the best shades of my life

we're the only family we'll ever need. kay. 20s. she/her.  jatp side, main @raquians / icon by @burntchromas / header by @julie-and-the-himbo-ghosts

[sunsetcurbed]

sunsetcurbed’s fic master post

i just wanted to have a place on tumblr listing all my fics to make them easier to find, so. :) 

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one-shots

Juke 

every piece of you (it just fits perfectly)  → 5+1 of Ray slowly coming to the conclusion that maybe, just maybe, Carlos was on to something with that whole ‘ghost’ thing.

you say we’re just friends  → Juke interview(s) based off of this Shawn/Camila interview. 

Willex 

i’ll keep us together (whatever it takes)  → Alex has changed, and he's all but taken away from Willie. Willie doesn't settle for that. 

down by the bay  → Camp Phantom has a long, rich history. It’s full of hypotheticals. Like, hypothetically, Alex can manipulate time. But. Just hypothetically. (Okay, maybe not so hypothetical.) 

we can forget the world (just you and me)  → “This was the first place I ever came out to someone,” Alex says, spinning around and taking in the tree house.

take my heart (and take my hand)  → He feels considerably less giddy a few minutes later when he grips his sword in his dominant hand and he remembers that Willie was laying across his entire body, fell into him, and… his hand is still burning.

multi-chap/series 

Princess Diaries AU - Willex - Complete, on going  

electric hammer to the heart - part 0.5 → Years before Alex finds out he’s a prince, he (re)meets Willie. you showed me faith is not blind (miracles happen) - part 1  → Alex can’t be a prince, he’s barely even a functioning human.   but you go toe to toe - part 2  → Alex has a panic attack. Willie helps him through.  keys to paradise - part 3  → Eight summers go by as Alex and Willie navigate their home life.

Babysitter AU - Willex - Complete 

don’t be afraid (dreams aren’t found, they’re made)  → The Mercers lose their babysitter for Alex’s younger siblings and are left scrambling to find a new one. Their new hire is maybe a bit of a problem for Alex. 

Break-up/Make-up AU - Complete 

give me something to hold on to  → The one where Alex and Willie meet young, fall in love young, and fall apart young. But some things have a way of making sure they’re meant to be in the end. but not like how you were with me  → What's going through Alex's head during certain events of chapter three of give me something to hold on to? Companion piece.  been hoping somebody loves me in the ways you couldn’t  → Disneyland is supposed to be a land of magic and fun, but really, it's a land of frustration and capitalism and confusion. Future fic, outsider POV. Companion piece. 

Rivals Coffee Shop AU - Complete 

i envy the cup of coffee that kisses you every morning 

→ Willie is the prettiest guy Alex has ever seen, and he wants to run his fingers through his hair, but, like, he doesn’t want to have stimulating conversation with him. Because he’s an asshole.

Mob AU - On Going 

go ahead and lay the blame (wouldn’t you have done the same?) - part 0.5 

→ 5+1 from Willie's life in the mob. The five times Willie chose the mob over his life, and the one time he chose his life over the mob. 

no reason to get excited (the thief, he kindly spoke) - part 1  

→ Alex has been admiring Willie from afar for years without realizing he’s been crushing on the underboss of the west coast’s large mob. 

there must be some kind of way out of here (said the joker to the thief) - part 2 

→ COMING LATE 2022 

[kingtcholla]

MY BIRD IS SITTING IN THE TOP CORNER OF HER CAGE CALLING MY DOG’S NAME AND ASKING IF HE WANTS A TREAT AND IF HE WANTS TO GO TO OUTSIDE AND HE’S TOO STUPID TO REALIZE IT’S HER SO EVERYTIME SHE SAYS SOMETHING HE LOOKS AT ME LIKE

  SHE LAUGHS EVERYTIME TOO AND NOW HE’S JUMPING ON ME AND BARKING AND GETTING MAD AT ME LIKE OLIVER TURN AROUND AND LOOK IN THAT HUGE ASS CAGE AND BEG HER FOR A FUCKING TREAT OR SOMETHING. 

