she/them 🇨🇳 MINOR!!!!!
aromantic!! 💚💚🤍🩶🖤
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Name is pronounced as "suh lee yah"
I love anime :)
my favorites atm are Windbreaker, Jujutsu Kaisen, and Gachiakuta
I also love Link Click and To Be Hero X
1. If you were a bird, what type of bird would you be?
2. if you were an aquatic creature, would you be mammal, amphibian, fish, or something else?
3. do you have a favorite plushie/do you have a plushie
4. sleep. This isn’t a question. Sleep and drink water :) /threat
I’ll go first!
I would be a seagull!
I would be a mammal, probably some type of seal :)
I have two plushies that I snuggle at night! One is a sloth named Silver, and the other is a fish I made and named after my fish, Hyacinth. I love them dearly :)
i drank an entire bottle of water, and when I’m done with this, I will sleep! If it is night in your time zone I’m making you do the same
1. idk probably like one of the small ones. a sparrow maybe?
2. a fish.. simply for the reason that i often look as clueless as they do. perhaps a sunfish (freshwater/lake specific) bc it has pretty colors
3. yes hes a bear. named bear.
4. i have to wait for my pajamas to come out of the dryer bc it took a long time to wash them from when i fell into the lake this morning. and i already drank water :)
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Okay, this was the closest I could get, but my locs are shorter :p
I’m an angel, trust
Also, I really love Cult of the Lamb, and this song is stuck on a loop in my head :3
@ask-the-azure-xd @ieatrawmeat @roxy-becauseuhhidk @the-mostest-mayo (HIHIII OTHER AVERY) @erinthem0stknight (I also forgot your main) @v10l3t-v4n1ty @izzydreams3 (idk if you did it yet) @merrymewhoa
Last song: I thought it was Rabbitology, but according to Spotify apparently it was the Milgram Futa cover of Salamander by Deco 27 (it's one of my least favorite deco songs tbh, but I LOVE the cover! 💕)
Last series/movie: I think it was The Greatest Showman?
Last thing I ate: I made coffee around five hours ago? I'm about to go make spinach and garlic ravioli tho!
Last place I went to: A few thrift shops, and an antique store today (I was gonna go somewhere else originally, but I got sidetracked- 😅)
Last video game: Either twst or Fire Emblem Fates? Idk-
TAG YOUR MOOTS AND MAKE THEM EXPLAIN THEIR USERNAMES LORE
Starting with me:
Hyyl18 because when i was youngest i had a group in a random app with some friends and i didnt knew qhat username to use so i decided to create one with things i used to read since we were talking abt fanfic in this group so: Hot Yaoi Yuri Lemon +18 stuff (i was in my dirty era dont dare to judge me). Hyyl18 thats it. Now i use it everywhere yay
@patroclus-is-the-bigger-person @b4rty-r0s13r-w1ll-fck-y0ur-m0m @cuntyteardrop @glassesgirlies @leninthestarlight @bardorsomethinglikethat anyone else who wanna join tbh yay
For my name's context, I kinda stitched it together (from my husband's nicknames for me and my love for entomology) when I decide to make this art account as a platform in hopes of becoming a full time commission artist :)... and now it's all just Victor Gideon🤣🤣🤣
My favorite moth is the Buff Tip moth (Phalera bucephala)❤️
And for my lovely MOOTIES😘! @falsevacuum @gypseesgod @ivane-embraces-the-weirdness @xpinkchampagne97
Okay, so contrary to everyone else here my username is literally nit that deep XD
It's just the Name of my OC/my alias/my self Insert +the explaination on my indulgance of soecial interests.
Because on thus Account I do more activrly cringy fan-stuff while on my other socials I post more professionally. (as professional as I can be at least)
Eeeeeeh...tbh I'm suprised my username doesn't make the lore bvious.
The Lore is. I am a Vampire Enthusiast. I love vampires. Vampires instresting. Vampire lore so hardcore. I love vampires since primary school, I used to play and PRETEND TO BE ONE IN PRIMARY SCHOOL 😭💀.
my lore is also pretty simple, I’m a huge Percy Jackson fan and a daughter of Poseidon (I think I might also be a legacy of Apollo) and my whole bit is that I’m Poseidon’s problem child but that username was taken already :( anyways yeah there you go!
