Driven and accomplish-laden, your ambition to rise to the top is unparalleled, but do not forget that your body deserves breaks, too. Afraid of failure and feedback resistant, you wade through the waters of professionalism until you arrive safely to the other side. You carry whatever stragglers you find with you along the way.
You are not worthless. You can never be worthless—not only because of your distinctive intrinsic worth, but also, because I see that you are working so hard not to be. I see how you would never let yourself fall into that subdivision. I see you.
Dedicated to your goals and task-oriented, you want so much to continually improve, and my darling, do you continually improve. I know because I’ve watched you grow—shape—change forms and metamorphosis in to the you that you are today.
But I know that you struggle. I know you focus too much on success and not enough on accepting your failures, but my god, you are human.
And you are going to fail.
I know you don’t want to hear that, but I’ve advice, still. Next time, fail more spectacularly. Fail better. I challenge you to fail again. Can you manage that accomplishment, sweet love? And if you can, I’ll be so proud. But if you can’t—just give it time. For, I know, when given time, you will eventually achieve all the chores that have been laid out before you.
Because you are self-aware, I believe that you understand that your value does not lie in what and how much you can accomplish in any given timeframe, but I know, too, that you so very often refuse to let your soul rest. But you have to let yourself rest; the child within you deserves to finally be able to rest.
Remember that you are one person, and that you do not have to accomplish the to-do list of an entire office every single time you bring yourself to work. You are not required to run every errand and do every chore—not on your own, and especially not within the mere moments you are holding yourself so rigidly to.
Stop trying to impress other people. Focus on yourself and who you are. Let your accolades fall away from you, and allow yourself to feel worthy without them—without the self-imposed allegation that others will expect more from you than you can give to them. You are enough.
With every conviction I can muster,
P.S. There is no wrong decision. Any decision that you make will be the right one because you have made it.
Song: Three by Sleeping at Last
Song: Go the Distance by Roger Bart