[kingtcholla]

NOW SHE ASKED IF HE WANTS TO GO FOR A WALK 

  SOMEONE HELP. 

[kingtcholla]

NO OLIVER, IGNORE ECHO. NO ONE IS HERE 

I PROMISE. 

[kingtcholla]

I’M 1000% DONE.

“OLI GO CAGE.” NO OLI 

  DON’T. 

GO. 

CAGE. 

[kingtcholla]

hi friends. it’s been a long time since i’ve logged on to this account, and i regret the reason, but we’re saying goodbye to oliver in the coming week. i know there’s not a real reason i have to announce this to anyone, and maybe those of you who remember him would rather not have known, if you happen to stumble back upon this post.

but in looking back at his life, putting together some of my favorite moments, writing my thoughts and feelings on the loss of my best bud… i thought about this post. about how, while it was rare, when people found out that the dog in front of them was the dog from tumblr, they were so excited. about how he isn’t famous, but he is loved. he is so, so loved. by my family, but by some of y'all, too. about how from day one of bringing him home, he has just been… the goofiest guy, who never fails to make me smile, and by god is this proof of that.

i was not in a great spot on this day. this was obviously very shortly after he came home, and to be honest—we adopted him less than two weeks after losing my childhood dog. we were still grieving, but i think my parents let it happen so quickly because, well. i was a junior in high school dealing with bullying severe enough to get school officials involved. my childhood dog, sandy, was one of my biggest sources of comfort. when my mom and i went to the shelter we weren’t necessarily planning on finding oliver, but when we saw him, we knew. it was still an adjustment. i was crying the day this happened, i remember. and sandy… she used to lay with me when i cried. but oliver’s approach was tactful distraction. playing. making me laugh. being as obnoxious as he could be so i forgot what i was sad about. and this was the very first day i learned that, with an assist from echo.

he got used to echo’s antics, started talking back to her after a few months. but he can’t even hear her taunt him anymore. he’s deaf and blind now, but he still feels so much around him. i don’t know how the universe works. i don’t know how we feel or perceive love, but… if y'all could send him some love in his final days. remind him how lucky the world was that he existed, that even if it was for one day, at some point he made you smile. just… send that best vibes.

i was so lucky to be his, and have him as mine. i was so lucky to be able to share even just a snapshot of his huge, goofy personality with the world.

love you, bud.

[sncrlynwtms]

fandom etiquette as a whole died when people who didn’t grow up on fandoms became stans during lockdown, yes, but why am i seeing people openly mocking fics on twitter. why am i seeing screenshots of fics with captions like “bro what is this 😭.” why am i seeing people mock fic writers for not knowing how sports or theater or college or any other organization operates in the real world.

“college is absolutely nothing like this” “why are we writing four people on the team scoring a hat trick in one game” “so tech work is nothing like this, hope that helps!”

if you don’t like a fic, and if you can’t suspend your belief enough to enjoy a fic that exaggerates or ignores real-world orgs, you don’t have to read it. you don’t have to screenshot it and put it on blast for twitter. you don’t have to post a link to it in the replies. the back button is literally there on your phone. it’s not giving baby’s first fandom anymore, it’s giving entitled asshole and it isn’t as cute as you think it is.

[doberbutts]

For some reason it seems like every time I mention that closeted queer people exist and to strangers may appear functionally identical to cis and straight people and thus we need to be cognizant of that in order to foster a world in which these closeted people feel safe coming out always seems to result in people going "brrbrr won't anyone think of the poor cishets" at me.

Like. I actually am not talking about the cishets here, I'm talking about actually queer people who do not feel safe to come out and why that might be so that we can fix that problem and find a way to allow them to live their truth and peace and happiness as themselves. I actually don't care about the cishet people who won't feel any of these effects, I care a lot more about the rest of my community who are too afraid of the consequences to live as they've been longing to because things like being disowned by your family and being hatecrimed by your neighbors are still things that happen to queers across the globe and also in this country.