MOOTS SOME OF YOU HAVE WEIRD ASS USERNAMES GET OVER HERE
My username has no lore lol I just didn't have any idea what I wanted it to be but I love vine and so it just sprung into my mind and 99 is a number close to my heart
Got the idea from a game Hot Spring 2. I named the save file "Day's of Crimsons", and basically used it for other games. Eventually I changed it— removed 'Day's' and added 'Seven', then born The Seven Crimsons :) Simple enough.
Tagss @qxinartsz @anonymous-little-guy @velvetdewdrops @1m1nt00m4nyf4nd0msl0l @bearybloomie + all of my moots (I want to know ok im very curious)
My name came from me in general being a very bookish kid :). I would literally stay up till 1am reading with my nightlight (my mom kept getting mad at me lol :/). Still stay up too damn late reading (a lot of fanfictions now :3)
@rosworms @timetravelingcowboy @thechaoticraventrainer and my other moots
I thought on it a bunch because my formula for a username is (Occupation/Adjective) + (Noun) and I have a habit of saying “yeehaw” and “ya’ll” so cowboy suited me best :> And time traveling because I though it was silly
THIS IS SO FUN I LOVE IT kinda boring explanation but basically my nickname on the internet is koyu because of koyuki from kny , and the ceoofamedot part is because my otp is amedot from steven universe !!
Okay uhh mine is also incredibly boring, a few years back I needed a new username on genshin impact and one of my friends siblings suggested ‘clover’ so I’ve used that ever since for any user I guess and then 3 is my favorite number
I only have 5 moots so sorry to the 4 of you that are getting tagged twice 🩵
But anyways, the Koi Boy part is simple I've adored fish (specifically carps) for as long as I can remember and growing up I had multiple koi ponds so more often then not irl friends would just associate them with me. And the Ye Old part is there just because I had to make my username original (usually it's just ._Koi-Boy_.) but that was taken, and I've had this account for a long while so. ye old fish man. 🐠🐟🐡
Well, mine is nothing special. Since my first art post was a fanart of Riddle, like a playing card of idle 6th album, I thought it would be fitting to use "card" in my user. The lapin part is bc it means rabbit in French, and since the White Rabbit is part of the Queen of Hearts court, I felt like it would sound good.
Yarrow is my favorite flower, so from there I just sort of ended up at "Valley of Yarrow". (I usually use the same username for everything, so for whatever reason I picked something different for Tumblr)
(This is what it looks like btw! Isn't that pretty??? It's also known for uses as a medicinal herb with a fairly wide range of uses. +It also makes a tea I'm personally quite fond of! 💕)
Mutuals!! Yall don't have to join ofc but I AM gonna tag as many of yall as I know by memory-
Thanks for the tag! I haven’t watched that many anime movies but these are my favorites
No pressure tag: @eggsnatcheskneecaps @seleyaaaa @funnythingsidk @roys-our-boy @sarah-dipitous @nobinary @tisafinedayforsimping @lattuce @ni0ni and anyone else who wants to join
in my previous meta post, the strength of nirei akihiko, I mentioned that the current arc would be a good opportunity for sugishita to take a more active role in the story, since he and nirei now have an established rapport. well, it seems like that is indeed happening, so here I am, rushing to finish this post before the new chapter drops, because I have unmedicated ADHD and can't do anything in good time unless someone sets something on fire.
so, thank you for that, nii-sensei.
if I had to pick one word to describe sugishita, that word would probably be "misunderstood". because of the way he's introduced, the way he's written, and the perspective that the bulk of the story is told from, I think it's very easy to get the wrong idea about sugishita—and this is something that happens to him not just within the narrative, but also outside of it.
"fanatic". "mad dog". "aggressive". "cold". "hard-hearted". these are all words I've seen used to describe sugishita; by other people in the fandom, yes, but also in canon content. so, I wanted to try to clear up some of these misunderstandings. I want to talk about what makes sugishita tick, how he's developed (and is continuing to develop), and why he's one of my favourite characters in a series with an overall stellar cast.
this post contains spoilers up to chapter 218 of the manga.
prelude: the heart of the matter
it is impossible for me to write a post analysing sugishita's core and not talk about the fact that, intentionally or otherwise, he is very heavily autistic-coded.
