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When something happens and you're not sure if what happened to you can be considered SA or if you're just being overdramatic and trying to have a victim complex.

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When trauma finally starts to integrate but you get to that stage where you crave for someone to love you unconditionally and come hold you, while telling you how good, safe and loved you are until you calm down enough to just drift off, because you never had that growing up.

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How it feels to believe in and follow an esoteric occultist belief to the point modern psychiatry tries to accuse it of being a delusion despite the fact that the DSM and ICD specifically states that a belief cannot be diagnosed as a delusion if the belief is held by a group for cultural, subcultural or spiritual reasons.

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When you were disbelieved for years and when you finally get a mental health team that finally believes you because your symptoms and behaviour don't match the profile for liars or patterns of delusions, and eventually your mental health team tells you that your trauma is so horrific and sadistic that it's some of the worst they've heard, and now you're not sure whether to feel vindicated and validated or feel an immense amount of grief and disgust by what happened to you.

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How it feels when CAMHS tells you that you probably have Dissociative identity disorder but can't diagnose you because of your age but you're about to age out of their clinic and so you do research to find a clinic or a specialist in your area that works with dissociative disorders only to find none and everyone of them that claims to work with complex trauma is only talking about C-PTSD and doesn't treat or assess DID...

fuck you australian mental health system.

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Sometimes I wear my headphones so much that I don't even realise I'm wearing them because I can no longer feel them and then I search around looking for my headphones until I realise I'm wearing them.

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It's so weird... everything is so weird and painful... I hate having DID, everything hurts about it. I want to go dormant again, I want an ISH to handle this, my head hurts, I can't remember much of anything from this month and I feel so much stress I can feel it in my body.

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"this is parent shaming, this is parent shaming" and then it's just calling them for neglecting and abusing their child.

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GUESS WHO MIGHT BE STARTING HRT LATE THIS YEAR OR EARLY NEXT YEAR!!

[stelkien]

Plurality makes bodily functions wildly uncomfortable. Please stop watching me piss

[didenchanted]

“who is fronting?”

i dont knowwwwww

[s3cr3tf4nf1cz]

Can we please stop treating DID like some "friends in your head disorder" because it's so much more than that. Like I understand that we shouldn't frame it all as negative because we can still be happy and I understand we should be supporting each other, but oh my god, please can someone actually acknowledge the hard parts of the damn disorder.

The grief

The anger

The fear

The uncertainty

The memory loss

The relationship difficulties

Fragments

Dissociation

Compartmentalization

The wandering

The flashbacks

The derealization and depersonalization

I am suffering so much and just want to have a community where we can acknowledge all of it and much it hurts and disables people and not just be like "oMg GuYs, I hAvE a HaZbIn FiCtIvE. HaHaHaHaHa!! I aM sO qUiRkY"

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Imagine your badly injured and your son that you thought was dead starts dancing.

[izkaipie]

We are all for not fake claiming and always believing somebody when they are talking about their disorders but when they admit to faking on video and you get upset instead of allowing us to show proof and immediately assume we are fake claiming , genuinely fuck you

[beetlefanngz]

“ endogenic + non traumagenic systems are most likely misinformed CDD systems “ and “ Endos and similar associates are ableist “ are , in fact, two claims that can co-exist, by the way

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I got a gender clinic appointment on Wednesday with a psychiatrist. Pray that my medical PTSD doesn't fuck me over.

[erraticanchorforest]

"Endos aren't systems but they are still plural" Plurality is exclusive to systems sybau