[itsabear]

There's also the idea that there's some queer people who don't "look it", and it's a little unfair to keep demanding those people come out time and time and time again to be accepted in community... ... And on the flip side, I care about the cis het people who get bullied for existing too close aesthetically to us?

I don't think there's safety for open or closeted and stealth queer people by ignoring that people are getting shit kicked for seeming too close to us?

[doberbutts]

The thing is that by fixing the queerphobia that discourages closeted queers from coming out, we would also be fixing the queerphobic targeting of cishets who are "too close" to queerness. This is why I say I'm not really thinking about them for this- yes, they too are targeted and affected by queerphobia, but when I say "they won't really feel the effects of this" I more mean the effects of a society that accepts and loves and values its queer population as equal to its cishet population. There are really no drawbacks in this for a cishet person, and only really benefits, so I'm not speaking out of a concern for them. I am, however, speaking out of a concern for rest of my community.

[luckyladylily]

A few years ago a prominent trans woman on this site (I wont say who because I don't want to be harassed) talked about reading something written by an apparent closeted trans women. He (because that was the pronouns he was using and we respect that) talked about how difficult his experience with gender was, how he often wanted to be a woman but it seemed so impossible. The entire thing was heartbreakingly painful to read. A person genuinely suffering and facing incredibly difficult barriers.

This trans woman's take away was that he needed to "get over himself and take some estrogen". She felt genuinely offended, saying it was offensive to women who had already transitioned. Her post had tens of thousands of notes and thousands of people agreeing with her.

This was a trans woman who lived in a country where transitioning was safe, she had her transition paid for by universal healthcare, her family was not a major barrier to transition, her medical transition went extremely well, seeing results many trans women can only dream of, and she had the immense good fortune of being able to start her transition before she even reached 20 years old. She had damn near every advantage a trans woman could hope for.

Now I am sure it wasn't easy for her, but I don't think she understood the deep, soul crushing suffering that some, maybe even most, trans people go through. How many of us don't make it at all. And she not only didn't care to try to understand, she was actively hostile when people pointed out how cruel she was being towards people of our community who are struggling.

In the queer community, solidarity has always been a critical part of who we are and how we survive. But we are starting to see more and more people, often young people, who had relatively advantageous queer lives that didn't need that kind of solidarity. Many of them never develop the sense of responsibility most of us have towards other queer people. They do not care about the people who are closeted, because they should just "get over themselves and take some estrogen", because it literally was that simple in their experience. If something makes them uncomfortable, then it must be bad, and the idea that they can't clock strangers on sight, especially in queer spaces, makes them uncomfortable. So uncomfortable they are willing to throw closeted people under the bus.

[chryza]

We will literally never progress past biphobia until people realize that bisexuals in het relationships are still having a queer experience by virtue of being bisexual, we do not magically oscillate between gay enough and too straight. I’m going to maul someone to death.

[girlmostlikely]

Bet it feels good as fuck to be a cat making biscuits

[jodiefosterwallace]

[7-inches-of-satanic-panic]

shoutout to that one headcanon fic writers carry with them into every fic. like even if u missed the authors name or don’t recognize the style u see the headcanon mentioned and it’s like, oh yeah, i know who wrote this, certified banger from them once again

[antisocialxconstruct]

man having your life even a little bit together will really make you realize how chronically sleep-deprived and poorly fed and under-enriched everyone is and then when they turn to you to implicitly agree that that's just the natural state of existing you feel like the asshole for being like "actually I think you might benefit from eating breakfast regularly and picking up a new hobby"

[canisitsnotlupus]

I think this is super important to remember.

[rubyvroom]

No kill shelters result in animals dumped on the highway and tossed in the river because the rescues wont take them. That’s the part they never tell you.

Meanwhile the spca will take every animal, and if they have to euthanize them at least it will be done kindly and not via neglect or cruelty.