there are a fair number of characters across the cast who could be interpreted as autistic based on various traits they display (and I do, in fact, headcanon several other characters as autistic), but I do also think the majority of these cases can be attributed to characters' trauma as opposed to inherent neurodiversity. I do not think this is the case with sugishita.
even having grown up with the love and support of his grandparents, sugishita struggles to understand his own emotions, express himself, and interact with others. add to that textural issues with clothing, chronic resting bitch face, and an extreme resistance to change, and it's very clear to me that sugishita is an autistic teenager who is still trying to navigate the world in a way that works for him, so I will, at least partially, be analysing him through an autistic lens.
a placid heart
I think one of the biggest misconceptions people have about sugishita—both inside canon and outside of it—is that he's aggressive by nature. wind breaker is a story that's told, for the most part, from sakura's perspective, and at the beginning of the story, sakura perceives sugishita as aggressive. this is an understandable first impression that helps form the basis for their entire relationship over the course of the story.
this also couldn't be further from the truth. sugishita doesn't like fighting. he never has. much like sakura, he never really wanted to fight in the first place, and this is both a parallel and a contrast between the two; though they were both forced into fighting at a young age, sakura found a form of refuge in it, while sugishita found it exhausting.
mostly, sugishita just wants to be left alone. he's a very passive presence, content to while away the hours napping in isolation if not for external interference. he's also someone much too small for his own body, and who would naturally fade into the background if not for the all ways in which he sticks out. he only really ever fights to protect what he values, which brings me to my next point:
a passionate heart
sugishita is not an uncaring person. he struggles to express himself and often comes across as rude or standoffish as a result, but to quote umemiya, he's really just an awkward little guy. this is my own interpretation of his character, but I think the main reason sugishita gets so angry about people disrespecting umemiya, or threatening the peace of the town, or ruining the bento his grandmother made for him, is that he cares.
he says himself that he has strong emotions. but I don't think he realises these emotions are sourced from a place of love: his love for the ones who take care of him, his affection for the town he was raised in, his admiration for the person who carved out a place in the world where he could exist peacefully, where he could just be.
I think that, to sugishita, an infringement on any of those things is as good as an infringement on his own being, and I think that knowing this also helps put into perspective the extreme response he had to sakura on the day they first met.
sugishita is not the type to take a measured approach, to step back and assess a situation before acting. instead, he acts primarily on impulse, driven by powerful emotions he doesn't understand and often can't even put a name to.
a heavy heart
I got bullied a lot as a kid.
I wouldn't get diagnosed until much later, but I'm pretty sure they could smell the autism on me—kids are perceptive like that, in ways adults often fail (and failed me, spectacularly). it would often be the case that someone would bother me, taunt me, harass me, anything to try to get a rise out of me, and as soon as I retaliated, they'd be the one to go crying to an adult about it. I'd be punished. the adults were rarely interested in hearing my side of the story.
as I mentioned earlier, sugishita struggles to understand his own emotions, and he struggles even more to express himself to others. there's a great post by @choberr that goes into detail about sugishita's likelihood of experiencing alexithymia, which you can read in full here (I feel it's worth noting that alexithymia has a much higher rate of occurrence in those with autism than in the general population—50% vs only 5%).
earlier in his childhood, this struggle to express himself led to misunderstandings, and those misunderstandings led to fights, which led to more misunderstandings, and so on. it seems to me as though, aside from the support he got from his grandparents, he was basically never afforded any grace or patience during this period of his life. no-one to take his side. no-one to hear him out.
so of course he would latch onto umemiya, who is seemingly the first person to have ever asked for his side of the story. of course he would find a sense of safety in that, even if that sense of safety would lead to his stagnation.
a stubborn heart
autism is a condition that craves stability; as such, sugishita is a character who is extremely resistant to change. this is something that even shows through his family name: sugi, a conifer, evergreen, unchanging even as the seasons pass. he is happy with the status quo, and wants things to always remain exactly as they are, to the point that he doesn't even consider that his upperclassmen are eventually, inevitably, going to graduate.
sugishita wants things to stay the same. it's for this reason that sakura makes a poor first impression on him, and that this impression sticks. admitting you were wrong about someone is difficult for anyone, but it has to be particularly hard for sugishita, who already has trouble parsing his own emotions. logically, I think he realised pretty early on that he was wrong about sakura, but knowing something and accepting it are two very different things.
