[ahotknife]

in my head i do everything right

[allsadnshit]

I need a "girl who's gonna be okay" moment bad

[hutsonwoolyums]

I guess I can acknowledge that some people don’t really rewatch media as a matter of course. I have whatever the opposite of that is.

[clytemnestraaa]

Fondly thinking about how lame and eccentric Ilya was being in Tampa like UGH Hollander whatever u don't even care about you being gay or us being in love 😒 look how little I care I am making so many movements with my arms 🙄 and then he gets a smooch and is like okey I lied I do have feelings please don't look. Guy of all time.

my favorite is when he shyly starts caressing thumbs with shane on a beach at sunset and then next scene shane comes to his room and ilya is immediately like i have never felt a feeling once in my life. we get together we fuck it’s simple. okay yes i also try desperately to hold your hand on a beach at sunset. that’s unrelated. like the fact that this happens within 60 seconds onscreen is so funny to me

[farmgf]

what the FUCK is going on right now. what is going on

[farmgf]

this post is so funny because it has over 10k notes and no context but all you have to do is look at the time stamp to know exactly what the context is

[themoonandmyman]

Thinking about myshaney being so sappy and sweet towards Ilya during sex when Ilya’s feeling a little low and a little out of energy and just taking care of him.

Whispering sweet little things while he’s gently riding him, rocking his hips back and forth and telling Ilya how beautiful he is, how kind and strong he is. How much he loves him.

And if Ilya cries a little? Shane knows he gets a little embarrassed by it, so he never points it out. Just kisses the tears from his cheeks as they cum together in a slow, melting pleasure.

[rosettyller]

DOCTOR WHO

14x02 • “The Devil's Chord”

[flythesail]

Sorry boss I can't focus at work today. Yeah I found a new tv show. Yeah it could last anywhere from a week to several years.

[meme-train-choochoo]

[trickstertime]

I think about this post every time I wash my sheets

[ticklefighthockey]

I love the bathroom scene (bathroom scene my beloved) because yes ilya eventually handles the situation masterfully and regains the upper hand or whatever but you can tell how hard he’s winging it. second by second this man is flying by the seat of his pants. he’s not some suave sexy self-assured dom he’s like twenty-two and an idiot and he made shane cry which he genuinely didn’t know he had the power to do and now he’s scrambling to figure out what a suave sexy self-assured dom would do to fix it (while still seeming suave and sexy and self-assured of course). to me the beauty of ilya as a sexual and emotional being is that he is ALWAYS just making it up as he goes while simultaneously trying to project an aura of cool unflappable confidence. and he fools shane completely right up until tampa when shane is suddenly like ‘wait. hold on a minute. you have NO fucking clue what you’re doing do you’ and takes the reins.

[lesbianlandry]

prev tag from @jesterlesbian

[snowsmoked]

I personally think there is not enough talk about Russian teacher Ilya / student Shane.

I think it would start as a joke. Shane is struggling with some Russian homework and finally breaks and asks Ilya for help because it’s due tomorrow. He usually doesn’t let Ilya help because Ilya finds it boring and then becomes a Distraction. One that Shane is very weak to.

So Ilya is leaning over Shane’s desk and suddenly takes Shane’s reading glasses off his face and puts them on, studying Shane’s blocky writing. He’s joking that Shane’s handwriting is so bad that maybe the glasses will help.

And Shane’s just like. Oh.

Ohhhhh

He finally gets the glasses thing. But Ilya’s actually busy looking at Shane’s work now so he doesn’t notice Shane’s parting lips and the red spreading over his face.

“Ah, I see mistake. You mixed up - Shane, what are you - oh…”

And Shane has already pushed the chair away and is on his knees, hands on Ilya’s waistband with a little ‘please’.

Since that day, teacher Ilya, fully equipped with Shane’s reading glasses, makes frequent appearances.

[martelldoran]

i'm thinking about svetlana in s2 again. i can't fathom ilya not telling her about shane, especially when s1 made it seem like she was half way there to working it out herself anyway. so again i'm left to wonder how this will impact the show.

for much of the long game ilya isolates himself and sinks further into his depression. the only person he's honest or vulnerable with is shane and even then, he's not telling shane everything. he deliberately hides how he's feeling, hides he's seeing a therapist, gets pissed when shane isn't a mind reader, however, shane is the only person he feels he can lean on, and that's not enough, not when he's struggling. shane cannot meet all of ilya's emotional needs. and that's fine. no one person can be everything to someone.

i have to assume that he's going to withdraw from svetlana in s2 out of a desire not to burden her with all his baggage. as he said in s1, he thinks he doesn't deserve her and just because she told him otherwise, doesn't mean that he's necessarily going to believe it when he's in the throws of it.

all that to say, i think that ilya's 'coming out' scene to her from the book might change to him being honest with her about his mental health. sveta is his one tie back to russia. she's the only person he still speaks to that would have known his mother and known him in the aftermath of it. so if we spend a season with him resisting help and in denial about how awful he actually feels, for him to look his oldest friend in the eye and say, i am my mother's son and that scares me - i think that would be gut wrenching.

however, more importantly, i think it would be a beautiful moment of catharsis as ilya starts to try and breakdown his emotional barriers.

[stuckinapril]

Best brain hack is taking “this too shall pass” and applying it in the micro. The panic you feel from an argument with a friend, wanting to get on your phone when you should be studying, the absolute obsession with someone you’re crushing on, pain from rejection, utter hopelessness at a situation that is not entirely hopeless. Heavy on situations that induce panic and incentivize you to act out of turn, maybe to send a text you shouldn’t be sending or to blow up at someone or whatever it is. The antidote to knee jerk reactions is literally just “this too shall pass” and allowing yourself to feel the physical manifestation of your extreme emotion. Literally just ride it out. Even for things that can’t immediately be resolved, it makes such a big difference and prevents you from reacting in ways that you would undoubtedly regret down the line.

[2productive]

I always loved how back in the day before cellphones, people were unreachable if they weren’t at home. You can call but I won’t be there to answer. You can leave a message but you don’t know how long it’ll be until I hear it. You don’t know if I’m home, but you will have to make the trip to come to my house and knock on the door, hoping I’ll be there. And if I’m not…you can’t reach me!! Now that everyone has a cellphone the expectation of being reachable 24/7 is so disastrous. And let’s not even get into read receipts. I think one of the worst times of my inner peace is when I had an apple watch and suddenly every text and phone call and notification was on my freaking wrist, even if my phone was giving the illusion of distance by being in my pocket or bag or charging in another room. I stopped using it in 2022 and I’d rather eat a jean jacket with no water than ever be so connected again. “oh you can just turn off notifications!” not the point.

[no-fudge-left-to-buy]

Saw this on Pinterest today and it reminded me of this note i made while reading that part.

[introvertathome]

He's never beating the aroace allegations

[2242706]

if you had to choose one pokemon to be your absolute favorite out of every pokemon which one would you choose. its okay to choose a "basic" one

[myfootyrthroat]

I think some of y'all would really benefit from learning the scope of power of various political offices.

[smegorl]

Are you trying to tell me my local schoolboard doesn't have the ability to declare a unilateral ceasefire with iran?

[myfootyrthroat]

If they try hard enough and are pure of heart... still no.