#adhd depression

[turns-out-its-adhd]

Why am I in my mid 30s still feeling like the weird kid no one wants to sit with.

Like I'm scrawling my life in a crayoned chaos while they all flow in elegantly inked cursive.

Like I'll always be catching up and just as I think I might get there I realise I wasn't even running on the real track.

[stillmyguitargentlyweepss]

Dont take meds for 2 days and then remember why im taking them

[that1girlluvr]

Does it ever get better

[bella-studyblr]

Reward-Based Studying

I just re-read this great post by @marias-studyblr and it inspired me to try something:

I’m going to start setting daily goals for myself that I have to do before I can do any leisure activities. This will give me incentive to do my homework, and the reward will make me feel good about doing my homework. I’m hoping this feedback loop will work for me.

Because I don’t have homework due every single day, I’ll break down my tasks into smaller tasks and stagger them throughout the week.

I’m not going to over-do it. I know that doing so has often derailed my progress in the past. I need to keep it simple and relatively easy if I want to stay consistent.

Every Monday my professors post the new Weekly Folder with all our assignments for that week. So every Monday I’m going to look at all my assignments, and create my weekly schedule. I’ll post it here.

So every Monday I’ll post my weekly schedule. Then every day I’ll post my daily schedule. And just to add a level of accountability, I’m going to post updates every day as well.

While writing this, I feel like I’m lying to myself. “Like I’m actually going to do that.” I’m so used to failing at time/task management because of my adhd that it’s reflected in my self-esteem.

I may not actually follow through with this. But I’m gonna try. I need to try this, because if it works, it would be life-changing for me. I’m only three weeks into my first year and I’m already suffocating. This is why I stayed an extra year in high school and took 5 years off after high school to work — I was putting off post-secondary because I was afraid I wouldn’t be able to handle it. And now that I’m here, I’m scared I might have been right.

I’m going to try to prove myself wrong.

[1sneakysquid]

Hard Week in little Brain

I'm having a hormonal fluctuation or backlash at the moment and this week has been full of nervous anxiety/dread. It's not a great feeling, and I often end up drifting from the ADHD-spurred anxiety attacks into the depressive episode that comes as a defense mechanism from the overload of feelings my body is creating. This puts me in a difficult position because it creates the feeling that:

I want to do things that I love as a distraction; I would like to be creative, I would like to fixate on something positive, etc...

I cannot fixate on anything because everything feels like too much input on an already oversaturated brain.

I end up feeling nothing internally, while still reacting to other people's art. Which drives me back into the circle of "I want to create something like this", but without any capacity for emotionally driven force. So I can't draw anything, because I can't connect with what I'm drawing.

All in all- it's not a great place to be, and I'm hoping that some horizontal time (what we call non-napping lay down time to regenerate here at home) and trying a different form of art than I usually do. See you all as things improve!

[mallonmaze]

Ok I just need to get some crap off my chest. I have ADHD. ADHD is a learning DISABILITY!! Having ADHD does not just mean that you get distracted easily. It is a serious and debilitating thing that we struggle with every day. Saying things like "I can't focus today, I think I have ADHD." Is offensive and hurtful because not only are you self diagnosing yourself, you are also uneducated and invalidating the other really challenging stuff people with ADHD have to deal with. Saying that ADHD isn't real is also not ok. Here is a list of other things you shouldn't say.

It's just an excuse

Your being dramatic

Learn to control yourself

Stop moving (stimming)

It's all in your head

It's not that hard

Your just lazy

Your to emotional

Kids with ADHD receive 20,000 more insults by the time they are 12 than children without it. Here is a list of REAL and SERIOUS ADHD symptoms.

Undeveloped object permanence (out of sight, out of mind)

Trouble Processing change/transition

Trouble Sitting still (oh wow! You got one right!)

Experiencing anxiety when handling boring things or when sitting still for to long

Rejection sensitive dysphoria

Sensory overload

Remembering simple/basic information

Excessive thinking (which can be dangerous if they also suffer from depression and/or an anxiety disorder)

Acting without thinking (which can lead to physical harm)

Forgetting/losing things

Difficulty with Organization

Little to no sense of danger (again can lead to physical harm)

Scratching, biting, picking at your skin. Usually around your finger nails. It's almost always unintentional and we do it subconsciously.

Anxiety disorder

Oppositional defiant disorder

Conduct disorder, depression, insomnia, autism spectrum disorder, epilepsy, dyslexia, Discalculia, and Tourettes syndrome.

Mood swings

Bipolar disorder, personality disorders, and obsessive compulsion disorder (OCD)

ADHD is not a joke, it's not fake, and it should be taken seriously. If you read all of this thank you and please share and re-blog this post. There are a lot of people out there who need to see this. If you struggle with your own ADHD feel free to reach out to me. I'm not a licensed therapist but I have experience and I'm willing to listen.

[0xygenth1ef]

I’m really reassured by the fact there’s so much positivity these days about neuro divergence, that’s so important and it is true being neuro diverse is fantastic!🥳

I have ADHD, Aspergers and LOADS of tics, I may be funny, and quick with puzzle books but I also struggle to feel confident in myself, to engage with school, to be on time, to be around other people, to keep my temper, to sit up straight, to talk ‘normally’, to not distract the whole class every lesson and to eat when I should.

For me, my quirks came with intense embarrassment and anxiety, I think a lot that I will never be ‘normal’, never be loved, or respected. Because I am neuro divergent. I would trade my ‘intelligence’ and ‘quirkinesses’ if I could have the piece of my mind that I feel is missing.

I just think a lot of neuro typical people don’t realise that there’s more to neuro diversity than just being a bit “eccentric”.

[yaoiadderall]

adhd is just ur mental state wildly switching between don’t stop me now and nobody as u rapidly go from hyperfocus to depression and back