of complications from pneumonia.

Oh no. Oh God. This one fucking hurts.

[floridakilo]

social media has evolved into such a voyeuristic spectacle over the last five to ten years its truly shocking to me like excluding tumblr 90% of the explore pages on other apps is just videos of peoples faces set to music or people talking directly to the camera etc etc......by contrast on tumblr there is still a sort of sheen of anonymity based on how its formatted and usually when you interact with a post you read or watch the content first and then learn the users identity second by clicking on their profile ie the dash is not just a wall of people filming themselves unless its a repost......i remember even only a couple of years ago there was a distinction between people who were influencers and got paid to film themselves 24/7 for instagram but now its like every average person on reels/tiktok is performing the same kind of theater for free......i cant imagine what that would do to your psyche long term

[dragon-in-a-fez]

idk if I've told this story on here before but one time I was sitting at my desk at work and a random dog I'd never seen before strolled into my office and curled up at my feet. and I was like oh you are adorable but what the fuck?

then a woman knocked on the door and said "oh I'm so sorry he's a therapy dog he's trained to seek out people in severe distress"

and I was like right okay, just getting my whole life drive-by roasted by a dog then

[caught-tumbling]

I was at a restaurant one time and the dog from a nearby table kept alerting the owner and trying to get to me. Like this dog was straining against the leash so hard to get close to me. They asked if it was ok for the dog to come up to me and I said sure, I love dogs. This dog comes over and plants herself at my feet with her head shoved between my knees. Finally the owner asked me if I was ok because their service dog was trained to comfort people in distress, and that's what she's trained to do to comfort people. I was having a silent panic attack and trying to hide it but got outed by a dog. The dog did help though so that was nice

[teaboot]

Can I be honest with yall I don't want to hear SHIT against cishets at pride this year

[teaboot]

"But it's not FOR them!!!" The biggest military power in the world belongs to a christofascist nation overseen by a felon found guilty of 34 federal crimes and has greenlit a gestapo with more direct funding than the entire military of Canada for the purpose of ethnic cleansing. Let Hetero Jessica throw some biodegradable glitter at a municipal parade

[creatingblackcharacters]

Happy pride month ^^

I think this might already be known but around April a Black Asexual, Ashabi (creator of Ace in Grace) (she/they), proposed a new Asexual flag. I think it would be nice to show them some support.

Here's links to the meaning of the flag: https://aceingrace.substack.com/p/new-asexuality-flag-final-updates

https://aceingrace.substack.com/p/its-international-asexuality-day (< this includes the meaning of the old flag and the reason she felt it needed some changes + an older design of their proposed flag)

Here's a link to her Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/_aceingrace_?igsh=dTdqMGZtMzI0MWxs

New Asexuality Flag; Final Updates and Thoughts

We've reached the finish line; Here's the Final Design!

Thank you for sharing!