but this is also beneficial in its own way; right now, there are plenty of people around sakura who are willing to uplift him, but few who are willing to be brutally honest with him. sugishita doesn't mince words. he doesn't sugarcoat. he doesn't talk down to sakura. and I think sakura needs that too: someone who'll hold him accountable as an equal and not a supporter. a rival.
throughout most of the manga, sugishita has continued acting aggressively towards sakura, and I think that's at least partially because he still doesn't know what else he's supposed to do. anger is seemingly the default he reverts to when he's experiencing strong emotions (it's safe, it's consistent, it's a reliable fallback), and he's still building the toolset he needs to handle the conflicting emotions he feels towards sakura in particular.
I think he does care about sakura, in his own way (and nirei would seem to agree with me), but this caring chafes against the loathing he's still stubbornly clinging to.
in other words, he's still growing.
a change of heart
"forever" is an impossible dream.
I think the crux of sugishita's arc is accepting this—accepting that change is an inevitable part of capital-b Being. umemiya is probably aware of this, which is why he encourages sugishita to expand his horizons, little by little. it's glaringly obvious that amongst his peers, he's by far the slowest to adapt. but given enough time, even mountains move, and it also helps that he has a catalyst; someone to prompt him to action and promote change in him.
it was honestly a stroke of genius on suou's part to pair sugishita up with sakura during the noroshi war. I think he's one of few people able to see past their surface-level bickering and understand their deeper level of compatibility, and the ways in which they could influence each other for the better (and in sugishita's case specifically, come to the agonising realisation that maybe sakura doesn't suck as much as he initially thought).
I think that's also one of the reasons why suou later said he was glad that sugishita had been getting along with nirei; a unit works best when all its parts are well-integrated, and sugishita had always kept himself to the fringes, only ever getting involved with provocation from sakura or encouragement from suou. him forming a connection with nirei is a major milestone in his personal growth, evidence that slowly, quietly, his world is expanding.
this growth bleeds over into the next major arc, where we see sugishita, if rather indirectly, approaching sakura for help. we haven't yet found out why exactly sugishita chose to do this, because he's still struggling to be open with others at this point in his development, and being open with sakura is probably an entirely different level of challenging because he's still dealing with the fact that he thinks sakura is Kind Of Cool, Actually. so when sakura probes him about it, he defaults to lashing out in order to avoid answering.
but personally, I believe the reason sugishita approached sakura is because he was able to acknowledge, if reluctantly, that reaching out to momijikawa is something he wasn't personally capable of. sugishita doesn't have the charisma, struggles with his words, can't communicate like others can. but he knows from seeing it happen before that sakura is capable of bridging that gap.
as for why he shared what he knew about momijikawa with the others, I think the reason was twofold: one, he wanted to give sakura the best shot at connecting with him. two, he wanted to clear up any potential misunderstandings. earlier, it was shown very clearly that he was overhearing his classmates griping about momijikawa's behaviour, and I think at the time, he was worried that it might end up in a situation like he himself experienced when he was younger.
in order to avoid that, he'd have to actually explain what momijikawa's deal was—and I remember around the time of the chapters in question seeing posts about it not really being sugishita's place to divulge that information, and I agree, and things could have gone much worse when considering that.
but I also think his heart was in the right place. he was coming from a place of not wanting momijikawa to be misunderstood like he himself had been in the past. sugishita himself said they were never really close, but I think him going out on a limb like this for momijikawa's benefit shows he cares a lot more than he ever actually admits to.
I think, if momijikawa had come back earlier in the school year, sugishita probably wouldn't have made the same choices. in fact, I doubt he would have done anything at all, and the situation likely would have turned out worse for it. it's only because he's been slowly, steadily changing that he was able to reach out in the way he did; the execution was imperfect and inelegant, but an undeniably sugishita way of going about it.
which brings us to the current arc. I don't think it's any coincidence that sugishita is asking to visit sakura alongside the two other people in his year he's been able to connect with. this is, I think, going to be another major milestone in his character development, and I'm really curious to see what tomorrow's chapter brings.