[rubyvroom]

Because people in the notes are not getting this, let me explain:

No-kill shelters TURN AWAY animals. When they’re full - and they often are because most of these no-kill shelters are small - they stop taking them in. While they are “taking their time to find the right homes for every single animal”, many other animals never get in the door. Somehow they don’t count those animals, or track what happens to them. A success for them doesn’t include the ones they turned away. They’re taking their time because they can. 

The No-Kills who brag about 100% adoption rates are the worst, because they tend to reject the most. The animals who will be difficult to adopt out? They just don’t take those. Special needs? Too old? If they’re going to be hard to adopt out, they can claim to be full, even if they’re not. 

They are telling owners they absolutely cannot take their fifteen year old cat because they are full of litters of kittens. Adorable kittens that will turn over quickly, and boost their adoption numbers. So what happens to the fifteen year old cat? After days of being rejected at the shelters they get dumped on the side of the road somewhere, or worse. 

You cannot imagine the VOLUME of animals that a city shelter deals with. The kill shelters are not allowed to turn anyone away. The difficult cases, the special needs, the elderly, the feral. The dog that bites, the cat that pees everywhere. Every animal is going to be taken in and treated with kindness. They are going to be assessed and treated for their fleas and conditions and behavioral problems. They will get their time on the adoption floor. They will get the best chance possible to find a new home. And if it’s not possible, they will be humanely euthanized, and that cage space will go to the next animal who is already waiting for it. It never stops. While you were working on the paperwork to adopt out 1 cat, three people brought in 4 more. It’s a numbers game that you cannot win if you aren’t turning people away.

A lot of times kill shelters get the animals that the no-kill shelters refused to take. Maybe their owners bring them. Or maybe they got literally thrown in the garbage, abandoned, or put in a bag and tossed in the river, when the no-kill shelter said they were full. The police and rescuers will bring these poor injured animals to the city shelter where they will be cared for. The volunteers will spend days and weeks trying to wash the tar out of their fur, or treat their broken bones, or whatever other horrible thing has happened to them. They will feed and house them. They will put most of them in new homes. They will save many many more animals, by orders of magnitude, than a no-kill shelter ever will. A no-kill shelter will brag about dozens or maybe hundreds of  adoptions. Kill shelters are dealing in thousands of successful adoptions, and they still have to euthanize because it just isn’t enough. There are just so many animals to take in.

And then, after all this, the No-Kill Shelters get to claim the moral high ground somehow, and self-righteous types will refuse to adopt from the only shelter that takes absolutely everyone. It’s infuriating. 

[nevershootamockingbird]

[ Begin ID: Three screenshots of a twitter thread by @/hannahschramm4. The tweets read:

The difference between a “kill” and “no-kill” shelter is so misunderstood and prompts me to write a 7 tweet rant on why you need to know the difference and give equal support to both

Municipal shelters are more often tagged as “kill shelters” because they are contractually obligated to serve the community they reside in. If Cleveland City Kennel, Lorain County Kennel, and others alike get a call for an animal they HAVE to bring it in regardless of their

current volume of dogs. So if they have 20 kennels and all are full they must bring it in regardless. Contrasting, private shelters (more often “no kill” shelters) have the ability to pick and choose when and what to accept into their shelter. They do not have to exceed their

max amount of animals. So going back, people often boast that they’d never support a “kill shelter”, never volunteer for one, never adopt from one, never even visit one. And essentially, that’s the problem. Since they are contractually obligated to take in an every animal in their

municipality and they get no adoptions, inadequate staff, no support from the community, no adoptions animals are senselessly euthanized because of the stigma that they are creating themselves. If we all showered municipal shelters with the same love “no kill” private shelters

got, euthanasia wouldn’t even be considered because kennels would open because the community supports them and adopts/fosters/etc. “Kill shelters” aren’t full of monsters who hate animals, they’re typically minimally staffed with volunteers that work so hard to save every single

animal with little to not supports from their community. thanks for coming to my TEDTalk, support your local shelters. All of em :)

This thread is excluding situations where animals have no other option but euthanasia, for example: overly aggressive animals or incurably sick animals. No shelter is exempt from those heart breaking cases! / End ID ]

[sunsetcurbed]

so random but i am also a band camino (and jatp) fan but i feel like there are so many songs by them i've never heard / don't know where to start!! what're your faves?

HIHIHI sorry, i totally meant to respond to this days ago but. i forgor

i feel like since you're asking this question you've probably read gimisthot and if you've read gimisthot you MUST have heard something to hold on to, which is one of my top songs of all time. if not GOGOGO

but moving on from that, some of my faves (in no particular order) are

see through, my thoughts on you, bruises, get it your way, novocaine, someone who's trying, save my life, know it all, haunted, the black and white, know me

i truly could keep listing more, they're my favorite band and theres only a few songs by them i don't love, but in general i think that list is a great place to start!!

also let me know if you have thoughts on that list i LOOOOVE chatting tbc. and jatp. hell. bug me whenever 😌

[redstonedust]

more musicians should write about completely made up situations. i dont wanna hear another breakup album thats obviously just the singer venting about their ex. its boring. i dont care. make up some OCs and write crazy POV songs about them killing eachother.

[z-a-d-i-e]

i see posts here about how people are so mortified when they are acknowledged as being a regular customer somewhere that they never return. cowards. the employees at taco bell treat me like a celebrity. like royalty. i am their strange little pet customer who gets traded along as staff comes and goes. they know my car before i even speak in the drive-thru speaker. today i was 2 hours late and she ran over and squealed that she "thought i'd left them!" and that she "made my order with extra love!" and you what, she did

[z-a-d-i-e]

it's funny that this is getting notes again, because last night i went to the thai place in my neighborhood. it's run by a family and during covid times i ate there literally almost every day. later i cut back on eating out so much and hadn't been there in two years but last night we went and ate inside for the first time ever and the owner ran over to say hello and ask how i was, and repeated our old regular order. it was sweet. it's so easy to feel like you are an island, but stuff like this reminds you that you are part of a community.

[ealasaidh]

Being a regular is fucking awesome. I've only had that status a few times, but I always feel kind of honored. These people see humans all day every day, and they remembered me?! And not for something bad (as far as I can tell)! I'm flattered af!

[spyderqueen]

Being a regular is the best. Sometimes my DD coffee order is ready before I make it to the front of the line. I walk into my local Vietnamese restaurant and the guy in the back just calls out "you want your usual?" without bothering to get a menu for me; I sit down and they're already bringing out the plate of toppings and my drink while the rest of the order gets set up. I get the best local gossip waiting at the pizza place. It's awesome.

[sunsetcurbed]

in december i bought a house and moved about an hour away from my old DD that i went to 2-3 times a week at the same time every morning. a few weeks ago i was staying with my parents for a night to help out and went to DD and went to the drive thru with my mobile order already sent in and i was greeted with my name and an excited "heeeyyyyy!! i saw your car pulling in!!"

i pulled up and they asked me where my dog was (she always went with me) and i got to tell them she's very happy and healthy still, but then got to introduce them to my puppy. they asked where i'd been and i explained that i bought a house and they were all extremely excited for me. i don't know any of their names except for the guy who gave me my order almost every day. and they were still all so excited. being a regular is the best, and they absolutely notice when you're gone, but in the kindest way.

[lelif]

on survival

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[all-the-bones-ever-deactivated2]

this hit me like a truck

[darthtulip]

1/24/15: Johnny Gaudreau on his ideas for the skills competition

[daphrona]

Slow burn but it's written by an impatient person

[cheeseanonioncrisps]

This doesn't affect the speed of the developing relationship at all, but does make for a very passive aggressive narrator.

[sandersstudies]

“They looked into each other’s eyes for a long moment...again. Notably, they were not kissing.”