I've seen some speculate this is going to be another case of "tough love", like when he talked to sakura in chapter 146/7, but the more I think about it, the more I think that probably isn't the case. it's definitely possible, and I do think that it would be really fun and interesting if he completely biffed whatever interaction he has with sakura and just made the situation worse. but I think it's unlikely for one very simple reason: his hair.
sugishita has always preferred keeping his hair long, and it's been stated in his profile that he hates tying it back or getting it cut. for a long time, I thought this was just another autistic trait of his, but I've come to realise it's more than that. his hair is a shield. it's a way of keeping himself closed off from others. and what does his hair look like in chapter 218?
tucked behind his ears. face exposed.
I think this is a sign that sugishita has grown to a point where he's now more comfortable interacting with others, and has also become more emotionally open. I think he's at a point where he's ready to be open with sakura in particular, and maybe—just maybe—finally clear up the misunderstanding that's been hanging between them from the get-go.
right now, sakura doesn't need someone to hold him accountable; he needs as many people as possible on his side. and I think sugishita has been thinking very hard about that fact. and while nirei has told sakura (on more than one occasion now) that sugishita has changed, it's one thing to hear that secondhand, and quite another to experience it directly.
that said, it'll also be very useful to have both nirei and momijikawa to hand, because they both already have a strong, positive relationship with sakura. even if sugishita wants to clear things up with him, there's a good chance he'll still struggle to express himself, despite his progress. I don't doubt he'll need help smoothing things over.
and those two are probably the best supports he's going to get.
if you've read this far, thank you, and if you're someone who hasn't thought much about sugishita's character or his role in the narrative before, I hope I gave you lots to think about and maybe helped you gain a new appreciation for him! I'm really excited to see where nii-sensei takes him and the rest of the cast in the future, so let's all find out together! ♥
brokeback mountain, my own private Idaho, dead poets society, the talented mr ripley, scream
2. one character that describes you?
todd anderson,,, 😢
3. favorite song at the moment?
in the aeroplane over the sea – neutral milk hotel
4. all time favorite album?
grace – jeff buckley
5. favorite fruit?
apples who could have guessed
6. favorite time of day?
morning!!!
Okyes ummm i’m sorry these are kind of boring questions but hi guys @jealousguy-blue @apocolypticvamp @googoomeister @jakegyllenhaalsteeth/@teeth-sucker @trentreznorsbutthole @ziggysbolterxx @viansparkles @becausetheyaremyshoes2 @noodlezxy @fatboytitstoucher @dannyelfmanstattos @freakyolivelady ,,, anyone else who wants to join,,,
⠀uh oh, i havent really thought about it apart from the first one being my definite favorite but ... end of evangelion, spirited away, princess mononoke, carrie white (1976), scream (1996)
2 )⠀one character that describes you
⠀my friends say sunny from omori
3 )⠀favorite song at the moment
⠀earth angel by marvin berry and the starlighters
4 )⠀all time favorite album
⠀bury me at makeout creek by mitski, or puberty 2 also by mitski
5 )⠀favorite fruit
⠀watermelon d(^-^) is watermelon a fruit ... ?
6 )⠀favorite time of day
⠀midnight !!
@taiyvkii @celestial--atlas @duckydee-0 @ochamametchi @maplesleaves @moonjellyfisho @thewenkreborn and open tags !!
ion really watch movies that much anymore.. probably project hail mary, chainsaw man reze arc, hotarubi no mori e (though thats more of a short film..), a whisker away andd any one of the back to the future movies (ill go first for simplicities sake)
2 )⠀one character that describes you
uh uh jahoda from genshit
3 )⠀favorite song at the moment
oobankuruwase by leon nishizuki prolly
4 )⠀all time favorite album
theatre by natori (i really want the cds but they were limited and now they like 500 quid)
5 )⠀favorite fruit
⠀strawberries 🤤 anything strawberry flavoured is immediately amazing
6 )⠀favorite time of day
anywhen i can see stars, or sunset
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All of this talk about "Sakura's Firsts" and how "Suo wouldn't be able to claim one"...
...what if Suo is Sakura's first crush?
(Looking at the raws, the two fragments together 「オレは」and 「お前が…」 are the exact structural components of a japanese romantic confession without its completion. The standard form is 「オレはお前が好きだ」, meaning "I love you" / "I like you." Both subject markers are present, but the verb that'd connect them never arrives. The sentence is architecturally a confession with the most important word removed!)
Our poor, pining boy :(
also, the buds that are wrapped around sakura's right arm are supposedly associated with close bonds and love!
